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Accidental Infatuation	By : crymsonpassion Category: Kingdom Hearts > Slash/Yaoi - Male/Male Views: 10485 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 1
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Accidental Infatuation

Chapter Thirty

"I've got to go," I laugh as I attempt to pull away from Riku who has his arms wrapped tightly around my waist. We have been just hanging out in the common room for a little whole after we had gotten finished with our morning classes until I have my afternoon sessions. It's really been a whirlwind week since Riku's last attack. There has just been so much going on that I don't even know half of it. All I know is that Riku has had a ton of blood tests and other various things done in the past few days, all of it leading up to the CT scan that is supposed to be taking place a week from tomorrow. I know that it is pointless to say that I nervous because in reality, I'm scared shitless. I have been trying to maintain a positive façade for my boyfriend, but I know that he can see right through it.
"No you don't," he whispers as he nuzzles his face into my stomach and tightening his hold around my torso. I have to admit, I kind of like this clingy side of him. It truly emerged in the past couple of days, and if I want to be honest and face the truth, it started since Sephiroth came back to the clinic. His brother is still a very touchy subject for Riku, and I'm not sure if he really knows how to react to his brother's homecoming. I still haven't even heard from Riku exactly what was said between them after I had been asked to leave the room, if anything was said at all. Even though at Dr. Vexen's insistence they have been living in the apartment together and not staying elsewhere, I know that Riku has been avoiding his brother like the plague. It really is a complex relationship between the two of them. I know for a fact that they haven't spoken a word to one another since that night. All I can do is remain steady for Riku to support him when he needs it.
I laugh once more as I softly rub the smooth and silky strands. I really wish there was something that I could do to help my boyfriend's relationship with his brother. "Come on, Ku," I grin. "You've got to let me go. Xigbar is waiting for me. You don't want him coming to search for us. You know that if he finds us like this, he'll never let us live it down."
"Let him come; anything that will keep us together a little longer."
"But if you let me go to my therapy session, then we won't have to deal with Xigbar annoying us all afternoon by calling us weird names, and we'll get to spend the rest of the day together with no interruptions," I suggest, though I don't particularly want to leave myself. I would have been very content in staying here with my boyfriend and say to hell with my therapy. But of all the therapists to be stuck with, Xigbar would be the one to track us down in hopes of catching us in the middle of something, and even if we weren't doing anything naughty, he'd make it seem like we were, and then spread the rumours of catching us all over the clinic. I'd like to remain the good, pristine, well-mannered and not openly sexual twin for a little while longer at least.
We all thought it best that I continued my recovery with Xigbar instead of Sephiroth for obvious reasons, but since the night of Riku's attack, when he alone said that I could stay with Riku, I have a little more respect for the man. That's not to say that I forgive him in any way, or agree with absolutely anything else he has done to Riku, but I'm starting to see him in a slightly different light. I know that he cares for his brother; he just has a very odd way of expressing it. I'm not sure how I may react if I come face to face with him though. I just wish there was something I could do to help them.
I hear a defeated sigh coming from my boyfriend. "Why can't we just say that you won't walk until at least tomorrow, so you can skip your sessions today?"
Laughing at the almost pathetic whine in his voice, I push him up into a sitting position. He offers me little resistance but does give me a playful smile. "I don't think that Dr. Vexen would buy that. I'm sure that Demyx has probably tried to use that one on him many times before and I doubt that it ever worked. But think of it this way, the sooner that I leave, the sooner I can come back."
"Alright, but only because you seem so determined to be such a good boy. Just remember that it's not that long after lunch. You may be able to convince Xigbar to take a nap to sleep off his food. I'll wait right here and we can sneak off to the gardens," he whispers with a suggestive tone, pulling me into a hug before leaning down and capturing my lips in a soft kiss. I can't believe that even after all this time, even the most gentle of kisses still causes a flutter in my stomach. I almost miss the subtle undertones of the kiss. My overly horny boyfriend is attempting to entice me into staying through kissing me senseless and preying on the weakness I have for him. Man, he is determined not to let me go this afternoon.
When I feel his tongue licking along my mouth and tracing my lips with the very tip, I slowly pull back, earning a desperate moan from my boyfriend. I can only laugh as a completely out of character pout appears on his face, a sight that is so out of place that it is hilarious.
"I'm serious, Ku," I laugh, slightly breathless from the kiss. "I've really got to go."
