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Firelight	By : Riku_Dawn Category: Kingdom Hearts > AU - Alternate Universe Views: 1196 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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I sat in my room on my computer checking my emails, music on my playlist blaring in my ears. I mouthed the words of Forevermore by Broken Iris as I read a message from my cousin Ven, apparently they were coming out for Christmas and Terra wanted in. Cool, we were gonna meet his boyfriend.
My ear buds were suddenly yanked out of my ears and I turned to see my dad standing over me with an amused smile on his face, "Gonna answer your phone or what?" he held my phone out to me.
"Thanks." I said as I took it, seeing a missed text message from Saïx "I thought I would have heard it go off."
That got my hair ruffled "If you didn't leave it in your pants, yeah. Scared your mom to death with that Simple & Clean song for a ringtone on full blast." He said then left my room.
Wow, talk about absent minded. I looked at my phone and saw we were meeting at the pier by the Ferris wheel in a half hour… Gotta go!
I turned off my computer, grabbed my PSP and ear buds, and trotted down stairs to get my shoes on; Stitch was at my heels barking.
"Okay boy, calm down." I said putting my gadgets in my pocket, my ear buds over my shoulders so I could put them on. "Mom! I'm gonna go meet Saïx! I'll be back before dinner, send a text if I lose it! I'm taking Stitch with me!" I called.
"Just be careful!" Mom called back from the kitchen where he was cleaning.
I grabbed Stitch's leash and clipped it to his collar so we could head out. My dad was in the garage working on his old car, the one he had since he could afford one that was made the year he was born. He rebuilt practically everything under the hood with Cloud's help since he knew a thing or two about mechanics, and his old boss Cid who knew everything about cars, trains, planes, and boats inside and out. He was going to let me drive it once I got my license; that happened already, so now I was waiting for it to be done.
I put my ear buds in and turned on my PSP. I would use an MP3 or an iPod but I thought it was too much, a lot of people think I'm crazy but I just say, "Why waste money on what you technically have." And if memory space is an issue I just buy more memory sticks, which was a rare case seeing as I only had one right now with 8GB on it.
After pushing a few buttons I heard Romeo & Cinderella in Len Kagamine's voice, talk about tragic. But I liked it anyway. I pushed the switch to hold then stored my PSP in my pocket again without worrying if the song would change as I walked.
I blame Xion for getting me into Vocaloid. She made me dress up as Kaito for Halloween last year and I thought he looked like an interesting character, but I look weird with flat hair never mind the color. This year for Halloween Naminé wants me to dress up with her as Len and Rin, and Xion said she'd be Jill Valentine from Resident Evil. I dunno about dressing up with Nami, she's been getting clingy lately and it's scary.
After hearing Romeo & Cinderella, Sleepless Beauty, and Kiss & Control as I walked I finally spotted Saïx and… to my dismay, Axel by the Ferris wheel.
Of course Axel had to be the first to notice me coming and he had to be the first to say something when I reached them, specifically something stupid like, "Hey Roxy. By the way, Cupid called and said he needed my heart back." Yeah, like that.
"Tell him he's asking the wrong person. So when's Xemnas meeting us?" I asked Saïx.
"In another ten minutes." He said kneeling down to my dog's level "Hey Stitch, didn't want to be left behind today?" he said in a sweet tone.
Stitch started barking and spinning, just begging for Saïx's attention and making me laugh.
"Aw man. Why did you bring that mutt?" I heard Axel groan and I glared at him.
I was getting ready to use Stitch's defense word on him again until Saïx started laughing, "Lemme guess, you already used the word on him."
That made Axel glare at him, "You mean you knew about this thing's monster side?"
"Axel, Stitch isn't a monster. He's just very close to Roxas, closer than a dog could normally be to a person. When he was a puppy no one else wanted him, so his dad took him. They've been friends for five years so of course he'll watch out for him." Our friend explained.
"Oh yeah? Then explain to me how Roxy got it into the mutt's head to bite when he hears that damn word. Since you know so much for not knowing the kid that long."
Well I'll give Axel that, Saïx and I have only known each other for a few years. Hell I've known Xemnas longer than any of my friends but I connect better with the blunette, as well as I connected to my parents! And that's saying something because I thought I couldn't closer to anyone other than my parents.
But I had another matter to attend to right now, "Axel. One: Stop calling me Roxy. Two: How I train my dog is none of your business. Besides that's not why we're here right now. So Saïx, how do you plan on handling this thing with your boyfriend? Are you going to tell him straight out, or are you gonna build up to it?"
Saïx shrugged "Build up to it I guess. It'll give me some time with him at least, in case he decides I'm not good enough for him anymore." He said.
Axel hooked an arm around his neck, "No worries man. I can burn him if that's how he ends up feeling." He then pulled out a silver lighter.
"No!" I snatched the lighter away and stored it in the pocket of my Tripp pants "There will be no flame related homicides. No one is going to die, and if they are it will be at Saïx's hand taken to Xemnas. Other than that, you and I don't get involved and they solve things for themselves. Got it?"
