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Find Me Somebody To Love	By : trishd83 Category: Kingdom Hearts > Slash/Yaoi - Male/Male Views: 1694 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Okay here's Chapter 3, let me know what you think.

This story is really starting to take shape in my head and there will be some interesting twists and turns in the future. Not to mention other pairings that may or may not end up in a lemon or two (heehee)

Anyway I'll let you get to reading and please, if you like what you read, let me know.

Disclaimer: I own none of the characters or anything referenced to Kingdom Hearts.

Chapter 3

The Declaration

After he finished eating Zexy decided to try another one of Sammy-Dees stories. He loved "The Happy Cow" so he looked at her other stories and decided to read "The Other Side Isn't so Green." He loved it, well at least the chapters he'd read so far. He reviewed after each one and true to what Riku said she responded to all of them. They were actually having fun going back and forth, he really liked her, He had a feeling they were going to become friends. She, like Riku, seemed like someone he could talk to and trust with his feelings. He didn't know why the connection was so fast but he felt it deep and strong. He started typing his review for Chapter 8.

Poor Axel, I don't know what to say, T-T I really hope things get better for him and he starts feeling better about himself. I have to go read the next chapter before I start crying.

Your writing continues to be superb.

Sammy Dee wrote him back within a few minutes.

I can't believe you've read eight chapters in one night, you read really fast! Thanks for reviewing and I know Axel's life is a sad one but it's just how I see him in this story. I'm really glad you like it and thank you so much for saying my writing is good. ^_^

Oh yeah and Riku told me that he got you to read my stuff. He also said you're a really nice guy but of course I knew that already from our talking/typing whatever. Oh and I keep meaning to tell you my name, it's Yuffie. Anyway thanks again for reading my story and for reviewing.

Zexy smirked when he read that Riku mentioned him to Yuffie. That meant he was thinking about him enough to talk to someone else about him, definitely a good sign.

So Riku talked about me to you huh? I think he's a really nice guy too. He's been very sweet to me and I have started developing some very strong feelings for him in a very short time. But I don't know… I'm nervous about what might…

Yuffie responded pretty fast again.

I've been talking to him for a few weeks now and he seems to be pretty nice. He's funny too ^-^. What are you nervous about?

Zexy answered before he started reading the next chapter. He decided he would put a little faith in his instincts and trust Yuffie.

I've been hurt badly from another that I loved and I am afraid if I move too fast it will happen again. And since this is all through messaging he could stop at anytime and there would be nothing I could do to stop that. If he gets angry… I don't know, it's a risk with my heart.

What if…

Yuffie read his last message and started to worry a little. He was pretty scarred from another relationship and she had no idea if Riku would hurt him. How could she tell him to have faith when she would never do the same? Being hurt so many times herself, she now lived by the philosophy "Always expect the worst that way you're not disappointed," it worked for her. She didn't expect good things to happen or things to work out so how could she tell Zexy to? She wasn't sure this is what he wanted to hear but she didn't lie.

He was reading chapter 9 when he got a message alert. Zexy counted what paragraph he was on and switched screens, it was Yuffie again. He was starting to sink into a black mood with each hour that ticked by with no word from Riku. He opened her message.

I wish I could tell you to not worry and that I'm sure it will work out but, I don't believe in stuff like that. I always expect the worst so I'm not disappointed. *shrugs* Sorry, I hope things work for you guys but I'm not going to tell you it will be fine because that's just not how I think. I do know that Riku seems like a nice guy but again I've only known him a little longer then you have. I am curious though, why would you think he would get angry?

He knew he liked her and was glad he went with his instincts. It was refreshing to talk to someone who didn't say what they thought you would want to hear but rather what they truly felt. Fact was that was pretty much how he thought too. The message didn't make him feel better about Riku but it did make him feel closer to Yuffie. He now had a sister pessimist, yay! He grinned and wrote back.

