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Heart and Soul	By : wickedorin Category: Kingdom Hearts > Slash/Yaoi - Male/Male Views: 3499 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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"Heart and Soul" and the general wrongness that is "Heart and Soul" are
completely copyright Orin Drake 2006. Square-Enix and Disney own
Kingdom Hearts, Kingdom Hearts 2 and the characters contained within...
but I wish I did. I wish a lot of things, though.

        Background: A second
chapter of this was certainly unexpected. Of course, Demyx/Axel wasn't
exactly expected, either... and unfortunately for some, this chapter has
no sex. No warnings except maybe language and some bizarre concepts.
In general.

Heart and Soul: Horizon

by Orin Drake

        Just another night.
Or day. Or... or whatever the hell. It's not as if anyone could
tell by the sky. Not as if anyone ever actually bothered to look
at the sky all that often, anyway. Nothing to see there but some
ridiculous dream that damn well didn't matter anymore.

        The fire mage was just starting
to settle into his comfortably dismal mood when a too-chirpy voice interrupted.
"Feelin' lonely?"

        "No." He denied immediately,
bothering neither to turn and attack the approaching figure nor throw himself
off of the building he was perched on. He was just in too foul a
mood to care.

        "Yes you are." The
extremely wide smile was felt before it was seen. Demyx invited
himself to sit beside the brooding redhead, similarly looking out at the
dark streets.

        Axel was not amused.
Though... well, at least it would shatter the boring silence. And
then some. "Does alcohol work on Nobodies?" He could really
have used something to stop the thoughts for a while. Fire and violence
just weren't cutting it. Not to mention, he'd been informed that
if he set one more thing on fire that was not "regularly on fire", Saix
was going to do something unrepeatable to areas he'd rather not have handled
quite that roughly.

        "Dunno." The musician
shrugged, stretching his legs out, off the side of the rooftop. "Never
tried."

        Annoyance turned to curiosity
almost too quickly for his comfort. "As in never-never, or just as
a Nobody?"

        "Never-never." He
responded, still smiling. "When you see so many really talented musicians
go down because they turned out to be lushes... well. No thanks.
I'd rather not chance it."

        That was... funny, really.
Or Axel thought so. "Yeah, but... doesn't matter now, does it?"

        The blonde's standard blissfully
moronic expression slipped, just a little. "Guess not." He
made an effort to grin. "Got a bar around here?"

        He truly wished he hadn't
been looking, hadn't witnessed what could really pass for emotions running
across the other's face... it was making Axel extremely uneasy. Not
to mention... it was bringing back memories from an encounter not that
long ago. Despite his brain screaming against it... he wanted
to ask. He had to ask. "Hey, uh... A few days
back, when... yeah. And you were... you said... some things..."

        The over-compensation for
the shivering discomfort was palpable--but Demyx seemed to have a practiced
hand at distraction and denial. "Anything good?"

        Unfortunately for the both
of them, the redhead had the market of distraction and denial somewhat
cornered. The game ended immediately with the narrowing of his eyes.
"Dammit, you know what I'm talking about." For one, quiet
instant, he considered stopping if only to spare the feelings of those
wide blue eyes staring back at him--but they were Nobodies. Just
Nobodies. "All that shit you dumped on me! About your
Other's life. About what you lost. Why did you have to do
that? Why do you just go on pretending like anything matters,
like we could ever feel anything now?"

        The musician looked away
slowly, staring down at the street below with several minutes of thoughtful
silence. When he finally responded, it was a soft, quiet bomb.
"You've got to stop buying the Superior's shit, Axel."

        The fire mage was far more
taken aback by the blond's language than his verbal mutiny. He opened
his mouth to question further, but thought better of it when their eyes
met again.

        "Admit it." Demyx
implored, softly. "You feel. Maybe not everything... not all
the way, but... there's something there."

        The redhead could definitely
feel
Roxas' name in the other's throat... glad it went unspoken. It was
a point made, regardless. "What if there is?"

        "Then we have hearts."
The musician insisted. "We're not... nobodies."

        "But we're not..." Axel
searched for a word that might be suitable to describe their state of being.
"Whole..."

        "True." He conceded.
"But we're not nothing, either."

        There was a long silence.
One that felt so immense that the redhead became uncertain of whether anyone
could break it... but finally he gained the courage to try. "Why
are you even talking to me, anyway?"

        Demyx shrugged without looking
at him, smiling... though his usual expression was faltering quite a bit.
"Guess I'm just... kinda dumb, huh?"