"Hey! Is the party starting around me?" I looked behind me to see Xemnas coming our way and I waved, Stitch barked enthusiastically and tried to run to him but I held his leash.
Saïx practically skipped over to him, his nervousness completely forgotten as he hugged his boyfriend and kissed his cheek. Xemnas chuckled and responded with a playful nip on the tip of my friend's nose.
"So what are we doing?" the tanned silverette asked after getting mushy greetings out of the way.
I held my arms out at my sides, "Hanging out. What else?"
Stitch scratched at Xemnas's leg barking and whining to get his attention, my friend knelt down to pet him when his amber eyes flashed with an evil thought.
"I say we go down to the beach and let Stitch terrorize the sun bathers."
Axel raised a hand in the air, "Ditto! I officially like this dude." They high-fived each other. Well that was a change from the other day.
I shook my head, "We're not using my dog to piss off the entire island."
"Kill joy." They said at the same time.
I smirked, "They call me Party Poison and my cousin Ven's the Kobra Kid. We just need a Jet Star and Fun Ghoul and we got the rebellion against ."
"What about Dr. Death Defy and Show Pony?" Axel asked and I gaped at him. "What?" he asked when he saw my face.
"You know My Chemical Romance?" I asked in disbelief. Wait… was this respect for him I felt building in me?
He scoffed like it should have been as obvious and his hair color "Who doesn't? They're the sickest band in the world! I've got all the albums, all the feature DVD's, and band shirts from every concert autographed." He said smugly.
And there goes the respect. Lucky bastard; I was lucky to get a CD when they released a new one.
"Um if we're just gonna stand here and talk about MCR, Roxas you got your Dr. Death. Saïx can be your Jet Star and Zexion can be Fun Ghoul." Xemnas said.
"What about Demyx? He'll want in on this." Saïx commented.
"He can be Show Pony."
"Ah enough yapping! Let's get something to eat." I said.
"Hey! I want a part as a Killjoy!" Axel whined.
Xemnas waved a hand dismissively, "You can be that tag-along girl that gets kidnapped." Me and Saïx burst out laughing.
"Fuck you." The redhead growled.
"That's my job Lea." Saïx said with a smirk getting me to laugh again, Xemnas joining me.
Axel snorted, "Yeah, yeah hardy-har-har. Aren't we going to eat?" he stuffed his hands in his pockets and started for a food stand.
x- Saïx POV-x
Oh gods I was so nervous. Having Axel and Roxas around made things a little easier to handle, but only a little! Soon I would have to tell Xemnas that if we went the extra mile, he wouldn't be my first! …Well he wouldn't get my virginity anyway, but still!
What if he tossed me aside? I didn't want to lose him and have my heart broken. But I have to stick by what I told myself yesterday, if all he wants from me is sex then he's not worth the effort. However I hope he is worth the effort, because I love this man more than I can say or show.
"Saïx, your ice cream's melting." Xemnas's smooth voice brought me out of my thoughts.
I looked down at my hand and saw that my sea- salt ice cream was leaking all over my hand, "Damn. Can someone hand me a napkin please?"
A napkin was handed to me and I took it gratefully. The mess cleaned, napkin tossed, and my ice cream finished I just stared as my boyfriend talked with Axel and Roxas, and I thought about how much… I actually loved him, how he seemed to change my life for the better, gave me a reason to wake up every morning. Images of my life before him raced through my head, growing up with Axel in Radiant Garden and all the families I went through, moving to Destiny Islands and meeting Roxas, then meeting Xemnas when I got to high school…
*Flashback, three years ago 2008* (A/N: Oh gods here I go… A rape scene. Feel free to skip. But if you do read it, please leave some feedback as this is a first for me and it may suck.)
I lay handcuffed to my bed; my wrists were bleeding from the metal cutting at my skin deeply and I was biting my bottom lip hard enough to draw blood from there too, in hopes of keeping myself from crying out as my body was used and abused. But muffled whimpers and cries came from my throat as the man who is supposed to be my foster father, hovered over me with my legs over his shoulders and his hands gripping my hips hard enough to leave bruises as he thrust into me roughly over and over again.
This wasn't the first time, but every time it happened I prayed for it to be the last, even if it was in vain. The pain was immense and every time I wondered what I had done to deserve it. Here I was, an orphan jumping from foster home to foster home unwanted by every one of them. I should have known being taken in by these people and actually kept was too good to be true, since the first night they started coming into my room.
And where was my foster mother? She's here too, sucking me off in time with her husband's thrusting.
I kept my eyes closed as they did all this to me, I didn't want to see myself being raped. That bastard had just barged into my room while I was changing for bed with his wife following and when I told them to get the fuck out he slapped me so hard I fell to the floor. While I was still dazed he moved me to the bed and cuffed my hands together above my head, tore off my boxer, took off his pants and boxers before climbing onto my bed, lifted my legs, and drove himself into me dry and didn't wait not even a second before he started pounding into me without mercy.
"Come on Saïx… Scream… You know you want to." He said in a mock- sweet voice between his self-pleasure filled groans.