I have to thank you for your honesty; it is a rare and refreshing thing. I happen to live by the same philosophy so I find myself feeling a new stronger bond with you my sister pessimist : ).

As for Riku getting angry…I have a tendency to hurt the people I care for or love and seem to have a knack at pissing them off as well so I am sure it is only a matter of time before…

"What is with the … thing? grr Zexy finish your sentences," Yuffie growled after reading his last message. It was cool that he thought like she did. That meant she would finally have someone she could talk to that wouldn't constantly tell her to not be so negative. But his writing was cryptic and she wasn't good at figuring things like that out. If he kept this up she would have to ask her sister for help, Aerith was the one that could read people with barely an effort.

ooOoo

It was 7:30 and Riku still hadn't responded. Zexy was beginning to think he just might have scared him away. "I only put my head on his shoulder though, it's not like I attacked him." he reassured himself as he killed some more zombies. He was taking a break from reading because he was having difficulty staying distracted. He needed something more intense that required most of his attention. "Its 10:30 there he should have responded by now. Unless he had to do something after work, that's always a possibility. Just relax, he'll reply." He decided then immersed himself in his gaming as he'd done so many times before to escape the world around him. When he finally emerged from his game induced coma he checked his messages and there it was. "I knew you wouldn't let me down." he grinned and opened the message.

You're not horrible, just, idk, an idealist, like me!

I'm glad you feel you can be open with me. It's probably because I'm kind of an open book myself.

Ok now your Sempai REALLY needs to get to bed. I ended up having to baby sit my brothers, that's why this is so late and I'm so tired, but I'll try to get back on in the morning and certainly after work, at 4. I look forward to reading your reply. They make me feel good even on a bad day.

So goodnight and sweet dreams, I know I'll be having sweet dreams of a certain blue haired guy I'm slowly getting to know : ). Oh yeah and I'll probably call you Zexy cause it rhymes with sexy and I have a feeling you are very sexy.

Any questions at all, seek your Sempai, me, like about life or whatever, maybe not relationships, but I could give my best educated guess.

Goodnight (sleepy, but firm hug).

Zexy couldn't stop smiling and he had that warm feeling you get inside when you see someone you like and they stand next to you but you don't know what to say. All you know is that you want to touch them, hug them, kiss them. That's how he felt about Riku. He was so sweet, and funny he made him laugh and feel good whenever he read his messages. So basically they were making each other happy. "Hmm isn't that what couples do? I wonder how far I could push this? He did say he thinks I'm probably sexy." He read the message again. He said he would be dreaming about him, Zexy smirked, "I wonder if he'll dream about the same things I've dreamt about. Okay so mine are during the day when I'm awake, a mere technicality." he his smile faded as he suddenly had a vivid memory of a dream from several weeks ago. It hit him so fast and with such detail that his stomach lurched and his head began to spin. He went to all fours dry heaving and started shaking violently trying to control the emotions that slammed into him with the memory. It took him several minutes to gain control of his body and mind again. He sat with his back against his bed panting as he fought the small tremors that came sporadically. Finally he regained full control and began his reply. He refused to let himself think about if he should share this part of him with Riku. Instead he let the words flow and before he could second guess himself he sent the message. That night he cried himself to sleep feeling exposed and vulnerable for the first time in months.

ooOoo

Riku woke up before his alarm went off. He lay in bed for a few minutes recalling his dreams. As he predicted they all stared Zexy. Most were innocent enough but one of them had his groin reacting to the memory. He decided he should go to the bathroom before he reacted too much to ignore, he peed, brushed his teeth, went back to his room then sat on his bed and powered up his laptop. He was anxious to see what Zexy wrote in response to his comment about dreaming about him. "Yes, he responded," getting comfortable, he opened Zexy's latest message.

