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Missing Your Presence	By : Araea Swiftwind Category: Kingdom Hearts > Slash/Yaoi - Male/Male Views: 1229 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 1
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Story Title: Missing Your Presence
Chapter Title: Recompense
Author: Araea Swiftwind
Parings: (Past) SoRiku; (One-sided) TidusxSora; RikuxCloud
Warnings: This story will contain mature content, including sexual activities, foul language, and mature themes not suitable for people under the age of 15 without parental consent.
Disclaimer: I make no money from the making of this fanfic. I am only writing this because my hands started typing and this popped out, and I felt it was evil to delete it. I just want to share this tale with others, so in suing me, you are destroying people’s happiness, so please don’t do that.
Word Count: 2723
A/N: Read the stuff at the bottom for pertinent information
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The early morning rays of sun splashed across Tidus’ bright blue pillow, invading his sleep-fogged mind. He moaned and rolled over, effectively shutting out the light. A soft chuckle above him brought him out of his fog.
“Hmmmn?” He moaned in confusion. The soft voice chuckled again, causing Tidus to have the overwhelming urge to turn over and see whom it was. After the owner of the voice cleared his throat, he did just that. Tidus mustered up the energy and turned his sluggish body over, though his eyes were still closed. The light pierced through his eyelids and he began to seriously rethink the idea of seeing who was laughing at him. However, when the owner of the voice decided to speak to him, the decision was really made for him.
“So, Tidus...are ya gonna get up, lazy butt?” The voice said playfully. Tidus cracked one eye open, cringed, then looked around to find out who was speaking. His brilliant blue eyes finally settled on the intruder, though it took his brain several more seconds to realize who was actually there in his room. Once he got it, however, he sat bolt upright, his sheets pooling at his waist, showing his bare chest.
“What the…when…huh?” Tidus managed to get out, mostly incoherently. “Sora, what the heck are you doing here, in my room, while I’m sleeping?” A faint blush dusted Sora’s cheeks at Tidus’ state of undress, and he turned his head away quickly.
“Well?” Tidus asked again, completely oblivious to his lack of shirt. Sora didn’t respond right away. He was having trouble keeping the bright blush off of his face. He really don’t know why seeing Tidus without his shirt on would make him blush so bad, but he figured it probably had something to do with the tent in the sheets that accompanied the lack of shirt.
Once Sora felt as though he had himself under control, he turned back around. His eyes only briefly flicked down to take in the sight of Tidus’ erection before panning back up the blonde’s body to rest on his pretty blue eyes. Eyes that happened to be the same shade of blue as his own. Sora cleared his throat and began to explain his presence in Tidus’ room.
“Well… You see… Um… Okay, so I was walking along the beach yesterday after freaking out about what I said and I did a lot of thinking. I don’t know why exactly I took my feelings out on you and Kairi and Selphie the way I did…especially you. But I’m sorry, about yelling…and stuff. I kinda think it has something to do with how upset I still am about Riku’s leaving me like he did.
“You see…I love Riku more than anything…and I had thought we were so happy together. But…I guess I was really wrong about that. He…he told me that he was leaving to find his true love…that one person that would complete him. Until he told me that, I had thought that I was that person. And…well, now he’s gone. I can’t yell at him for breaking my heart, I can’t plead with him to reconsider… But I could yell at you...
“And so, I think that’s what it was. Subconsciously, I knew I couldn’t yell at the one I was really mad at, so I had to do the next best thing…which unfortunately meant that I had to take the minor irritation I had with you and blow it up into serious rage…and then heap it on you. Sorry…”
Tidus had been sitting silently through Sora’s explanation, but once he realized that the boy was finished, he responded. “So…this was all about Riku? You yelling at me, and Kairi, and Selphie…that was all because of him?”
Sora had the decency to look down at his feet and seem abashed. “Yeah…”
The blonde’s face slipped into a glare, and he hunched forward a bit with his arms crossed in front of himself. He was processing exactly how he felt about the situation. Sora wasn’t really mad at him. Tidus might still have a chance at earning the brunette’s friendship, and perhaps even love. Sora’s anger was all Riku’s fault.
“So…” the blitzer began, “what are you going to do, now that you know why you’re so angry?”
Sora heaved a small sigh and looked up from his shoes. “Well…I’ve decided that I’m going to go vent.”
“Go…vent?”