I wanted to scream alright, vent my pain somehow. But I also knew they loved it, they reveled in my cries and pleas for them to stop violating me. But all they did was keep going, my cries were a source of energy for them to press on and make me suffer more so they could spice up their sex life.
So instead of obliging them with that pleasure, I bit down on my lip harder and squeezed my eyes shut tighter, and tried not to make a sound. But that only made them angry and he started yanking on my hair, hard. I didn't let up though; I refused to for my own sake. But when that bitch bit the tip of my member extremely and agonizingly hard my teeth released my lip and my throat vibrated with the head splitting scream I let out from the pain; she never did that, and it seemed she wasn't going to stop.
Tears sprung from my eyes and I thrashed around as the pain coursed through my body, I was trying to get away from them but it only caused me more pain that only seemed to grow more and more as she continued to bite me and his dick stretched my hole more with my movement. I wanted it to stop, I wanted it all to stop, and I wanted the pain of it to kill me already so I wouldn't have to suffer. All this proved was that no one in this world cared about me, my parents didn't, all the foster parents I've had didn't care, these… I can't even call them people, but they sure as fuck didn't care… Not even my friends cared…
(A/N: Rape's done.)
"What the fuckin' hell is going on?"
I opened my eyes enough and saw… Axel! I never thought I would be so happy to see him in all my life.
"How the hell did you get in here?" the bitch shrieked.
Instead of answering Axel took quick strides over to where we were, pushed that woman away by her head and shoved the bastard in me off causing me to scream in pain as his member was yanked out of me.
The next thing I know I feel blood rushing through my arms again as they were released from the cuffs and lowered from over my head "Thank you so much Axel, thank you." I said.
"Saïx how long has this been going on?" my friend asked as he helped me to sit up.
I hissed from the pain in my backside as the pressure was applied from the position and took a few easing breaths before I answered, "I don't even want to think about it right now." I looked to the floor and saw those… creatures I'll call them, unconscious and figured Axel knocked them out.
"Ya know I heard you screaming while I was walking by. That's why I'm here. I already called the police and asked for an ambulance too so they'll be here soon. Why didn't you tell anyone about all this?" He asked me.
"What difference would it have made? I lose either way." I said sadly.
He handed me my clothes and helped me to dress just as we heard the sirens outside. With one arm over his shoulder he helped me to walk down the stairs where we met the police and EMTs who came with ambulance. I was loaded into the back and Axel went with me while those two demons got arrested.
At the hospital I was checked for broken skin and treated. I stayed in the hospital until I was recovered; the time in between Axel visited me along with my child service officer Tifa Lockhart.
Tifa was nice, she was pretty with brown hair and reddish eyes, but I think her chest was most likely causing her back problems.
I was being released today and Tifa was here, "So Saïx, I found a new home for you. It's in Destiny Islands at a children's home."
I sighed "When do I leave?" I asked.
She looked at me with sympathy, "Tomorrow morning. I'll let you spend tonight with your friends; I've already sent your things ahead."
"Thanks Tifa."
I stayed at Axel's house for the rest of my time in Radiant Garden; we exchanged contact information and reminisced on our time together as best friends. I was going to miss him the most.
"So why is she sending you to Destiny Islands?" Axel asked while we were playing Black Jack.
I looked at my cards as he dealt me another to check my count "She says she has a couple of acquaintances who swear by the place being the perfect home or else they wouldn't raise their kid there. Hit me." I said.
He gave me another card, "What's the place like?"
"It's supposed to be beautiful. Clear skies, blue waters, forest lands on the uninhabited islands, and white beaches. People say it's a piece of Heaven on Earth, away from places like this. The crime rate's practically non-existent and it's supposed be chalk full of adventure and stories so maybe I'll have a chance to find a real family there. Stay."
He started dealing himself cards, "Sounds like a nice place. But Radiant Garden isn't all that bad."
"Yeah I know, but it doesn't feel like home to me at all. I may have been born here but nothing makes me feel like I belong." I said sadly.
"That's just pathetic man, not feeling like you belong where you've lived your whole life. I sure as hell am going to miss you." He said giving me a depressed look.
Axel was my best friend and the only one in Radiant Garden aside from Tifa who gave a fuck about me. The fact that I was leaving him behind, it hit me harder now than it did the first time, and I cried that whole night despite his efforts to comfort me like the friend he was. I could only hope I found friends like him in Destiny Islands.
The morning came and Axel came with me to the airport where we met with Tifa, she was going with me to confirm everything with the children's shelter.
I couldn't say much more to Axel than all I had said the night before, there was nothing more to say really. All I did was hug him tightly as I tried not to cry again, I was always so emotional and he was the one with nerves of steel, I guess that's why we were best friends.
I slept through the flight. It was three hours non-stop from Radiant Garden to Destiny Islands and I didn't feel like watching whatever sucky movie, or listening to or reading whatever drop-dead boring music or books they offered. It was barely noon when we landed and I still felt groggy, so I sat down while Tifa called a cab for us since the shelter was on the other side of the damn island, I was hungry too but I didn't want to eat air plane food knowing they probably have very old shit for the people who flew coach.