This is going to sound crazy... *sigh* here goes... I have dreams, incredibly vivid dreams that I usually forget. Then not but a few days later, they happen. Not as exaggerated as they are in my sleep, but still the dream. I can see glimpses of what is to come in my life; but as I said, I usually forget. Then when the events happen, I'm hit with a wave of sickness maybe psychic feedback. Sometimes strong enough to drop me to my knees...I told my mom once, and she called me evil... she doesn't remember saying it, but it's stuck with me... I ask my friend (Hell) to help me interpret them, because I trust her. More than she will ever know... One of my more recent dreams found me talking to Hell-girl and a silver haired male wrapping his arms around my neck. I remember waking so happily, only to realize it was only a dream... this is one of my greatest secrets *begins crying* and only a select few know it... Zexy is fine if you are comfortable with it. Good night, Sempai. *hugs last time for the night* I am really starting to need these messages. I can't tell you how much you/they are beginning to mean to me. And I assure you that you will be the subject of my dreams though I may not remember another for awhile.

Please don't... don't abandon me...

Riku was stunned. He read the message several times, he kept zoning in on the words "one of my greatest secrets" and "silver haired male" trying to process what they meant with regard to him. It touched him deeply that Zexy would trust him with such an emotional secret. And he'd had a dream where a silver haired guy was hugging him? How many young men with silver hair are around? Could it have really been a premonition? Maybe they truly were destined to meet in person. His heart rate sped up at the thought and he found himself angry with Zexy's mom for calling him evil. Riku had firsthand knowledge on how much it hurt when your mom said things like that. His Mom was a pro at making him feel like absolute shit with her words and name calling. Why would his mom think that déjà vu or premonitions were evil? What is wrong with her? It hurt him to know that Zexy was crying when he wrote this, he couldn't stand the idea that he was alone, crying with no one to comfort him. Riku also had firsthand knowledge of how that felt and he wished he could have helped his little blue haired Zexy. He wrote back with his emotions raw and his anger threatening to fray what little control he had over them. He didn't want Zexy to be sad and alone dammit!

ooOoo

Zexion had tossed and turned most of the night. He kept waking up then would have trouble falling back to sleep again. At 5 am he decided to just get up since he had to leave for school in a couple of hours anyway. He picked up his phone to shut off the alarm and noticed he had a message from Riku. His mood perked up a bit along with his heart rate. He was a little nervous as to how Riku reacted to his message last night. His body relaxed as soon as he saw the first sentence.

I won't abandon you Zex, (hugs you around your neck) not to make fun of you, but to comfort you.

Thank you for sharing that, it must have been hard for you, and don't cry, be happy, maybe I am that silver haired male, there aren't many of us around after all, though I'm not sure what that dream means to you.

And it doesn't sound crazy, I feel an odd sense of déjà vu on a regular basis too, so if you are crazy, well, then so am I. And I believe in premonitions too so it's possible it could be that as well.

(Hugs tight) so you know I care.

Zexy started to cry, he couldn't help it. Riku couldn't have responded any better. It was exactly what he needed to hear, and each time he read the message a little more of his doubt disappeared. He was truly falling fast and hard for Riku and with each message he sent it seemed that Riku was returning at least some of those feelings, and he didn't think his premonitions were crazy, in fact he believed what he told him, didn't even question it. That was exactly what Zexy needed right now, someone to believe in him because truthfully he was struggling with that one at the moment. He took a deep breath and started his reply. He wanted to end it with I love you but thought that might freak Riku out right now so he only hinted at it to see what his reaction would be.

Once he sent the message he decided to start getting ready for school. He was up early enough that he had time to take a shower and since a he fell asleep before taking one last night, that would be his first order of business. Gathering his clothes and phone and went to the bathroom. He turned on the shower to warm up the room while he went to the bathroom and read a few more chapters of Yuffie's story. He reviewed what he'd read before getting into the shower.