        That's what everyone thought.
What everyone said, constantly. But the redhead... was learning better
of it. Much better. Sure the kid was clumbsy--he didn't want
to fight and often it seemed like he really did have the mind and maturity
level of a slightly retarded child, but... "No." He responded,
almost too quiet to hear. "I don't think you are."

        Another silence grew between
them--but not so tense. Not as insurmountable and vast. "Oh."
The blond spoke at last, seeming nearly... worried.

        "It's not like I'll tell
anyone." Axel assured, not particularly certain why he was bothering.
"Hell, I wish I'd thought of that. Acting like a moron so they'd
leave me the fuck alone."

        He seemed appreciative of
the idea, leaning back on his elbows and gazing at the sky for a moment.
"I think we're kinda similar." Demyx finally answered the earlier
question, about why he was talking to the pyro in the first place.
"I think... Roxas was, too." The smile fell completely from his voice,
but not from his lips. "Just... didn't get to say so. Now it's
too late. Again."

        "Again"..? --Oh.
The redhead got the distinct impression the words that had spilled so bitterly
from Demyx's lips during that "meeting" in the alleyway had something to
do with it. He'd spoken of his life being torn apart... people screaming
for him that he couldn't save... it gave him the shudders. He purposely
kept his past as a "full-hearted somebody" locked away, repressed.
He didn't want to remember.

        And then there was that...
other
thing the musician had to be called out on.   "You were hoping
to... be with us?"

        "Dumb, like I said."
That fake plastered smile was getting a little painful. "Can't help
wishful thinking sometimes."

        Axel felt chilled, suddenly.
"Wish you'd said something."

        No, the blonde was no stranger
to heartache... but neither was he a stranger to covering it all up and
trying with blood-slicked and desperate hands to grasp on to another moment.
Perhaps a better moment. Humor returned, though tentative.
"Yeah, me too!"

        He really couldn't help
but grin a little... but it dissolved quickly. "I think... Roxas
would have left no matter what. It's just who the kid was.
But... but at least we could have... y'know." He didn't want to get
all
sappy, after all. "And now... now I think we're all gonna
die."

        That appeared to be no jarring
revelation to Demyx. "Yeah?"

        "Yeah."

        The musician wished vaguely
for a sunrise... or a sunset... A distant, perfect thing of beauty
to gaze at with dying dreams. "Are we even alive to begin with?"

        Axel snorted. "Hey,
you're
the one trying to convince me that we have hearts!"

        "I know, I know!" he defended,
chuckling. "I... I'm kinda... nervous about it." He swallowed,
uncertain of whether or not to speak his thoughts... but really, he had
no reason not to keep them silent. Axel had been the only one not
to demand he shut up on a regular basis. "I mean... I want to think
I'll find my heart... all of it... So I don't want to be turned into
a Dusk, but... I know I'll just have to fight Sora at some point.
A-and, I... I'm a little... I mean, I was never religious, but..."

        "You're worried about your
soul when you die."

        Though he pretended not
to be, Demyx was taken aback by how easily his concern had been grasped.
"Yeah. How'd you know?"

        The redhead shrugged, glancing
at the heart-shaped moon that seemed to have everything to do with their
destinies. "I guess I am, too."

        The lump in the musician's
throat was not fit for a heartless Nobody. "Oh. Well... make
me a promise then?" He forced a chuckle when he realized how very
final and serious he'd sounded. "I mean, you don't have to keep
it... just lie to me here."

        Axel's grin had never been
so hard to maintain--but he was in good company. "Okay, then."

        In truth, Demyx wasn't even
sure what he was asking. He just knew it had to be expressed somehow.
"Roxas is still part of Sora, so... if there's any way at all to help him..."

        "Yeah." It was a sincere
agreement, acknowledged by absolute silence.

        They stayed there for a
great while, staring at the place where they wished the sun would rise.
Only when it became clear that no amount of wishing or hoping or vicious
longing would bring the cosmos any closer, the musician lifted to excuse
himself. "Well, I got another stupid mission. Something about
stealing a stone in the underworld or... something. Catch ya later."

        Nodding, the fire mage dismissed
him with a small wave before returning his gaze to the horizon. Maybe...
if he stayed just a little longer...

        ...I don't know. I
just... don't know. But there will be more to come.

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when I update, drop me a line (orin(at)sephain.com) with whatever story/stories/website
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