"Saïx, let's go." Tifa called.
I stood up and followed her to the cab she got. It was an hour and a half drive to the shelter but I didn't mind it as much as the flight since I got to see what the island was like, it was beautiful. The ocean was clear and such a deep blue, the sky was brilliantly bright and practically alive with the sunshine, and there was life all around; I think I was going to like it here very much.
We pulled up at the children's shelter and my eyes went wide at the size of it. It was practically a mansion with three stories, cream colored exterior and brick roofing, and it took up so much land. Maybe I would get my own room.
We went up to the front door and Tifa knocked, a silver haired man opened the door.
"Can I help you?" he asked.
"Are you Ansem?" Tifa asked.
The man laughed and shook his head, "No, no. He's in the dining room trying to get the kids situated so we can eat lunch. Come in, I'll show you." He stood aside and allowed us to pass inside.
We followed him through what I suppose was the living room to the dining room which was full of noisy minors for all ages, a middle aged man with long blonde hair and a goatee, and amber eyes was running back and forth trying to get them to settle down from their excitement.
"Ansem, you have visitors." The silver haired man called.
"I'm a little busy Riku!" Ansem responded.
Riku, as the other man was called, laughed then cupped his hands around his mouth, "Hey quiet down!" the room instantly went still "Now, if you all can stay quiet and calm until Ansem finishes his business with his guests," he gestured to Tifa and me "You'll get a second helping of pizza and double desert."
They all smiled bright, but they stayed quiet.
Ansem sighed in relief and came over to us, "You are Ms. Lockhart?"
Tifa nodded and held her hand out to shake his, "And this is Saïx Luna, the child I told you about over the phone last week." She put and hand on my shoulder.
Ansem regarded me for a moment with something in his eyes I haven't seen in anyone else, it made me feel safe. Just how long had this man been taking care of children?
"Riku, take care of this boy while I speak with Ms. Lockhart. Feel free to start serving them." Ansem told the other man.
"Sure thing, old man."
I watched as they left the dining room then I turned my attention to everyone who would be my house mates, suddenly I felt completely out of place as I saw all their eyes on me.
"You can sit with me." I looked at the owner of the voice and saw a spiky haired blonde kid who was probably a year younger than me at least. He had wide blue eyes that glowed with the smile on his face and on his lap was the strangest looking creature I had ever seen.
But he seemed friendly enough; at least he spoke to me; so I took the seat next to him "Thank you." I whispered.
"My name is Roxas, and this is my puppy Stitch." He said petting what was supposed to be a dog.
Stitch jumped from his lap to mine and he stood up on me panting with his stubby tail wagging. Hesitantly I lifted a hand and started scratching behind his ears, he instantly settled onto my lap like he was going to take a nap on me.
"He likes you." Roxas said with a giggle.
"How long have you been living here with Ansem?" I asked.
"I don't live here! I'm just visiting with my dad, Riku. He used to live here a long time ago, and every now and then when he doesn't have to work with my cousin he comes here to help out." He explained smiling.
A plate with a slice of pepperoni pizza was set down in front of Roxas and he smiled up at the one who gave it to him, his father, "Thanks Dad."
Riku tousled his hair then looked at me "You want a pepperoni or cheese pizza? Or are you lactose intolerant?" he asked.
"Cheese pizza please." I answered quietly and he left with a nod.
"So what's your name? You never told me." Roxas noted.
"I'm Saïx Luna, I'm from Radiant Garden." I said.
A plate with a slice of cheese pizza was set down in front of me I looked up to nod my thanks to Roxas's father.
"That woman who came with you, what's her full name?" he asked me.
"Tifa Lockhart." I answered.
"I knew it. Thanks." He said and left again.
I looked back at Roxas who was tearing pepperoni off his pizza and eating it "Does your father know Tifa?" I asked before starting to eat my own food.
He swallowed what was in his mouth before answering, "Not personally, but she knows my cousin. She hates him and his husband."
"Roxas. I'm gonna go out for a little bit, listen to Ansem while I'm gone okay?" Riku said after appearing out of nowhere.
"Sure Dad." Roxas said then watched his father leave before looking back at me "How old are you Saïx?" he asked.
I swallowed my bite and answered, "Thirteen. And you?"
"Twelve. Looks like you'll be going to the same middle school as me."
The same school as Roxas? I think I'll like that, he was really nice and I didn't feel so out of place around him. I wonder if he went through a bunch of foster homes before he came to live with the man who was his father. If so then we had a lot in common already, if not I don't care, he's still very easy to get along with no doubt about that.
We finished our pizza and one of the older kids, who was most likely on the verge of getting out of here soon, gave us our desert and drinks, probably at Riku's instruction. And wouldn't you know, they had all the kids in mind at this place, the diabetics, the lactose intolerant, those with certain allergies, and just about everyone with anything and everything they may have. I knew I was going to like it here, even more so if everyone was as easy to get along with as Roxas.