The hot water felt good on his weary body. He hated crying, it always made him feel drained afterwards especially the morning after he cried himself to sleep. He let the hot water soak into his hair as he stood with his hands on the wall and his head down slightly so the water could pound against his shoulders too. After a few minutes he turned and tilted his head back using the water to pull his hair off of his face. He filled his palm with shampoo, spread it between his hands and began massaging it into his scalp then working the suds through his hair. He kept his eyes closed and this of course created the opportunity for him to picture what he thought Riku looked like in his mind. His mind saw a tall, lean muscled guy, his hair resting on his shoulders, and his intense blue eyes standing out in contrast to his silky silver hair and sun kissed skin. He pictured full soft lips and a strong jaw with high cheek bones image became crystal clear as he rinsed the soap from his hair. The suds slid down his body in large clusters following the contours of his well defined abs to his groin. The sensation of the suds sliding over his cock and slowly dripping off the tip of his head in combination with his image of Riku had him growing hard. Zexy imagined Riku stepping into the shower with him, soaping up his hands which he then used to explore every inch of Zexy's body. He imagined those hands as strong, slightly calloused, so he could feel the rough texture under the slickness of the soap.

With his eyes closed he pretended his soap slicked hands were Riku's and ran them over every part of his body the Riku in his mind did. With his mind submerged in the image he slid his/Riku's hands up his sides to his pecs. There he ran his/Riku's palms over his sensitive nipples a few times then with the thumb and forefinger of each hand he gripped his nipples and squeezed making himself gasp. He pulled and twisted at the same time causing just enough pain to draw a moan from his lips and send his head tilting backward again. He/Riku left his nipples hard little pebbles and slid his/Riku's hands down his body rubbing them over his now fully erect penis. He made his knees buckle slightly when he grabbed his shaft and squeezed. With his/Riku's other hand he slid past his groin to cup his balls. His/Riku's soapy hand made working them even more arousing as it easily slipped up and down over his sack forcing his balls to move out into the stretched sides of their protective pouch then slide and press into each other when he/Riku slid his hand back over it the other way. All while stroking his cock in a tight fist with agonizingly slow strokes.

His breath started coming in short bursts as he/Riku continued to work his cock and balls. He had the image of Riku clearly in his mind and could picture him doing all of this to him, he took himself so far into the fantasy that it became almost real. He had detached himself from his movements, and only allowed his mind to consider Riku as the owner of those hands stroking his body in a frenzy of sensation. He could feel his low belly tighten and his balls begin to pull up as he came closer to release. The hand stimulating his sack moved to his crease and slid down the path to his puckered flesh. He tested his readiness by pushing his/Riku's finger inside up to the first knuckle, he cried out in ecstasy and his hips bucked pushing his cock into the tight fist gripping it then pulled back to escape the overload of pleasure only to force the finger deeper inside making him cry out again. He/Riku was pumping his cock and thrusting his finger into his ass in unison so he didn't know which way to thrust his hips. Either way would not let him escape the sensations that were racking his body bringing him closer and closer to his orgasm. He felt Riku's lips touch his neck and a tremor travelled down his spine. He/Riku added a second finger and found his prostate then switched the position of his other hand so his thumb was stroking the underside of his shaft, he loosened his grip and began fast, long strokes making his hand hit against his body on every in stroke. His knees threatened to give out on him so he leaned his shoulder against the wall for support as he/Riku pounded his/Riku's fingers into his channel and over his g-spot and his/Riku's other hand stroked his cock in a fast loose fist. The soap protected him from friction burn but it didn't stop the heat of his blood filled organ from growing into a steel rod. "Oh fuck, god damn," he panted quietly with the hot water pounding on his body and his/Riku's hands working him he bucked one last time then threw his hips forward as hot cream shot from his body into the tub and over his hand. Then of their own accord his hips pushed back slamming his fingers deep within him making him come again. He worked his channel and cock until every last drop was pulled from him then leaned against the wall gasping as the aftershocks of his powerful orgasm rippled through his body. "Fuck that was amazing," he whispered. He had never been able to immerse himself so deeply that he felt as if his fantasy lover was really the one touching him. It was incredible, and very satisfying. With his body relaxed and sated he finished washing up and rinsing off. Even ten minutes later he was still feeling slight aftershocks from his orgasm. "Damn I gotta do that again." He chuckled as he went to wake his mom to take him to school.

