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Hi everyone! Yes, I know, sorry for the extremely long
wait� exams are a pain, don't remind me�
So here's the next chapter, as promised with high
doses of emotions AND a big revelation� so stay scotched to your seats peeps!
Enjoy!

Blackdiamond Princess!

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TEN: Dreaming wide awake � The never-ending nightmare
pt. 1
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The sounds of hasty footsteps that were heard coming
down the hall echoed against the naked walls of the establishment and they all
looked up, in hope to see a doctor or anyone who could inform them on Kairi's
state.
A young woman with long, curly brown hair was walking
hand in hand with her companion, a loving smile adorning her face as she looked
at the little baby she carried in her left arm.
Cloud watched them pass by with eyes brimming from the
tears, the accumulated frustration and feeling of guilt threatening to make him
collapse. It was Leon's
comforting presence that kept him from giving in. "What is fucking taking
them so long?" He whispered, taking a deep breath, fighting back the tears
once more.
Sora was trying to oppress his own fears as he
suddenly stood from his sitting position next to Riku on one of the chairs in
the wait-room and walked over to the window in the back. He actually didn't
know what to do to keep himself from worrying to
death.
"Ange�"
"I'm scared." He whispered, resting the back
of his head against a welcoming shoulder.
Riku pressed his lips against the crown of his head
and closed his eyes. "I know, I am too�"
Sora took a shaky breath as the arms surrounding him
tightened their hold on him, giving slight comfort to his state of distress.
Wakka sat silently on his chair, bent over and resting
his head on his hands, staring into the distance. He had simply sat himself
down when they had told them that Kairi was still being operated. His silence
was his way of coping with all that was happening. Giving into panic wasn't his
style and he knew that he'd be more useful to Kairi if he kept his head clear.
A blonde haired nurse then approached them, making the
entire group turn their heads in his direction. "Are you here for Kairi Miyaki?"
Cloud hopefully lifted his head away from Leon's
chest and took a step in the direction of the young man. "Yes, are the
doctors done with surgery?" He shakily whispered.
�The nurse
nodded and then turned to the entire group. "She's recovering now, but we
can allow but two persons in the room with her for the time being."
Wakka stood up. "Have the doctors said if she is
going to be okay after this?"
"Doctor Shinji will tell you more about her
state. He's waiting for you in front of her room."
"Just go you guys, we'll wait here." Sora
told Wakka and Cloud.
"Tell her we love her." Riku added with a
soft smile, holding Sora closer.
With a nod, Wakka and Cloud followed the nurse down
the hall to the intensive care centre and disappeared behind the large green
doors.
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The shadows cast on the walls by the fire burning in
the fireplace were dancing in the dark, their forms strangely comforting to the
young brunette sitting in front of the burning pile of wood.
Two days had passed since the accident and Christmas
Eve was tomorrow.
Not that Sora even cared anymore, with all that had
happened. It was hard to see the good things in the world after everything all
of them had been put through.
Sleep had proven itself to be traitorous enemy now;
his mind had rendered itself to dark thoughts and endless sessions of worrying
prevented him to find the depths of a careless sleep.

"�She suffered major damage to her uterus, we
stopped the haemorrhage but I'm afraid that the scar tissue that will form
there will make it impossible for her to carry, let alone bear a child�"

He did not know why the news hurt him so much
personally. Becoming a parent himself was a dream he had put aside a while ago
when he knew Riku would be his partner for life. Yet something had died within
him when the doctor had delivered them the news. In his dreams, he couldn't
stop hearing a child crying, it felt like it was blaming him, accusing him of
making it so sad and so lonely. It wrenched his heart to hear those cries,
making him feel guilty for not using his semen to a more useful purpose�
Kairi turned from a young, attractive and fertile
woman to an un-fertile one. It wasn't her fault, she did not choose for it, but
he was young and very fertile and he wasn't using his ability for procreation
out of his own choice� Two years ago he had cast away his hopes for having a
child on a boat with Riku holding him in his arms. He had thought that those
feelings had been gone, why did he have to be feeling like this now?
