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Missing Your Presence	By : Araea Swiftwind Category: Kingdom Hearts > Slash/Yaoi - Male/Male Views: 1229 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 1
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Story Title: Missing Your Presence
Chapter Title: Musings
Author: Araea Swiftwind
Parings: (Past and possibly future) SoRiku; (One-sided) TidusxSora; RikuxCloud
Warnings: This story will contain mature content, including sexual activities, foul language, and mature themes not suitable for people under the age of 15 without parental consent.
Disclaimer: I make no money from the making of this fanfic. I am only writing this because my hands started typing and this popped out, and I felt it was evil to delete it. I just want to share this tale with others, so in suing me, you are destroying people’s happiness, so please don’t do that.
Word Count: 2911
A/N: Read the stuff at the bottom for pertinent information
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Kairi and Selphie were sitting at a small café down at the boardwalk talking about Sora and Tidus. They both knew how bad Tidus had it for Sora, and how Sora had no intention of ever being with Tidus because he was so hung up on Riku. It was a shame, really, because both boys were so beautiful. Selphie suggested that the way to get the boys together was to lock them in a room together until they did something. Kairi, ever the patient one, suggested that they merely let nature run its course, and if Tidus and Sora were meant to be together, then they would get together. She knew that the boys wouldn’t appreciate the girls meddling in their love life.
As the girls were talking, both Sora and Tidus were walking towards them, each from a different direction. Neither boy saw the other until they met at Kairi and Selphie’s table. When their blue eyes met, both felt something completely different. Tidus felt a jolt of electricity that went straight to his groin. Sora felt prickles all over his face, the affect of the intense rage he still felt for his blonde “friend.”
“Hi Kairi, Selphie. How are ya?” Sora asked softly, pointedly ignoring Tidus.
Kairi smiled brilliantly and replied, “Oh, I’m fine. Selphie and I were just having some girl time to chat. Wakka just left for blitz ball practice a little while ago, so we thought that it would be the perfect time for us to have some peace and quiet.”
“Yeah!” Selphie added. “Having boys around makes it so much harder to talk about them.” Kairi stepped on her friend’s foot to get her to stop talking. It took several tries to get the hyperactive girl to catch her drift.
Sora smiled at her, and patted her on the top of her head. That made her really happy. Selphie had always like Sora like a big brother, and when he did stuff like that, it made her feel like he felt the same way.
So far, Tidus hadn’t said anything. He was still looking at the ground, scuffing his shoes in nervousness. Since the day before, he was feeling a little self-conscious. He knew that he was going to have to work hard if he wanted Sora to like him, but he had no idea how to go about it. He had a feeling that if he opened his mouth, he’d say something to make Sora hate him even more.
Luckily for Tidus, he didn’t have to come up with anything. Kairi could see how much Tidus wanted Sora to pay attention to him, and how much Sora really didn’t want to. Realizing that staying out of it really wasn’t an option if she wanted both boys to be happy, she stepped in.
“So, Sora, what did you wind up doing yesterday? I know that Tidus, Wakka and Selphie were play-fighting, but I didn’t see you there with them.”
Sora turned to regard Kairi, a slight glare on his face. The reminder of his hours of searching for an ugly ring brought all of the anger back up to the surface. He hated Tidus for making him battle and octopus to find that stupid piece of ugly jewelry.
Clearing his throat to get rid of some of the emotion, Sora answered, “I was…hunting.”
Kairi had a puzzled look on her face. “Hunting? Where would you be hunting, and for what reason?”
Sora ground his teeth a little, trying to hold back his fury. He wasn’t sure if he managed to hide it from Selphie and Kairi, but he responded all the same. “I was hunting in the ocean, for something that was lost there.”
“Sora, why are you being so cryptic? Why can’t you just tell me what you were looking for?”
The brunette let his glare intensify, sure that his friends would now be able to see how mad he was. “Because, Kairi, it’s none of your business.”
Tidus’ eyes widened in shock, as did Kairi’s and Selphie’s. None of them had ever heard Sora talk to anyone like that, not even some of the bullies from school. Tidus knew that Sora’s outburst was his fault, so he finally got up enough courage to say something.
“Sora, don’t take your anger out on them, please? I know you’re mad at me…so yell at me if you need to. Kairi just was being friendly.”