ooOoo

Riku got in the shower at about 9:00 and try as he might he could not make the images of his dreams go away. Normally he wouldn't mind but the fact that he was naked with a persistent hard on left him no choice but to take care of his "problem." He closed his eyes and imagined stepping into the shower. Zexy was already inside with steam floating all around him. He was standing with his head back as the water forced his hair back away from his face and the access ran down the front of his small leanly muscled body. The soap suds traveled with it sliding over his impressive sex. Riku watched mesmerized as the bubbles slowly dripped from the head of his cock. His breath hitched and he stepped fully into the shower taking the beautiful cock into his hand and stroking it. Zexy's eyes flew open in momentary shock then a wicked grin spread over his face followed by a moan of pleasure as Riku began stroking faster. Using his other hand he grabbed Zexy's balls gently and began rolling them as he rubbed his hand over his sack. Zexy gasped, so did Riku as he mimicked the movements on himself. He kissed the smaller mans neck and turned him around. Using the soap as a lubricant he soaped up Zexy's ass and plunged his cock deep into Zexy's tight channel squeezing his cock hard to simulate the feeling of entering Zexy's body he gasped at the pleasure it brought him. He had to lean against the wall for support as he pumped his cock imagining it was Zexy's ass he was moving in and out of. In his mind Zexy was begging for more, "Fuck Riku Harder, please, harder, faster. Yes, yes like that! Oh God I'm going to come, Oh fuck you feel so good buried inside me." Riku pumped faster, squeezed his shaft harder, his legs began to shake as his body coiled getting ready to explode. He bent Zexion down farther, gripped his hips with bruising force. Zexy was grunting and groaning as Riku began pounding into him. Riku's orgasm shot to the surface as his imagined Zexy screamed his release. As Zexy screamed his release in his head Riku came with a quiet groan in the physical world. He had to be quiet so no one would hear what he was doing. He pumped himself until there was nothing left and his dream Zexy was sated, in his dream he kissed Zexy slowly, tasting every inch of him. In the real world he leaned against the wall bringing his heart rate down to normal.

After his "satisfying" shower he had fifteen minutes left so he checked his messages and there was a reply from Zexy already. He quickly opened it, his heart rate kicking up a bit again.

*Begins crying* thank... you... ah, I'm an idiot... this time, I'm not crying from grief; it's from happiness...Sempai, heh, no, Riku.

I... thank you, you have no idea how much your words mean to me Riku...

So yeah, on to a less emotional subject, you asked which of my stories you should read. My answer is none of them, they are all crap. Well written crap, but crap nonetheless. And you can't be crazy, because I don't think I am.

Oh and I dreamt of you last night *blushes* it was… amazing *blushes more*

I can't thank you enough for believing me. It... *blushes* have a good day at work, Sempai. I...

His heart lurched when he the first words he saw were *begins crying* but as he read on with each word his heart became lighter and lighter. Until he got to where he said his stories were crap, Riku was pretty sure they weren't. That he could tell just by reading his messages. He couldn't stop the grin when he read that Zexy had dreamt of him and was blushing from it. Should he admit he did the same and jacked off because of it? He chuckled at the reaction he could imagine Zexy would have. He was very tempted to tell him for that reason but decided against it for the moment. He definitely needed to say something about his comments with the … When he looked at that I… it seemed to him the Zexy was going to type "I love you" then stopped himself. Could it be true, could he really love him? He needed to make this quick he was running short on time. He sent his message and left for work the happiest he had been in months.

ooOoo

Despite his uneventful morning at school Zexy couldn't stop grinning. A few of his friends asked if he was okay and Tifa even said he was scaring her, he giggled at the memory. He was currently sitting in front of the computer in the library since he'd finished his work for the day and had some time to play. The first thing he did was to check messages just in case Riku sent one before he left for work. He was pleasantly rewarded when indeed there was a message from the sexy silver haired subject of his dreams. He checked to be sure no one was around him then opened it and began reading.