“Yeah. I’m going to go to Radiant Garden, find Riku, and vent all of my frustration, hurt, anger and love on him. And, well, if all goes according to plan…I’ll get him back.”
“Oh…” Tidus’ face fell. He wasn’t expecting Sora to take his revelation as a sign that he should try to get Riku back. Riku had been gone for seven months. He’d probably found who/what he was looking for already. Sora was probably just going to get hurt by looking for the platinum haired boy. “Are you sure…it’s smart to go looking for him?”
“What do you mean?” Sora had an open, trusting look on his face. He couldn’t understand why it wouldn’t be a good idea for him to go, and he was expecting Tidus to reveal something special with his explanation.
Tidus sighed and placed one hand on his face, slightly shaking it back and forth, not really understanding how Sora couldn’t see what was so obvious. After a few moments, Tidus straightened up and looked Sora in the eye.
“I don’t think it’d be smart to go right now because…because…well… Riku probably already found whoever he was looking for. You…you could be walking into a situation that’s going to hurt you. And even if it doesn’t hurt you…it could hurt someone else. I just…want you to think about that before you decide to go and yell at Riku and possibly ruin someone’s life.”
Impossibly blue eyes widened in shock, their owner never once thinking about the person Riku might have found. He had never once thought that his going could hurt anyone beside himself, and even that last thought was mostly buried and ignored. Sora hated hurting people, and the thought that he could hurt Riku, or someone that Riku loved…it was too much. Fat, wet tears began to roll down Sora’s face and soft sobs escaped through his barely parted lips.
Tidus, not having meant to hurt his friend with his warning, slipped out of bed quickly and went to the brunette, wrapping his strong arms around the boy. He didn’t spare any thought to the fact that he was only in his boxers. All that filled his mind was wiping the sad, hurt look off of Sora’s face. It was his opinion that there was something seriously wrong with a world that had a sad Sora.
The spikey haired brunette wrapped his arms tightly around Tidus in return and let his tears flow. He just couldn’t hurt Riku, or Riku’s new lover, like that. But on the other hand, he needed the closure that speaking to Riku would bring him. He was really torn, and he had no idea which course of action he should take.
“Tidus…what should I do…? I just…I just don’t know anymore. I… I want closure. I need to talk to Riku. I need to find out why I wasn’t enough for him… But… I just… I… can’t hurt him. I can’t just…rush in, guns blazing… But if I don’t…if I…just stay here… God, Ti… What do I do?”
The spikey haired blonde held his friend closer to his chest and rubbed small circles into his back. He didn’t have all of the answers. He wasn’t sure what to tell Sora. He felt…so torn. One the one hand, he really wanted Sora to stay close to him, not go find Riku, love him and move on. But, the other hand did make a bit more sense. If Sora stayed, he’d be wondering forever, unable to move on and get over Riku. He should go, talk to the silver haired boy. He should get the closure he needed, even if there was a chance that Tidus could lose him forever.
“Sora…I… I think you should go to Radiant Garden.”
“But…what about Riku? What about Riku’s lover?” Sora’s eyes were huge, blue and teary. He wanted so much to listen to Tidus and leave right away for Radiant Garden…but he was still so afraid of hurting someone.
Tidus took a deep breath and let go of Sora. He took a step back and ran a slightly tanned hand through his blonde hair. It wasn’t about him. It wasn’t about what he wanted. It wasn’t about the pain that Sora’s leaving would inflict upon him. It was about Sora. It was about making the brunette smile again.
“If you do it right, talk to him calmly, you won’t be hurting anyone,” but me, Tidus thought to himself. “Riku’s a big boy; he can handle you standing up for your feelings. And, if he has a new lover, that guy/girl’s probably going to be okay with it too. Just…be true to yourself, and everything will be okay.”
“You sure?” Sora asked softly, the question clear in his eyes.
Tidus nodded and gave Sora a pat on the shoulder. “I'm sure. Hey, give me a few minutes to get dressed and stuff, and then we can practice. By the time we're done, you'll know just what to say.”
Sora smiled his most dazzling smile and jumped for joy. “Great!” He beamed. “I'll meet ya downstairs.”
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After several hours of practicing, Sora was sure he knew just what to say to keep anyone from getting hurt. He was going to speak calmly and slowly and simply put his feelings out there for Riku to accept or deny. And if Riku really had found someone by now to fill the void, then that person shouldn't be offended either.