Pulling his legs up his body, he rested his chin on
his kneecaps, gazing into the fire, an emptiness starting to fill his heart, an
unexplainable feeling of loneliness and fear taking hold of him.
"Does this make me a murderer�?" His whisper
got lost in the shimmering darkness surrounding him. "Is this even
right?"
He closed his eyes and sighed, wiping away the tears
he hadn't noticed before. For some reason his mind suddenly had to replay the
events of his assault a few days ago, messing everything up more. He couldn't
help but feel, and now even more with what had happened, like an empty shell,
something that could be easily disposed off, something meaningless and without
purpose�
"Sora?" Naked footsteps
coming from the hall could be heard as he turned his head to the sound and soon
gentle hands were laid on his shoulders. "Sora, it's
2 o'clock in the morning,
what are you doing here?" Riku kneeled next to him on the carpet and
noticed his tears glistening in the light of the fire. "What's wrong
babe?" He whispered, taking him in his arms.
"I just� I�" Sora sniffled back against his
chest, clinging to him. "I just feel like�"
Riku ran his right hand through the mass of brown hair
and held him close, shutting his eyes and pressing a kiss on the crown of his
head. "Like what? Talk to me ange�" He
could feel his heart break at the soft sobs that started against his chest.
"It should've been me. It's not fair; it
should've been me�" Sora sobbed, his tears flowing down his cheeks as he
gritted his teeth in anger and frustration. "It's not fair, Riku�"
Riku held him protectively against his chest, making
small shushing sounds to try and calm his little lover. "It's alright,
babe� It's alright�"
Sora shook his head and detached himself from him, his
tears still rolling down his cheeks. "No, it's not� What are we doing? Why
do we make love, what's the use? I receive your seed, but it goes to waste! I
can't give you children! And god�" Sora paused and looked at him with pain
filled eyes. "I'm so scared�" He whispered,
his voice small and fragile, "I don't want to feel like I have nothing
inside of me, like I don't mean anything..."
Riku gave him a gentle smile and wiped away the tears
rolling down his left cheek with his thumb. He had wondered when Sora would
finally yield to the pain he had been carrying inside of him since the incident
on that parking lot a few days ago� He had figured that Kairi's accident would
be a trigger, because he knew that that was just how it all worked in his
Sora's head.
"Sora� I was wondering when you'd finally break
down�" Riku whispered with a soft smile. "It's alright� I understand
how you feel and I'm here." He took him in an embrace and tightened his
grip on him. "I know you're feeling guilty and scared because of what
happened to Kairi, but what happened to her doesn't say anything about you or
us�"
"But I feel so empty inside� My heart, it feels
like it's on the verge of breaking�" The brunette whispered, his voice taking
on a panicked tone as he trembled from trying to talk while sobbing at the same
time.
Baby, hey�" Riku soothingly whispered, looking at
him now. "It's going to be alright� "He smiled at him.� "One day, when we'll both be ready, I
want to have children, make a family with you."
Sora whispered his name and held him close, his hands
grasping frantically at the fabric of his t-shirt. "Riku� I'm scared
almost all the time� a-and it's like I can't get rid of it,
that fear� It's everywhere and I-I can't� I can't shake it�" His
tears now flew down his cheeks as he cried his bitter sorrow, desperately
trying to find a peace of mind, needing something to hold himself on to even if
it was only for a little while.
"Let me fill the emptiness for now, Sora. Let me
be your shield�" Riku closed his eyes, rocking them back and forth.
"Let me be what you need� for now, please?"
"I can't�" Sora whimpered, holding him
tighter. "I can't� Please help me�"
"Oh Sora�" Riku shushed, rocking their
bodies back and forth. "It's okay�" He let Sora finish crying his
tears. "I'll never leave you; you'll always have me to protect you. I love
you, Sora Nagakawa."
A watery smile appeared on his face while it was
against Riku's chest and nodded. "Just hold me�"
This made Riku kiss him on the crown of his head and
tighten his grip. "I'm here�"
"Riku� Thank you so much for being you."
Sora whispered, looking at him now. "Since day one, I've loved you so
much."