Thanks for this I'll be leaving in a few minutes for work and you've made my day.

Zexy, just call me Riku, or whatever, not sempai, it sounds too formal.

And can you just spit things out at once, this whole, "It...*blushes*" and "I..." can be a little maddening, just say what you think, I do. I already said that I'm not about to abandon you, you need to have some faith.

I doubt you're an idiot, okay maybe a little different, sure, but who isn't?

Oh, and good day at work? What's that? Haha, well, at least you were sincere.

I have a confession to make. I dreamt about you too just as I thought I would and mine was blush worthy as well : ) talk to you soon Zexy (hugs tight).

This kept getting better, after this message Zexy didn't think there was anything that could take away his smile today. He said he dreamt about him too, he wondered if it brought the same results as his dreams did and he couldn't stop the giggle that escaped or the twitch of his cock from the memory. He adjusted in his seat and began his reply. He had to make it short since his class was going to end in ten minutes. Eight minutes later, satisfied with what he wrote he sent it, exited out of the program, and packed his stuff up so he was ready to leave when the bell rang.

He was walking down the hall feeling as if he were walking on clouds. The grin he'd been wearing was still plastered across his face, and his eyes twinkled. He was suddenly grabbed around the waist from behind as his friend Tifa squealed.

"Hi Zexy! What's up?"

"Hi Tif, not much, how about you?" he laughed as he turned and hugged her.

"Nothing, hey why don't you come over by us at lunch today." She said as she walked next to him. This was the period that he always walked her to her class.

"I'm going to the library to get some stuff done on the computer." He informed her.

"Oh, okay well maybe we'll join you after we eat." She beamed very proud of her idea. She was now walking backwards so she could look straight at him. "Yep I think that's what we'll do."

"Oookaaaay, if you want to, I guess I'll see you at lunch." He sniggered as she walked into some one.

She narrowed her eyes, "You could have told me I was about to walk into some body."

"What fun would that have been." He gave her a toothy grin. She promptly punched him in the arm. "Ow!" he rubbed his arm and chuckled. "I guess I'll see you at lunch."

"Yep, the last 15 minutes anyway. See ya Zexy." She kissed his cheek and bounded into her class room.

Zexy continued on to his class he was almost there when a voice he was way too familiar with said "Hi."

He checked his emotions quickly, put on his stoic face and turned to face Sora. His stomach clenched and his heart ached but no one would know it. He smiled "Hi Sora, what's up?"

"Not much. I haven't seen you for awhile. How've you been?" he seemed sincere but Zexy would never trust what he said again.

"I've been good but I'm running late for class, I'll talk to you later maybe." He started walking toward his classroom.

"Yeah okay, catch you later dude." Zexy looked once more before he walked into his classroom and almost stumbled when he caught Sora still looking at him. His heart was already racing and now it skipped a beat. Stop that, you don't give a shit about him dammit. He reprimanded himself as he sat at his desk. He refused to let the bastard ruin the happiness that Riku's messages were bringing him.

His English class was putting him to sleep when he received a message from Yuffie thanking him for the reviews from this morning. He spent the next forty minutes texting with Yuffie, she cheered him up and helped him forget about Sora for a bit. The bell rang, lunch time. He took off toward the library to make sure he could get a computer, he was in the middle of writing a story and wanted to get it typed. He didn't think Riku would have messaged back yet since he should still be working.

Deep into his writing Zexy didn't realize what time it was until a loud commotion made him look up from his computer. As promised Tifa had arrived along with six other friends, one of which was Sora. Zexy moaned inwardly. Why the hell did he come and why is it bothering me all of the sudden? Then to add to his irritation Sora sat next to him and scooted his chair close to Zexy. So close that Zexy could feel his body heat, it was quite unnerving. He steeled himself against the emotions that threatened to surface and squashed them back down. He would not give Sora the satisfaction of knowing that he still had an effect on him.