We were in the living room sitting on one of the couches playing with Stitch when Tifa finally came out of the room she had been in with Ansem, a wide smile on her face as she came over to me.
"Saïx, I have great news! Ansem has taken quite a liking to you and says if after six months you like it here, he'd be more than willing to adopt you!" she said.
Adopt me? He wanted to adopt me? Then why the hell should we wait six months? Let's get it settled right now! I liked Roxas and his dad seemed nice enough, and I couldn't help but feel comfortable around Ansem. I definitely couldn't wait six months for that.
"Thanks a lot Tifa, I would like that." I said with a genuine smile.
She smiled back at me, "Now I just need to finalize a few things before I take off, 'kay?" and she went back into the other room.
I went back to talking to Roxas "So how old were you when your father adopted you?"
He giggled a little "He didn't adopt me, he's my real dad." He said.
"Really? But you don't really look like him." I noted.
He shrugged as if it didn't matter, "I look a lot like my mom. My cousin Leon, he's a doctor so he knows this stuff, said that the only definite sign that I'm my father's son is our similar determined personality and the fact that my mom's brown hair mixed with my dad's silver hair made me blonde."
I nodded in agreement. Science was my favorite subject and I had just finished researching genetics. "So your mom, what's she like?" I asked.
He giggled again, a little harder than last time, "My mom's a man too."
I stared at him in disbelief, "A man? Or do you mean your real mother died and you father remarried?"
"Nope, I was born from two men. You have a lot to learn about Destiny Islands, so I'll help teach you." He said happily.
"Hey, I'm back!"
Roxas stood up and ran towards the front door, his father had returned with another man, someone with spiky blonde hair, like him and he was holding a kid's hand.
"Hi Dad! Why didn't you say you were bringing Cloud?" Roxas asked.
Riku winked with a smirk on his lips, "You'll see soon enough. So you've been chatting it up with the new kid?"
Roxas nodded, "Yeah, he's really nice. Oh Cloud, come with me to meet him!" he made his way back to me, the one called Cloud following close behind. Riku went off to find Ansem I think.
Roxas took his place next to me again and Cloud sat on the floor in front of us with the boy sitting between Roxas and me, Stitch jumped up on him with his tail wagging again.
"Hey Stitch!" the boy laughed and started petting him. He had dirty blonde hair that went to his jaw line, and steel-blue eyes with a light tan complexion.
"Saïx these are my cousins, Cloud and his son Dante. Cloud this is my new friend Saïx, he's from Radiant Garden." Roxas said.
Cloud held his hand out to me, a kind smile on his face, "It's nice to meet you Saïx. I hope you like it here."
I returned the smile and shook his hand, "Thank you. It's nice to meet you too."
Roxas made Dante look at me, "Dante, this is Saïx."
The little boy just looked at me for a moment then asked, "It that your real hair?"
"Dante that was a rude question. You're seven years old, act like it. Now say sorry." Cloud said sternly.
His son winced a little and pouted at me "Sorry, I didn't mean to say that." He said quietly, and I couldn't help but feel a little sorry for him.
"Oh it's no problem. Child curiosity isn't something that can easily be controlled after all." I smiled.
Cloud laughed, "That's what my husband Leon says."
I remembered Roxas mentioning that name, and I also remembered the question that plagued my mind before the new arrivals "Leon, he's a doctor right? Maybe you know how one is born of two men because of him then?" I asked hoping for an answer.
"That is still under study around the world. So for now we just go by the island's legend. Whatever happens, no matter how strange or abnormal, is meant to happen on Destiny Islands. Hence it's name." Cloud explained.
"Hey Cloud, check it out!"
Oh, Riku had come back with Tifa. She looked as if she couldn't believe what was in front of her eyes, she was tense too.
Cloud stood and took his son's hand before going over to the woman; he didn't look all that comfortable either and Dante looked downright confused.
Riku came over to where we were and knelt in front of us "Now let's see if they can finally put this to rest." He said.
"Dad, Cloud and Leon are gonna be mad at you for that." Roxas said in a serious tone.
His father shrugged, "They gotta deal with it some time." He looked at me and gave a sheepish smile "You have no idea about what the hell we're talking about, sorry." He said.
"I don't want to intrude." I responded shaking my head.
"Ya see the thing is Tifa and Cloud grew up together. She liked him a lot, but she got mad and resented him when Leon walked onto the scene and," Roxas raised his hands as he was explaining and made air quotes as he said, "Stole Cloud away from her."
I looked at where Tifa and Cloud were talking; Tifa was holding Dante now and staring at him, but she still looked tense. I looked back at my new friend and his father asking, "Did he?"
Riku shrugged, "Can't say. I met my cousin back when I was fifteen, by then he and Leon were already in the preliminary stage of their relationship, even though it was long distance."
Tifa came over to us and had her attention on me, "Saïx, I have to go now. Everything with Ansem is done so I'll leave you here. If there are any problems you know how to reach me."
I stood up and hugged her, "Thank you Tifa, for everything."