"Feeling a little better?" Riku whispered
softly, taking him back in his arms and pressing a soft kiss on the crown of
his head. He felt Sora slightly nod against his chest and he tightened his hold
on him. "I told you before Sora, and it wasn't a childish wish." The
silver haired one whispered, looking down into his beautiful face and brushing
a few stray locks of brown behind both of his ears before cupping his face.
"No matter what has happened these last few days... You
and me? It's forever." He then chuckled; "And I'm sorry to
say, that you'll never get rid of me. I'm like cockroaches. I pop up
everywhere"
Sora giggled up at him and closed his eyes as Riku's
lips descended upon his. This was the Riku he loved; always trying to make him
feel good, even in times like these. "Well then, I guess I love you,
Mister Cockroach."
"You guess?" Riku chuckled, tentatively
brushing his fingertips over Sora's left side making him giggle. "And I
who thought that I had your unconditional love�" He was tickling Sora now,
eliciting more giggles from the brunette who was soon writhing in his arms,
begging for mercy.
"Ah-hahaha�! R-Riku,
stop�! I l-love you, okay? At least, I think I do�?" Sora was now lying on
his back, trying desperately to keep Riku's hands away from his body. "Oh
god, please stop-ahahaha�! I� love you, I surrender,
Mister Cockroach!"
"How much do you love me?" Riku asked, his
hands stopping their tickle-attacks on him.
"This much!" Sora said, spreading
his arms wide with a grin.
"That much?" The older male
whispered back, chuckling at how cute Sora was right now.
"Yes, that much." The
brunette whispered, his hands now joining behind Riku's neck. "And even
more, but my arms are too short."
Riku chuckled. "Is that your final answer?"
Sora nodded. "It's my only answer." He
softly whispered up to him, his right hand moving up to brush some of his long
silver locks behind his left ear. "I can't thank you enough for all the
things you do for me. No one will ever compare to you, you're the only one who
truly understands me."
"At your service 24/7�" Riku whispered back,
though the airy tone of his voice had been replaced by a more serious one as
Sora pulled him down on the carpet. "Are you sure? We can't make too much
noise�"
"I don't care�" Sora whispered back, already
pulling Riku's drawstring pants down his hips with a hand while wriggling out
of his shorts with the help of his other. They both let out a soft moan as
their crotches came in contact with each other, their flesh awakening to the
sensual friction.
"I need you�"
Riku positioned himself so, that he was on his knees
with Sora's calves resting on his shoulders and he could open the bathrobe the
brunette had put over his naked torso. His eyes ran over his wanting face and
his slightly parted lips whispering his name, to his body that was glowing in
the light of the fire, his chest rising and lowering as he panted slightly from
the anticipation and growing need for completion. He bent over, capturing a
nipple between his lips, the tip of his tongue playing teasingly with the small
digit while his ears listened to the sweet melody of his moaned out name and
the delicious sound of trembling gasps and whimpers.
Slowly, very, very slowly, he then made his way down
Sora's heaving body, his arms encircling his waist as he arched, keeping him in
access range as he showed his adoration for the beautiful body given to him so
willingly.
A sharp gasp escaped Sora when Riku engulfed him
whole, his head rolling to the side and his right hand sliding into his hair at
the overdose of sexual stimuli that shot up his spine. "A-ahh�"
Riku watched him with eyes glazed over by raw lust,
his head moving slightly up and down while his hands kept Sora's body at his
mercy. His little lover was far gone into his pleasure now, his body and mind both crying out for only one thing, and he was himself
in no state to refuse him that.
Sora was trembling like a child trembling from a
severe fever, he didn't seem to have any control over his body, his senses
having taking over now, making the slightest movement of air causing him to
moan uncontrollably. He watched with a feeling of helplessness how Riku removed
his pyjama pants and pulled his hips closer to his, pressing up against his entrance.
"I'm sorry, there's no lube�" Riku bent over
slightly and slid two fingers passed Sora's lips, watching how the brunette
took suckle for a moment before removing his fingers to place them at his
entrance.
"R-Riku�I'm�I'm ready now�" Sora panted after
a few thrust from Riku's fingers. "Come inside of me�"
Placing his hands on his hips again, Riku pulled Sora
to him, pushing past the tight ring of muscles and into his welcoming warmth.