Tidus’ interference was too much for Sora to handle calmly. He turned so that he was fully facing Tidus and punched the blonde in the face. “I’m so tired of you, Tidus. You’re pissing me off, thinking you can boss me around. Well, you can’t. You’re not Riku, so stop acting like you are!”
Sora clapped his hand over his mouth, realizing what he sad. His eyes widened in horror, and he turned and ran away from his friends, off towards the pier. The brown haired boy ran as quickly as he could, one hand still over his mouth, the other pumping furiously at his side, trying to bring him more speed.
Once at the pier, Sora stopped and bent over, his breath coming out in harsh bursts. He couldn’t believe that he said that to Tidus. He didn’t even know he felt that way. It had been several months since Riku left, and it seemed to Sora that ever since then, Tidus had been trying to fill the silver-haired boy’s place. Sora had been trying really hard to ignore that fact, but now that he was thinking about it, it was something that had been there all along. In fact, it was probably the reason that he had gotten so mad at the boy over the ring incident.
Sora had been trying so hard to forget about Riku, repress him until he wasn’t even a memory, but there was just too much tied up into the boy. He couldn’t just put him away at the back of his closet like a too small hoodie. Riku had been a part of Sora’s life for the last 16 years, and for at least 14 of those years, Sora had been in love with his silver-haired friend. They had shared so much.
It was painful for Sora to remember. But with his chest still heaving from his run to the pier, and his head still reeling over what he yelled at Tidus, he couldn’t do anything else. He had to remember Riku’s strong arms holding him. He had to remember the first time Riku pinned him to the paopu tree and kissed him. He had to remember the first time Riku took him up to the fort and gave him a blow job.
A broken sob escaped from Sora’s lips and he fell to his knees on the wood of the pier, his arms wrapped around his stomach to keep the pain in. He didn’t want to let it go. He didn’t want to give away this last piece he had of Riku.
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Tidus was still standing next to the table that Kairi and Selphie were sitting at. He felt as though he had been slapped across the face, and he was sure that his face betrayed that feeling, if the looks he was receiving from Kairi and Selphie were any indication. He had no idea where the comment came from, but he did know deep down that it was probably pretty accurate.
Ever since Riku had left, Tidus had been trying to get closer to Sora. The blonde just hadn’t realized that he wasn’t just trying to be friends with Sora like Riku, but instead of Riku. Tidus hadn’t realized that he wasn’t trying to be in the same league as Riku, but that he was trying to kick Riku out of the league altogether. It was really no wonder that Sora hated him. Realizing all of this, Tidus hated himself.
Kairi put her hand on Tidus’ arm and gave it a friendly squeeze. “It’ll be okay, Tidus. I don’t know if you noticed, but Sora was shocked at what he said. He didn’t mean to yell that at you. I’m sure he didn’t mean it at all. He does like you; he’s just still hurting over Riku’s leaving. Give him some time, and I’m sure he’ll come and apologize.”
Even though Kairi sounded so certain of herself and Sora, Tidus just couldn’t believe her. He felt like the biggest ass, the biggest loser ever. His heart was breaking into a million pieces, and he didn’t know what to do. As the tears started to fall, he felt two little arms wrap around his waist from behind. Selphie had gotten up from the table and hugged her friend. She hated to see people sad, especially the usually confident Tidus.
The two girls spent the next several hours comforting their blonde haired friend. They took him out to eat, and to get some sea salt ice cream. And by the end of the afternoon, Tidus felt moderately better. He knew that Sora still hated him, but with his friends at his side, he felt like he could weather that.
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Sora was walking along the beach, vaguely watching the sunset. He didn’t know why he was being so mean to Tidus. Yeah, he was still a bit upset at being made to go fish for the ring in the ocean, but in light of everything else he was feeling, it shouldn’t be enough to make him such a jackass. But maybe that was it. The fact that he was feeling so many other emotions, things he couldn’t do anything about. Maybe it was the fact that Tidus was a prime target that made him be so mean. It wasn’t exactly like he could just walk up to Riku and yell at him.
But should he go and talk to Tidus, apologize for being such an ass? Or, should he think about going to look for Riku, confronting him with his feelings? There were pros and cons to each option. If he went to talk to Tidus, he could wind up being meaner than before, and ruining everything. But if he didn’t go talk to Tidus, the boy would think he hated him forever. Sora didn’t want that, seeing as he didn’t actually hate Tidus. And if he went to find Riku, he might not like what he found…or even get the chance to talk to the silver-haired beauty. However, if he did get the chance to talk to Riku, and Riku was receptive…he might get his boyfriend back.