One year later…
High school, I feared this point in my life for the longest. All the movies I saw and the stories I was told about what they did to freshman in this place, I didn't want to go. I didn't know anyone, accept for maybe a few people who lived at the shelter but I didn't want to bother them by acting like a clingy kid.
My year of middle school was so much easier for me since I had Roxas to hang around with and some of his friends, but now I just felt out of place like when I first came to the shelter. Ansem, who had adopted me, assured me that there wouldn't be much difference except for the level of education; it didn't make me feel any better.
"Hey, are you Saïx Luna?"
I turned around at my name and saw three guys looking at me, they were older than me for sure and I was scared. One had black hair with white streaks tied in a low pony tail, he was dressed like a surfer with his T-shirt and cargo shorts; over his right eye was an eye patch and on his left cheek was a bad wound that I knew would scar. Another was blonde with the smallest hints of facial hair forming; he had five piercings with two small hoops at the top of each ear with a strange symbol hanging from the bottom of his left ear. I didn't know what to make of him really based on his attire, jeans and a button-down long sleeve shirt.
And the last one, he caught most of my attention; his silver-white hair was a contrast to his mocha tone skin and amber eyes, like Ansem had. Around his neck was a pendant with the same symbol as that blonde's earring, made me wonder if One-Eye over there had the same thing on his person. The tanned guy was wearing Cargo pants with a T-shirt.
"Who's looking for him?" I said to answer their question. I didn't trust them.
"I am. My name's Xemnas, and these are my friends Xigbar," he pointed at the one with the scar "And his brother Luxord." He pointed to the blonde.
"Our man Roxas asked us to watch out for ya until he got here next year." Xigbar said.
I looked at them skeptically, "You know Roxas?"
Luxord chuckled, "'Course we do, we're all friends." He had an accent, cool.
"Well as nice as it is for you to offer, I don't need anyone watching out for me. Thanks though." I said confidently before turning on my heel and heading for my first class.
"If you say so, Scarface!" Xigbar called out to me.
Great, the last thing I needed was someone pointing out the X scar between my eyes.
X+X+X+X+X
Lunch time rolled around and I was trying to decide what would be good to eat. Pizza was tempting, but I missed having burgers, yet I was craving a burrito right now, though a sandwich sounded pretty good; times like this is when I missed Roxas, he always helped to decide what to have.
"Go for the burrito."
I looked behind me and saw Xemnas "What the hell are you doing here?" I clipped.
He gave an indifferent shrug, "Saw you were having a little trouble and thought I'd help you out. I'm serious about getting the burrito, the burgers are bland, pizza's practically a week old, and the bread on the sandwiches is prone to major moister." He went ahead of me and grabbed some drinks and chip bags, then went to pay for the stuff.
I decided to take his advice and went with the burrito, grabbed a chocolate milk and an orange juice, and decided to buy a pack of cookies before heading outside. I barely got through the door when I was grabbed by my arm and dragged over to the fountain in the middle of the quad where Xigbar and Luxord sat with a few other people. I didn't see Xemnas anywhere so I could only guess he was the one who dragged me.
"Didn't I tell you already that I don't need you watching out for me? I'm not a little kid!" I snapped and pulled myself away.
"Maybe we just want ya around then. You look like you could use a few friends until you're able to stand on your own here." Xigbar noted.
I growled in my throat, "I don't need your pity either! I do just fine on my own!"
As I was walking away I heard a cackle, "Feisty one, isn't he? I like him."
I looked to see who had said that and I zeroed in on a blonde with antennae on her head, she looked evil.
"You look so shy, and yet you have such a temper ready to be unleashed." She added seeing she had my attention.
"I'm not afraid to hit a woman." I warned.
"Whoa, cool your jets dude! Larxene's not askin' for a fight, she's just sadistic." Xigbar said holding up his hands.
"Sadistic? Ooh you're gonna get it!" Larxene shrieked as she wrapped her hands around Xigbar's neck to strangle him, which was quite amusing.
The entire group started laughing in fact; apparently this was an everyday thing among them… Even if I wanted a few friends, would I want to deal with this every day? Well it did provide for a good laugh I guess, but I'm not that desperate.
"Okay, if you wanna go, you can. But if you need anyone to talk to or anything, we're here all the time." Xemnas said before going to pry his friends off of each other.
X+X+X+X+X
All day I couldn't stop thinking about Xemnas, I don't know why and it bothered me.
"So how was hanging out with Xemnas?" Roxas asked me while we were walking home.
The middle school wasn't that far from the high school and his house was in the same direction as the shelter, so we walked to and from school together.
"Wait, you actually know that guy?" I asked when he brought up the very subject of my thoughts.
"Yeah, we've known each other since elementary school. I thought you would know him too, since he's Ansem's grandson and all. That's why I asked him to help you out at school since you only seem comfortable around me and my friends." He explained.
I looked at him shocked, "His grandson? Xemnas is his grandson?"
"I take it you didn't know then." He said in a small voice.