"Oh Sora�" He lowered his calves from his shoulder and positioned
himself in between his legs, capturing his little brunette's begging lips with
his accepting ones, feeling the need to be connected with him in as many ways
as possible.
"Ah, yes� ah-ah!" Sora broke the kiss,
arching at the series of fast and hard strokes before getting captured in
another lip lock as the thrusts slowed and became languorous and deep, making
his body tremble and moan uncontrollably.
"Sora�"
"Ouhh�" Sora
countered, closing his eyes and arching at the strong hand grabbing hold of his
left thigh, helping Riku to hit that sensitive place inside of him. "Oh
god, that's it�" He whined in a high pitched tone, feeling tears forming
in the corners of his eyes before Riku kissed them away.
"I love you, Sora�" Riku whispered before
beginning his series of deep and fast thrusts that would lead him to his
release.
Sora cried out at the increasing speed, feeling his
orgasm come on as well. "Give it to me�" He sobbed, holding on to him
tightly, desperately wanting to feel that feeling of perfect completion.
"C-cum inside�"
With a stretched out growl Riku shot his seed deep
within Sora, feeling him tremble with the force of his own shattering orgasm
beneath him.
Softly sobbing, Sora held Riku against him, caressing
his hair and kissing his face while whispering soft words of thanks.
When he found his strength back, Riku lifted his head
and kissed him deeply. As the brunette gave a surprised sound, he pulled back
to give him a crooked grin. "Do you still feel empty�?"
"Ahh� You're hard�
again�?" Sora moaned, closing his eyes at the length throbbing to life
again within him. "R-Riku-uhnn�"
The silver haired one did not answer but moved in to
kiss him again and placed his elbows on either side of Sora's head, brushing
away the dampened locks of hair that had come to cling against his face before
thrusting inside of him again.
"Ouhh�!" Sora
moaned up to him, feeling so loved it was almost overwhelming. There was no
feeling of loneliness or one of emptiness, he felt so much life in him right
now, so much love he didn't want anything else. This was what he had had
thought missing, but he had had it all along. Riku had reminded him of this,
and he felt even more blessed to have this man in his life.
For now, this was all he needed, for now this was
enough; he couldn't ask for anything more.
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A naked arm slid around his waist, spooning him
against Leon's
resting body as they both lay on the bed, a moist kiss pressing on the nape of
his neck. He sighed, placing his hands on the arms holding him, waiting for a
sleep that never came.
Listening for any sign of his lover's awakening after
the passing of many moments, he disengaged himself from the embrace he was held
in and made his way to the door, making sure no sound caused Leon to
wake.
Arriving in the hall at the end of the stairs, he saw
the soft glow of the dying fire coming from the lounge room, the forms of Riku
and Sora's sleeping bodies cuddled up on the right couch underneath the TV-blanket.
He turned and walked away, moving himself to the piano
room.
There he let his fingers glide over the keyboard
without much attention, only to find a feeling of sadness taking hold of him as
the few notes vibrated in the bright, moonlit darkness.
His eyes laid themselves on the full moon shining
through the naked tree branches and on the besnowed
scenery, his forehead connecting with the glass of the window as he sighed and
closed his eyes.
Kairi had been pregnant.
It had been such a hard reality to gobble down, not
only for her, but for him as well. The chances of her ever carrying again were
extremely slim.
He was worried sick about her, but after two days of
constantly being by her side, Leon had
convinced him to return to the chalet and rest, but he was way too agitated to
find sleep, let along just rest.
Wakka was with her now, and he had to admit that the
redhead had proven himself to be a real source of support to his sister, his
calm nature and comforting words reaching further than his own neurotic and
anxious state of mind. He knew he would take care of her, because it was
undeniable to everyone that he loved her deeply and that he was prepared to do
anything to procure her the happiness she deserved and needed right now.
A rustle of fabric and the shuffling of feet were suddenly
heard behind him and he started to turn when a deep, sultry voice greeted him.
"You should be asleep because you need your
rest."
His eyes fell on Sephiroth, who was standing by the
door, wearing nothing but his pyjama bottoms, his naked torso seeming to glow
in the pale light.