"Hi Zexy! Whatcha writing?" Tifa asked with enthusiasm.

"Yeah, what are you writing about there, Sex…I mean Zexy." Sora smirked.

What the fuck was he up to? Why the hell is he flirting with me? Zexy was confused but didn't let it show. He spoke without missing a beat. "Just a short story idea I had." He closed out the window to keep the brunette from seeing the details of the story. Not that he could do anything to hurt him with it but simply because he didn't want to show it to him. Sora gave him a puzzled look and Zexy just looked toward Tifa and the others. "So what did you guys have for lunch?"

"Pizza." They all said together and laughed.

Zexy smiled and nodded, "Yeah that's about the only edible thing on that menu." Zexy could feel that Sora had inched closer, he could feel his breath on his neck and it was sending chills up and down his arms. Thank god he hadn't taken his jacket off today. He was about to tell him to back the fuck off when the bell rang. He jumped up from his chair, closed out the program and shut down the computer. "I didn't realize how late it was. I have to hurry cuz I need to stop at my locker before class. I'll see you guys later."

"Wait up, that's on the way to my class, I'll walk with you." Cloud said as he scrambled to catch up with Zexy. "Since when do you care if you're late for class?" he asked.

"Since I'm sick of getting detention and my Mom's already threatened to take my phone away if I even look the wrong way." That part was the truth, technically.

"Ah, got it." Cloud replied not questioning the explanation. He'd been friends with Zexy long enough that he knew what his mom was like. The rest of the walk was spent talking about gaming, their favorite common passion. There were no more run-ins with Sora for the rest of the day for which Zexy was very relieved. He really didn't want to have to think about his reactions to Sora's latest behavior.

ooOoo

It was another day of dealing with nasty customers who insisted on blaming Riku for every problem in the grocery store, like he was the manager. He was a fucking cashier, one of these days he was going to yell that in a customer's face. He might get fired for it but it would be oh so satisfying. He grinned evilly as he drove on. Thanks to Zexy's messages from this morning even those old bitches couldn't wipe the smile off his face. He was almost home and couldn't wait to read what Zexy had replied to him. Three blocks from home his phone rang. "Fuck!" it was his Mom. "Hello."

"Hi Riku I need you to pick some things up for me on your way home." She said.

"I'm three blocks from home. Do you need the stuff tonight?" he asked hopeful.

She was silent for a moment, "Well if it will put you out too much just don't worry about it, I can go myself. I would hate to inconvenience you even though you're already out."

He winced at the increasing anger in her voice. "Mom its fine I'll go. Like you said, I'm already out. What did you need me to get for you?"

"No, no that's quite alright I'll just do it myself." She snapped at him.

"Mom please just let me go for you." He pulled over and got something to right with and some paper. "I have something to write with. Would you tell me what you need, please?" he was desperately trying to avoid a screaming fit when he got home. Actually even getting the stuff was no guarantee she would be okay when he got home anyway.

"Fine I need…" she rattled off a list of about fifteen things that would cost him probably close to sixty dollars and chances are he wouldn't get the money back, great, he was already short hours this week and would be getting a small paycheck.

"Okay is that everything?" he asked patiently.

"Yes I believe so and try not to take too long some of that is for dinner." She added.

Riku held his tongue, "I'll try to hurry. See you in a little while."

"Yep, bye." She hung up.

He threw his phone down on the seat. "Son of a bitch! This is gonna take for-fucking-ever dammit! Now I have to wait even longer to read Zexy's message." He gripped the wheel trying to get control of his anger. He took a few slow deep breaths. "Just remember you will have a message to read. From a guy who has admitted to liking you. Something that's never happened before, don't let anything ruin that for you." He reminded himself and calmed down. "Okay just get this done so you can get home to your message from Zexy."