I sighed and massaged my temple, today was becoming a major headache and that was the last thing I needed right now what with all the homework that I was given. "Let's just get home Rox. I'm gonna need a nap once my homework's out of the way." I told him.
A few months later…
Okay so maybe high school's not the pain in the ass I thought it'd be, but it's still frustrating. I eventually started hanging around Xemnas and his friends, mostly because he always popped up at Ansem's every once in a while which was something he never use to do. And it turned out they were a lot more fun than I thought they would be.
On weekends we went to the moves or to an arcade, if we were lucky enough we would have enough money put together to catch the ferry to one of the other islands in the chain, and Roxas was often invited.
But something was happening to me, something that Xemnas caused even when he so much as glanced at me. My heart would skip a beat and pound in my chest like a drum, and my face would grow warm with the lightest blush becoming visible on my pale face. Whenever he smiled or laughed, I wanted to see or hear it again, I wanted to be the one to make him happy. It was all tearing me up inside.
One day I decided to call Axel to tell him about my dilemma only hoping he could tell me how to get passed it or solve it somehow. For as long as I knew Roxas and as much of a great friend he's been to me, I couldn't trust him with everything yet.
"So that's the thing. I don't know what to do about all this, so I hope you can help." I said to him.
"Saïx you're asking too much of me. We're only fourteen here, and I've never been in love. No wait I take that back, you're not asking too much of me, you're asking the impossible of me!" he replied on the other end.
"Axel," I groaned falling back on my bed "Can't you give me anything that can help me out? If I am in love, it's with someone who's family to me! And it's very irritating."
"You sound like a desperate school girl man. Take a chill pill." I swear if that bastard didn't stop laughing at me… "Look if you like him so much take it up with your old man over there. The guy is his grandson after all, I'm sure he can tell you what you need to hear." He said.
"I guess so." I responded uncertainly.
"Good. Now tell me about that cute little blonde who was in all these pics you sent me last time."
"Yeah right you perv." I laughed then hung up. Sometimes I wondered why we were friends.
I got up from my bed and left my room to go down stairs since that's where I figured Ansem would be trying to get dinner ready for everyone. On the way I ran into Xemnas and cursed my luck, I didn't want to talk about him while he was here! Why didn't anyone say he was visiting anyway?
"Hey Saïx, I was just looking for you." He said with a smile.
And here comes the blush "Yeah? What for?" I asked.
He gave a casual shrug, "Just wanted to know if you wanted to hang out this weekend."
Why did he always ask? He should already know I'd want to by now since we do something every weekend. "Why not? Where are we going and who picked the place?" I asked.
"Saïx, this weekend it's… just gonna be you and me." He said looking a little nervous.
"Is everyone else busy or sick?" I asked.
He shook his head, "No, no. I just… I wanted this weekend to be… just you and me. I'm… asking you out."
Whoa hold up! Did he just say he was asking me out? As in a date? I'm not going deaf I just had my hearing exam two days ago! And it's not wishful thinking because I can definitely see a blush standing out on his dark skin. Okay so what I wanted to ask Ansem about I just got beat to, is there a downside? Maybe, maybe not. Well he has been nice since day one and he hasn't counted me out of anything since I started hanging out with him. What the hell.
"So it's a date, huh? Sounds cool." I finally said after an awkwardly suffocating silence.
"You sure?" he asked, doubt and relief mixed in his voice.
"Yeah. Just tell me when and where you wanna meet, I'll be there." I gave him a small smile.
He returned the smile, a bit bigger than mine, "Okay."
It was one weekend date after another, and then it was after school dates. Sometimes we just lazed about at his house or the shelter all day. Xigbar was a tease and Larxene often asked to get pictures, Roxas wished us all the best with that bright smile of his, Ansem didn't seem to care. A month and a half into dating he decided it was time to kiss me, it was my first one and it left me feeling like I would fall over. Not that I would care though, he made me forget what my life used to be like in Radiant Garden, all those families that didn't want me were erased from my memory, the dirty feeling I always got when I remembered my reason for living on Destiny Islands seemed to wash away with his touch.
The first gift he gave me was a ring that I wore on my left middle finger, it was silver with his symbol, an inverted, reformed heart with a three point cross making up its vertex. All that has happened to me since I came here, the best thing to happen since my parents split up and I was thrown into the system, I hope it lasts.
"Xemnas, can I talk to you about something?" I asked my boyfriend.
It was almost dark and we spent a lot of time on the pier. Roxas and Stitch went home about an hour ago leaving Axel with us, I think he was still unsure about my telling Xemnas about my past.
"What's wrong Puppy?" he looked at me with concern.
I glanced at Axel who was out of earshot of us. I took a breath and looked into my boyfriend's eyes, ready to risk everything I had with him.
x- Roxas's POV –x
I was in my room with my PSP blasting music in my ears while I got my stuff ready for school seeing as my weekend was coming to an end. I was tired from the day, and a little nervous since I couldn't be there for when Saïx finally talked to Xemnas after all so I was waiting for some kind of news. Plus the music drowned out the noises my mom was making while he and my dad went at it in their room, he's pretty damn loud.