Cloud didn't respond, yet simply turned his head away
again, closing his eyes. "I can't find sleep�"
A hand was laid on his right shoulder. "Then at
least try to rest."
"Please Sephiroth." He whispered back,
turning his head towards the hand that lay on his shoulder. "I have a lot
on my mind."
"I can imagine�" The older man whispered
understandingly, yet not moving his hand from its current position on Cloud's
shoulder. "We can talk, if you want, koishii."
Cloud closed his eyes and looked away again, shaking
his head. The pet name Sephiroth had given him so long ago didn't have the
slightest effect on him anymore. It was as if there had been shackles squeezing
around his heart, keeping him for letting his past go. He felt free now, free
to take the next step forward.
"I thank you for your concern." He whispered
feeling Sephiroth come closer and place another hand on his other shoulder.
"But I would like to be alone now."
"Understandable." Sephiroth replied, his
hands now sliding down Cloud's arms.
"There is no need for this any longer, Seph." Cloud whispered softly, turning around again,
and facing him once more. "I have already made my choice."
A serene expression formed on the taller man's face,
making it hard to see if he felt any emotion at all for what Cloud was going to
tell him. Or was he that confident about the answer to the question he had
asked the blonde last week?
"The time I spent with you will forever be
written in my heart. I cherish the times when we
argued and loved afterwards, the times you showed me how much you truly loved
me. But you and I know the reason why we broke up. My trust in you has been
shattered and up until today it hasn't fully returned and I don't think it ever
will be the same way it was before." Cloud resisted the urge to look away
or close his eyes; he wanted Sephiroth to understand that he was being dead
serious; he had to make things clear between them once and for all.
"Despite the hard time you put me through, I found love again and he's the
only one I want to be with. We love each other and what you and I did didn't
change that one bit." Cloud fell silent as Sephiroth suddenly took a step
closer to him. He then gasped as he bent over and took him into an embrace,
countless questions playing through his mind; his eyes open wide in surprise.
Without any warning, Sephiroth then tightened his hold
on him, sighing softly into his right ear. "Cloud.
I won't give up on us�" He then pressed his lips against the blonde's
forehead. "The way your heartbeat is racing inside of your chest must mean
that you do have some feelings left for me, don't you? How can I accept what
you said if you're not being sincere?"
Cloud kept his lips sealed, his eyes closed as he
received another kiss, right before Sephiroth bid him goodnight and left the
room.
Damn you Sephiroth��
Damn you�
It was as if things didn't want to stop getting more
and more unbearable with each passing minute.
Now he didn't only have his sister to worry about, but
also his passive-aggressive ex-boyfriend.
Why can't you just let me be?
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The orchids standing next to her on the nightstand
were swaying slightly in the small breeze that came from the slightly opened
door; the teddy bears sitting at the end of her feet were smiling sweetly at
her, the big red and pink hearts embroidered on their bellies wishing for her
to get well soon.
The balloons standing next to her bed were casting
blue, yellow, green and pink shadows on her face because of the light coming
from in between the light green curtains.
She turned her head to the left, finding Wakka
sleeping in the bed next to hers and sighed. She looked up at the ceiling, her
hands moving around her lower belly.
Before she could even start to hold them back, the
tears were already flowing, soon followed by soft wails of the overwhelming
feelings of loss and emptiness.
She crawled into a foetal position, holding on to her
waist, searching for solace in her suddenly pain filled, yet empty world.
"Baby?" Came a soft whisper from behind her, followed
by a pair of comforting arms encircling her waist. Wakka lay himself behind her
on the bed, simply holding her, knowing that more words wasn't what she needed
right now.
"Do
you still love me?" She whispered, holding on to the arms around her
tightly. "Do you still want me? Even now that I'm only
half a woman?"
"Of course." Wakka whispered back, pressing a kiss at the nape of her neck.
"Kairi, I love you so much. I couldn't start imagining my life without you
in it."
Her
face contorted itself again, more tears flowing out of her closed eye-lids.
"I lost our baby..." She whimpered.
"Shhh... we both didn't even know you were pregnant..."
Wakka consoled her, squeezing their joined hands softly.