Sora continued to walk along the shoreline, now actually paying attention to the fading light of the sun. It really was beautiful, seeing the fleeting orange and yellow and pink light of the dying sun. As the last vestiges of sunlight left the sky, Sora made up his mind. He would go and talk to Tidus in the morning, and then…then he’d make plans to fly to Radiant Garden and find Riku.
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Tidus was up in his room, looking through the newest blitzing magazine. He was still hung up on his confrontation with Sora. He thought for sure that Sora would come over to yell at him some more or something, but he hadn’t heard anything from his brunette friend. Why did Sora flip out like that? Did he really hate him that much?
The phone rang, startling Tidus from his musings. It was Kairi. She had called to see if he wanted to go to the movies with her and Selphie. As much as it sounded like fun to him, he just didn’t feel up to spending two hours alone with the meddling girls. They would probably get him to talk about what happened with Sora, which would lead them to believe that they could help, and that would lead to a big mess. No. It was better to stay home and just read his magazine. He thanked Kairi for her offer, and told her that maybe he would take her up on it another time. She said goodbye, and he hung up.
Kairi. She meant well, but she always seemed to over do it. Except when she got Riku and Sora together. They were happy for so long after she got Riku to see how much Sora loved him. They even managed to do the impossible: stay in love during a war. A war in which they both took sides, and not even the same side. Riku was fighting for the dark, and Sora for the light. But still, they were in love. They saved Kairi, they saved the worlds, and they came home for good. Or so everyone thought.
But then, only months after coming home, Riku left again. This time without Sora. Kairi was yelling for him to come back, to keep Sora happy, but he didn’t listen. Sora heard, though, and he got angry with Kairi for making him seem so weak. They were on the outs for a while after that. But Kairi, loveable Kairi… She managed to get Sora to see it her way. She was like that.
And Selphie. Selphie was the cutest and sweetest girl anyone ever knew. She was a romantic at heart, and always wanted people to be happy, and to have that “ever after” to rival Snow White’s. (Well, Snow White’s wasn’t so happy after the war, but before the heartless took over it was.) She had made sure that Riku and Sora weren’t disturbed when they needed some alone time, even if they didn’t realize it themselves.
Tidus remembered one time when Sora and he had been talking about something in their classroom, and Selphie had barged in and grabbed Sora. He had been shocked, and a little worried. For twenty minutes after, Tidus had been looking for Sora and begging Selphie to tell him where she had stashed the boy. But she wouldn’t let out a peep about it. Then, Sora and Riku came out of the broom closet a few feet away, and Tidus’ face flamed red, knowing exactly what they had been doing. Yeah, Selphie was good. And she loved to meddle.
Tidus let out a rather large yawn and stretched his arms out over his head. He was getting tired, and all this thinking and remembering was starting to make his head hurt. He got off of his bed and put the forgotten magazine on his desk. Making sure that the floor of his room was clear enough that he could walk without his lights on; he flicked off the lamp on his nightstand. The darkness no longer scared him. Not after Sora defeated it.
Tidus pulled off his shirt and pants and stood in front of his bed clad only in his blitz ball boxers. From his vantage point, he could see out his window and all the way to the shoreline. The moon had risen already, and it sparkled off of the Caribbean blue water. Tidus loved the water. It reminded him of Sora’s eyes. Sora, the one who finally managed to mend his broken heart.
Tidus shook his head to get away from such deep thoughts and closed his curtains. He wanted to sleep tonight, and if the curtains remained opened, he would be thinking about Sora until the morning came. Better then to shut out temptation and get a good night's rest.
Climbing into bed, Tidus rolled onto his side, looking away from the troublesome window, and pulled the blankets in tight around himself. He clenched his eyes shut and counted down from one hundred slowly in his head. That always worked to calm him down. In no time, Tidus was wafting away to the land of dreams, where Sora and he were happy, and Riku had never loved Sora in the first place.
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A/N: And that’s it, folks. The end of chapter two. I know it was a ton angsty, but hopefully not so much that it made y’all choke. Sorry it's so short, but I stop where the ideas for the chapter run out, and this is where that was.
In other news, some of you might have noticed that I took the pairing LeonxSephiroth out. You shall notice in the notes at the bottom of the next chapter that I am requesting ideas. Feel free to PM me with your thoughts on the question posed there, and I shall take it under advisement.
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