I picked up my phone from my desk and was about to put it on the charger when it vibrated in my hand, Xemnas was calling me.
"Hey man, what's up?" I asked once I accepted the call.
"Rox… About Saïx, did you know?" he said in a low tone.
I kept my tone low and even, "I barely found out. Yesterday, I swear."
He sighed on the other end and I knew he was probably running a hand through his hair, something he did when he didn't know how to handle something, and I took that as a good sign because that meant he didn't break up with Saïx.
I was about to say something again but I was cut off by my mom screaming, I had to take this call out of the house.
"Hold on a sec Xem." I said. Opening my door I ran out of my room and out the front door as fast as I could "Okay, sorry about that." I said.
"What the hell's going on over there?" he asked.
"My mom and dad. Put two and two together." I said flatly and got a sound of acknowledgement of what I was talking about "So how do you feel after finding this out?" I asked.
I heard him give a hopeless chuckle, "I think I let him down. All I could do was stare at him; it was a shock to me."
"Maybe he misunderstood the reaction?" I offered knowing it was a possibility.
"I wouldn't know. Before I could say anything, once I came to my senses, Axel dragged him off saying that Saïx shouldn't have listened to you." He explained.
Axel Lea again? What a meddler. "Don't worry, I'm gonna clear this up at school tomorrow, I promise. And don't pay Axel any mind, he's impulsive." I said to reassure him.
"If you can help me save this relationship Roxas, I'll owe you something big."
"Like your first child?" I joked and he laughed lightly.
Our conversation ended and I was about to go back inside when I saw Saïx and Axel passing my house, Saïx looked broken up.
"Hey Saïx," I called out as I walked over to them "Come on. I'm letting you stay the night with me."
"I don't think that's a good idea right now." Axel said sounding irritated.
I glared at him and was about to retaliate but Saïx shook his head "It's fine Axel. I don't really feel like going home right now anyway." He whispered.
We walked back to my door, Axel watching us the whole way. Now I had to worry about saving a relationship, and the fact that Axel knew where I lived.
When we were inside I got my friend some of what was left over from dinner and decided I needed a sea-salt ice cream bar while I decided how to handle things. I couldn't tell him that Xemnas called me. I doubt he even wanted to hear his name right now; he looked so beat up, his golden eyes dimmed to almost a parchment yellow but I knew he hadn't cried. Yet anyway.
"He didn't say anything." My friend finally spoke.
"He didn't?" I asked evenly.
Saïx looked at me, "Roxas I know you talked to him. Why else would you immediately invite me to stay with you instead of asking how it went when you saw me passing by?"
Damn it! "Maybe 'cause I saw how you looked? Did you consider that?" I didn't want to get into a fight with him over this, so I should end it with my next response if he started getting aggressive.
"Roxas are you down here?" oh good, Dad was coming down stairs. He'd been done with my mom when we came inside and he seems to have taken a shower "When did Saïx get here?" he asked when he saw our unexpected guest.
"Not too long ago. He ran into a few snags and doesn't want to go home right now." I said.
Dad studied us for a few minutes before he nodded his head towards the stairs, "Roxas go to your room. I'll send him up in a few."
I'd rather be here for whatever my dad was gonna do, but he was in serious mode and if anyone was smart they wouldn't argue. So I half ran up the stairs and into my room to finish getting my things for school together and get out my sleeping bag from my closet for Saïx to use; next I went into the hall getting a towel and washcloth for him to use so he could take a shower. It was a while before he came upstairs though, and he had a bag in his hand so I figured Dad took him back to the shelter at some point so he could get a few things.
"Are you feeling a little better?" I asked.
I was sitting on my bed and he was on the sleeping bag that was already rolled out on the floor, Stitch asleep in his lap. We had already gotten ready for bed and were just waiting until we were told lights out; Natasha Bedingfield's Soul Mate was playing on my computer on low volume.
"Yeah, a little. Your dad says I should talk to him and see what he really thinks. He had the same look on his face Xemnas had when I told him." He said.
I gave a small shrug, "Can't expect everyone to have something to say about such a dark secret immediately, especially if you've known them for a while. It can be a lot to absorb."
He nodded in agreement and let out a low sigh, "Now I can only wonder how to go about this. It's a fifty-fifty chance of whose fault it may be if it ends you know."
"Things will look better tomorrow, you'll see." I said getting under my blankets when my mom told us to go to sleep.
He got into the sleeping bag and I turned out the lights, my computer was still playing music.
"Roxas, thanks for being a good friend." He whispered in the darkness.
*Hiss* I'm not that proud of this chapter, but it was necessary for back story.
Forevermore by Broken Iris, Romeo & Cinderella from Vocaloid, Sleepless Beauty from Gravitation, Kiss & Control by AFI, Soul Mate by Natasha Bedingfield, and Resident Evil by Capcom. My Chemical Romance belongs to themselves!
Larxene: Ooh~! Drama.
Xigbar: You really are sadistic.
Larxene: Bastard! *Starts strangling him*
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