"Are
you relieved?" She asked softly, her eyes now open as she blankly stared
at the orchids next to her bed.
"We
both weren't ready for this child, Kai..." Wakka whispered, closing his
eyes and snuggling closer to her. "But if you had decided to keep it, it
would have been alright too."
"Even if we both weren't ready?"
"For
some things you can't ever be ready enough." He whispered back, kissing
her left temple. "We would've managed."
At this
she broke down in tears again and he simply held her, consoling her with his
presence and love he had for her.
An hour
or two passed as they lay on the bed like that, morning soon turning into noon and with noon, came the time for departure.
"Ready?"
Cloud asked Wakka as he waited with Kairi in the hallway. Wakka closed the door
to the now vacant hospital room and handed Kairi one of the teddy bears Sora
had given her.
"Please
tell me Sora or Leon cooked, because I've had enough
of this salt-less hospital food!" Kairi said from her wheelchair as they
entered the elevator.
Cloud
chuckled at her and started to push her forward. "Leon and Sora cooked today, just for
you."
"Nice.
Can't wait to get out of here." She replied with
a smile.
Both
Wakka and Cloud exchanged a look and they smiled softly in turn. Kairi was
trying very hard right now to get herself together and honestly be happy for
everyone who had supported her during the last week.
"So
you guys honestly postponed Christmas just for me?" She asked with a
giggle looking up at them from her seat.
"It
wouldn't have been much fun without you there anyways." Cloud whispered
back with a smile. "And the majority of the gifts under the tree are for
you so we had to wait for the star."
She
giggled again and squeezed her teddy bear in between her hands in excitement.
"They better be big gifts."
"You'll
just have to wait and see for yourself, doll." Wakka said with a smirk
before stepping out of the now stopped elevator. "It's a surprise."
Cloud
smiled at them both and then told Wakka to take over the wheelchair so he could
go and arrange the paperwork that still needed to be filled in at the main
counter for Kairi's checking out.
"Dude,
you promised you'd pay us!" A hooded man loudly whispered as he talked
into the phone of a phone booth not so far away from Cloud. "It's been 10
days already! Yea, they released me, just like you said they would, yea they
bought it... So when can I receive the rest of my pay?"
Cloud
frowned a little in annoyance and turned to look at the person. He found the
guy staring at his rear as he was bent over the counter and chuckled as he was
caught. They exchanged glances and Cloud went to sit himself
down in one of the chairs in the waiting room, feeling annoyed.
"68 Ars
Arcanum Lane? No I don't, but I'll be there in an hour. 78^th floor, right."
Cloud
stood back up to return the form to the lady waiting for it at the counter just
as the man hung up and walked passed him, rearranging his hood so his fiery red
hair went hidden underneath it more and disappearing through the revolving
glass doors of the entrance.
"Thank
you, sir. Have a nice day." The young nurse said, taking Cloud's form and
taking it with her to her computer.
But
Cloud wasn't listening anymore; something had just clicked in his head.
"That
guy looked familiar... his eyes, his hair... Where...?"
It's
been 10 days already!
"He's
that guy who..." Cloud whispered in slow realisation and horror. "But
how...?"
Yea,
they released me, just like you said they would, yea they bought it... So when
can I receive the rest of my pay?
"Impossible..."
Cloud suddenly felt like he was going to be sick. "Don't tell me that
he..."
Ars Arcanum Lane 68 is where Sephiroth's
enterprise is seated. His office is on the 78^th floor...

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"Cloud
Strife is here to see you sir."

"Let
him in, Lenne." Sephiroth spoke into the intercom, standing up to receive
his guest.
The
doors to his office opened and Cloud stepped in with a determined look on his
face.
"Good
afternoon, Cloud. To what do I owe this sudden visit? I thought that Kairi was
supposed to get out of the hospital today?" Sephiroth greeted him with a
content smile as he leaned against his desk with his arms fold against his
chest.
"Had
any red-headed rapists in here lately?" Cloud immediately asked, staring
him dead in the eyes, clenching his fists that lay at his side.
One
perfectly shaped silver eyebrow rose in a silent question, but Cloud did not
seem to get fooled, so he unfolded his arms and rest them on the desk on each
side of him with a smile. "You know, I have never been able to lie to you,
Cloud."