Tidus assured Sora that everything would work out for the best, and with his friend's well-wishes, he made plans to leave Destiny Islands and find the man of his dreams. Riku would be so surprised when Sora showed up, but Sora knew that it would be a good surprise. He was certain his best friend missed him, even if he hadn't come back to visit.
With a quick call to Donald and Goofy, Sora secured transport to Radiant Garden. He was looking forward to not only seeing Riku, but also to seeing the rest of his friends. It had been far too long since he had seen Leon, Yuffie and Aerith. He was sure they probably missed him too.
It was the waiting that was the hardest. It would take some time for the gummy ship to arrive to take him to Radiant Garden, and Sora didn't know what to do with himself in the mean time. He thought about hanging out with Wakka or the girls, but he didn't want to miss the ship when it landed, so he figured staying on the play island was a better choice. But it was just Tidus and him on the island, and even though they somewhat patched things up, it was still awkward between them. Sora could just tell that something was bother his blonde friend.
“Tidus, is something bothering you? You've been despondent for a while now.”
The blonde smiled at Sora and sadly shook his head. “Nah, nothing's bothering me.”
Sora laughed and moved closer. “Aw, Ti, you can't fool me. I know when something's up. Tell me about it.”
Tidus just sighed and walked a few paces away from Sora. Why couldn't the other boy understand that there were just some things he couldn't share. Some things were just private.
“Is it about a girl?” Sora asked, genuinely curious.
Tidus laughed himself this time, and turned to look at Sora over his shoulder. “You could say that,” he replied cryptically.
The brunette moved closer once again and elbowed Tidus in the ribs. “Come on, tell me about her. What's she like?”
It was torture. Tidus thought that there was nothing worse in the world than having your crush ask you about who you liked. What did you say?
“Aw, Ti, are you shy all of a sudden? Come on, tell me about her. What's she look like?”
Tidus gave a great heaving sigh and decided to go with it. What harm could it do to give out a few inconsequential details? “Okay, well...she's got these gorgeous blue eyes that remind you of the sea at summertime. And she's got the greatest laugh, the kind that makes everyone want to laugh along.” There, he thought, that should be vague enough.
Sora's face lit up like Christmas. “Have you asked her out yet?”
The blonde's face fell a little and he looked away again. “No...she's kind of in love with someone else.”
“Oh...I'm sorry, Ti. No wonder you look so down.”
He tried to smile, but it turned into more of a grimace. “It's okay, Sora. I'm starting to learn to live with it. It's not the end of the world or anything.”
Sora gave his friend a sad smile, “No, it most certainly isn't. You and me, we're like the same. Both in love with people who are in love with someone else. But it'll be okay. Somehow, it'll be okay.”
Tidus turned all the way around and looked out over the water. In the distance, he saw a black shape growing larger as it came toward the island.
“Think your ride's here, Sora.”
Sora followed his friend's gaze and saw the gummy ship rapidly approaching. He let happiness blossom within him for a moment, glad that he would finally get to see Riku again. Then, he looked over at his blonde friend and felt the sting of sadness once more. He kicked at the sad beneath his feet before going to wrap his arms around Tidus' waist, letting his chin rest on his shoulder.
“I'll be back, Tidus. And when I am, we'll do something together, okay?”
The blonde's heart soared. Sora was going to be with him soon. He ignored the little niggling voice at the back of his head that told him he was making more out of Sora's statement than the brunette meant. It didn't matter what the voice of doubt had to say. He knew what he heard, and what he heard was that Sora was going to give himself to Tidus when he returned. Hope blossomed like a summer rose within Tidus and he felt as though he could really let Sora go to Riku for now. The other boy would be back, and they'd be together, and all would be right with the world.
“Bye, Sora,” he whispered. “Come back soon.”
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A/N: So, here is the looooooong awaited Chapter 3. I am so sorry that it's taken me so long to update this chapter, especially since most of it has been written for a long time. I just haven't been in the mood to update most of my non-Harry Potter stories lately. But I am writing now, and I do so hope that I can keep up with updating. Please, let me know what you think of this chapter, and who you might want to see Sora get with by the end. (Because it's just not fair for the boy to be alone.)
In other news, I shall be without internet access for approximately two months, due to a financial conundrum that has unfortunately been building for some time. So, during that time, I shall hopefully be writing more on my stories, and getting updates out for all of you. I hope you all can remain patient and eagerly await the next installment. Much love, Araea. <3
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