An hour and a half later he was finally home and upstairs powering up his laptop. His heart was racing and his hands shaking a bit as he waited for everything to load. He went straight to his messages and opened the reply from Zexy.

O-ok... Riku, It's not that I lack faith... you made your way into my trust in just a few hours, so I have massive amounts of faith in you... that's what is so frustrating... I had hoped I closed off my heart. But here you are, melting the layers of ice off of it... I'm just so confused at the moment... When Sora (heaven-boy) hurt me, I vowed that I wouldn't fall for anyone for a long while... but then I find myself possibly falling for you…I'm not angered by it, I'm very happy! It's just that I'm so much more wary about who to like, or liking people at all.

I, in my opinion, have grown colder to those close to me to avoid being hurt. It's all I could do... *begins crying again*

I'm sure you won't read this until later, but... I DO like you a lot...*blush* blushing is another thing I rarely do, but my face seems to burn the more I talk to you... my heart races while I read your replies or wait for them... Thank you Riku, with you, I don't need to keep my emotions in check...

Riku was stunned yet again. With each message Zexy seemed to increase the description of how much he liked him. And in this one he actually typed that he was falling for him! He's falling for me, what exactly does that mean I wonder? It was exciting and terrifying at the same time. He knew nothing about this guy really, but he couldn't help but return those feelings at least a little. He couldn't decide how to reply to a declaration like that. He had his own doubts that were making him cautious too. But he didn't want to sound like he didn't want to continue because he did, at least for a while to see where this might go, so how should he reply? "Hm let's see how do I start it?"

I must admit I was a little shocked when I read that you are falling for me. I too, am very cautious but my caution is from of barely knowing you. It's a little fast, I don't

His Mom came storming into his room right then and he jumped not realizing that he inadvertently hit the send button before he shut his computer.

"Well you screwed up again." She growled.

"How, what did I do?" Fuck I knew she was going to do this tonight, she's been looking for an excuse to go postal all night. He sat calmly waiting for the explosion.

"You got the wrong brand of paper plates!"

Oh my fucking god was she serious? "You didn't specify the brand you wanted. I didn't think…"

"No you didn't, you never do! How could you not know what brand of paper plates we use? We've only been using them for years!" her voice was getting increasingly louder and her anger getting more intense with every word.

"I'm sorry Mom. I'll go back right now and get the right ones okay?"

"Well I think that's a very good idea and try not to fuck it up this time." She stormed out of his room slamming the door behind her. Riku watched her and waited to make sure she didn't come back in to yell some more before he got off the bed and got ready to leave. He didn't bother opening his computer. He wouldn't have time to finish the message until he came back from the store anyway. So he left not knowing that the partial message was sent to Zexy.

ooOoo

After the day he had at school dealing with whatever game Sora was up to he really needed a message from Riku to help ground his reeling emotions. The message didn't come until nearly 4:30 which meant 7:30 his time. Zexy was so relieved when he finally saw that message alert come up that he literally felt that a weight had been lifted from his shoulders he hadn't even realized was there. He was sure Riku would explain the lateness of the message. He opened it up and his heart sank, his pulse began to race and his body to shake but this time not from excitement. This time it was fear, had he been rejected again just when he took the chance to trust? Tears burned his eyes as he read the message over and over trying to understand why he would write something like this.

I must admit I was a little shocked when I read that you are falling for me. I too, am very cautious but my caution is because of barely knowing you. It's a little fast, I don't

He read the last message he sent Riku to see if there was something in there that would cause Riku to abandon him a day after he promised he wouldn't. Had his ability to read people gone to complete crap? He couldn't go through this again, it was too soon. His heart couldn't take it and come out whole. He started crying, he seemed to be doing a lot of late. He typed the only reply he could think of to such an awful message and after sending it he curled up in a ball on his bed and cried himself to sleep, again.

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