"Answer
the damn question!" Cloud spoke, losing his patience.
Sephiroth
chuckled softly, bending over and closing his eyes. "I was sure you would
come to figure it out some day. You're just perceptive like that."
Cloud
couldn't believe what he had just heard. So it had been Sephiroth all along?!
He had been behind Sora's assault? He had orchestrated it?! "Why?" He
whispered in a horrified tone. "Why?!"
"Can't you see it, Cloud? All I've been doing,
all of this is for you, only for you..."
Cloud, still in shock, simply turned to look at
Sephiroth, and as he came closer, he backed away. "What's wrong?" the
white haired man asked. Cloud could only look with a fixed gaze. A gaze of
seriousness yet at the same time, filled with pain.
"I... I can't... I can't even look at you
anymore..." Cloud spoke, his voice strong, yet on verge of cracking,
"What you did... To me, to us... To them... How could you...? You're a monster!" There
were so many mixed emotions in his voice. Anger, pain,
sadness.
Sephiroth took a step closer to take hold of the
smaller of the two, but grasped only air; Cloud was too vigilant to be caught
off guard.
"I never... not even in a picture, want to see
your disgusting face again." Cloud firmly announced to the man in front of
him. "If I could, I'd rip out the images of you from my subconscious, but
I'll just have to deal with those."
Sephiroth's expression was one of coolness, but there
was something else in it... Something... Unseen.
"So, you're going to leave again?" the platinum haired one asked.
"Oh, yes." Cloud replied, "And this
time, to a place where I'll be sure to not see you by mistake!"
Sephiroth simply turned around and stood in front of
his desk. "I see... So... Your heart truly does
lie with him... Doesn't it?" he asked calmly.
"What?" Cloud asked,
a face of disturbance upon him.
"Is it that you love Leon too
much to leave him?" Sephiroth asked straightforwardly. "Or are you
perhaps afraid that he might harm you if you come back?" the silver haired
man said, now looking straight at Cloud, his left hand resting on his
desk.�
Cloud's was shocked as he heard this, but he barely
had time to even analyze those words when the next ones came. "Because, if you're afraid of him, I can take care of him.
I can make sure that he won't come between us." Sephiroth was now turning
around, his voice slowly losing it's cool, calculated
tone.
"You think this is about Leon?!"
Cloud interrupted as Sephiroth was about to start another part of his little
rant.
"Isn't it?" Sephiroth asked.
"No! My God..." Cloud ran a hand through his
hair, and began to walk in circles. "You can't even see it... You don't
even -know- what's going on!"
"Like I said, I can take care of him, the same
way I took care of Riku and S--" Sephiroth began but his face soon
encountered his left cheek to be overcome with a burning sensation. Slowly, he rose a hand to feel, and arranged his gaze to see what had
happened; Cloud had slapped him.
"How dare you bring that up in my presence!" Cloud yelled, "You know something?
You're sad."
Sephiroth simply looked with his cold eyes, still
shocked.
"It's sad... That the great, calculated
Sephiroth, top graduate from one of the greatest schools in the country can't
see what's going on right in front of his nose; you can't even understand
it!" Cloud said lowering and raising his voice, indication that his rage
was sinking deeper into his heart.
"Let me set things in proportion for you, just so
you can see things clearly, Mr. Makoto." Cloud stated. "You set this
whole thing up from the very beginning, in an elaborate ploy to try and win me
back." Cloud was now the one walking around the office, the switch of
dominance clear in the atmosphere.
"However--" Sephiroth began, but was
immediately cut off by the blonde.
Cloud was now no more than 2 fingers distance from
Sephiroth's face.� "You caused for
Sora and Riku to endure inhumane sufferings because of your own greed,
Sephiroth. You made them get hurt because of me, no, no, because of
-you-." Cloud said in silent exclamation. "And now... This is the
price that you pay."
Cloud was now at the foot of the steps that led to the
door to exit the office. "Goodbye, Mr. Sephi--"
but before he could finish his sentence, Sephiroth fell on his knees in his
position in the centre of the office. Cloud tried to listen, to the sound he
was emitting. Cries...? Or was it... Laughter? Sobs?
What was it?
Cloud began to walk closer, slowly and with caution,
the sound becoming clearer as he got closer. But these sobs were not just tears,
there were words tied to them.
"If you had asked me to give you the world, I
would have served it to you on a silver platter..." Sephiroth whispered, his face invisible from underneath his bangs.
Cloud closed his eyes and sighed, turning his face
away from this sight. "Seph..."
"Look
what you've done to me!" He whispered, looking at his trembling hands, his
teeth gritted as he fought against the next wave of tears. "Look at what
I've become." He now gazed at him with pain filled eyes, tinted with a
hint of heartfelt remorse.
Cloud took a step back at this unsettling sight,
Sephiroth's jade eyes piercing into his sapphire ones with such intensity it
was hardly bearable. "How can you put the blame on me?" He whispered
with a trembling voice, not wanting to feel sorry for him, not wanting to get
caught into his web of deceit again.
"How can I not?" Sephiroth whispered softly,
a slightly disturbing smile appearing on his face. "You're the only one
I've ever felt so strongly about, the only one who's made me go to such lengths
to gain love from." He then chuckled, although a lonely tear travelled the
long his right cheek. "You drive me crazy."
Cloud could only feel pity for this man now, closing
his eyes and turning away. "My love for you died a long time ago,
Sephiroth. I have nothing left to tell you. Nothing left to give you." He
softly spoke, turning around now, preparing himself to leave. "Please take
care of yourself."
"No..."
Cloud halted for a second, but forced himself to
continue on to the exit.
"No, you can't do this to me..."
There were not going to be any more turn backs.
"You can't leave me!"
There was nothing left to hold him back.
"Cloud!"
He was free.
"I SAID THAT YOU CANNOT LEAVE ME!"
The door he had started to open suddenly fell shut again under the weight of a heavy hand that was
slammed upon it right above his head.
Cloud gasped in fright, removing his hand from the
doorknob. Without turning around to face him, he found back his cool and calmly
whispered; "Let me go."
Sephiroth closed his eyes, standing close enough to
smell Cloud's sent, obviously enjoying their current closeness. "You're
not going anywhere."
Suddenly, a loud clicking sound was heard from behind
the door, the door's locks shutting themselves.
Cloud gasped again and this time turned to face him,
not able to hide his frightened state any longer. He saw the small lock-control
device in his right hand and looked up at him, giving him a
gaze of utter disbelieve. "Sephiroth, let
me go!"
The older man didn't answer, but only approached
towards the blonde further, leaning into him while putting the locking device
in his right hand pocket. His now free right hand then moved to take hold of
Cloud's chin.
"Don't touch me!" Cloud venomously said,
slapping his hand away only to have it close around his throat a moment later.
Sephiroth chuckled as he watched Cloud fight back
against his grip for a moment before applying more pressure in warning.
Immediately the blonde stopped fighting and he chuckled again in satisfaction.
"I am not going to let you ruin our love like this, koishii.
Not after all I have done to maintain it." Sephiroth whispered his eyes
cold and harsh as he looked at him. "You're not going anywhere."'
"Seph, you're hurting
me...!" Cloud managed, struggling to breathe. "Please... st-stop! You're being crazy!"
"You're mine, koishii."
Sephiroth whispered, now close enough to brush away the starters of Cloud's
tears with his lips. "I've allowed your little street rat to fuck you for
a while, but even I can lose patience." He brushed a few blonde locks away
from his crying face. "Your body, mind and soul belong solely to me."
With brute force he then ripped open Cloud's shirt,
the buttons flying all around them, and then moved to loosen his pants.
"Sephiroth, stop, please!" Cloud pleaded,
unable to hold his sobs in any longer. Angst was now rippling down the blonde's
spine, knowing very well what was about to happen. "If you truly love
me�"
"Oh but I do." Sephiroth smirked back
maniacally. "But since you don't know what's best for you, you leave me
with no choice."
"Sephiroth..." Cloud whispered softly, more
tears rolling down his face before harsh lips descended on his trembling ones.
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Japanese vocabulary list:
-Koishii : beloved

To be continued�

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