"And I just like to tease you," he now has the more familiar smirk on his lips and I realize that he was just testing me and leading me on. He never really was going to let me skip my therapy session.
"You bastard!" I exclaim with a laugh, hitting him on the shoulder.
He just grins before helping me off of the couch and into my ever close by chair. "I just wanted to see if you would have actually been persuaded to skip therapy. It's good to see that you're still putting your recovery first."
I look up at him with a confused gaze, "Is that a good thing or a bad thing?" I can't help the slight shake in my voice as Riku comes to stand in his favourite spot behind me, wrapping his arms around me and laying his chin on my shoulder.
"Dr. Vexen was slightly worried that because of our relationship, you would start putting me before your recovery. I'm happy that we were able to prove him wrong. As much as I love you, Sora, I'm glad you realize and know that no matter what, while you're here at the clinic, you've always got to put your therapy first. I don't want you thinking that by neglecting sessions and hindering your recovery, you'll be able to stay here at the clinic longer in order to stay with me. I love you and want you to recover as far as you possibly can. I promise that even after you are discharged, we will find a way for us to stay together."
I have to take in several deep breaths and blink away a few gathering tears after hearing my boyfriend's words. Why did he have to go and get all sentimental on me right now! "I love you, Ku," are the only words I can come up with to say as I reach my hands up to wrap around his arms.
"Love you too, Sor," he whispers, placing a soft kiss on my cheek. "Now, hurry and go to your session before Xigbar really does come searching for you. I don't feel like being called Shimmer Sham all afternoon if he does find me."
Laughing at the nickname that Riku got from the one-eyed therapist, I keep telling myself that Roxas isn't really the worse nickname that I could have gotten from him. I place my own kiss on Riku's cheek before whispering, "It will be okay. But, I can't go anywhere until you let me go."
"Fine," he chuckles, letting go of me finally. I regretfully begin to move towards the hallway, but before I am completely out of the common room, I look back and give my boyfriend a big and goofy grin. "Get going," he laughs, "I'll be waiting here reading and then we really can go out into the garden tonight."
With a last wave, I begin to move down towards Xigbar's office with a lasting smile. I still can't get over the fact that I get so giddy just being around Riku. Just the thought of my silver haired boyfriend is enough to bring a smile to my face and butterflies to my stomach. And the fact that everyone else has already mentioned that they are going to be busy tonight means that it will be just he and I alone for the entire evening. I doubt we will see the gardens at all. Most likely it will be spent in my room, the two of us on my bed doing…homework. Sure, that's what we'll call it.
"Sora, come into my office." A voice cuts right through my thoughts, causing me to stop dead in my tracks as a wave of fear washes over me.
I still have yet to have a one on one confrontation with Sephiroth since the day of Riku's injuries, and I have absolutely no idea what this is about. I know that Dr. Vexen has talked to Sephiroth about approaching me too, but I am well aware that Sephiroth has his own set of rules to live by and could care less about anyone else's rules. Turning to face the direction that the voice came from, I am greeted by the sight of my boyfriend's brother standing in the doorway of his office, holding the door open, obviously for me to go in.
I have no idea what to do in this situation. I know that I have a newfound respect for Sephiroth, but it doesn't mean that he doesn't still scare me shitless. And for good reason too. I've seen what he can do when he's angry and provoked, both mentally and physically. Not to mention that he seems to have some sort of grudge or hate on for me because I am dating his brother. I can feel the shakes beginning to take over my body and I grab tightly to the arms of my chair in order to at least appear calm. I finally meet the eerie green of his eyes, and the first thought that comes to my mind is that no matter how alike Sephiroth and Riku look, their eyes have absolutely no similarities.
"I-I-I-I have a session w-w-w-with Xigbar right n-n-now," I stutter, unable to keep the shake from my voice. Even as fear keeps me in its unrelenting hold, I can't help but wonder what this could be about. Am I in trouble? Is he going to reprimand me because of my relationship with Riku? Or is he pulling me in for a reason completely unrelated to any of that? Maybe he is going to tell me that there has been no real progress in my recovery and because of that, I'm going to be punished and released into a different clinic.
"Xigbar has needed to cancel all of his sessions today," tells me, and I gulp heavily at the loss of my best excuse to not go into his office with him. What on earth am I going to do? Everyone has been working so hard to keep me away from Sephiroth for all this time, and all of that has been for nothing now. I don't think I can just tell him that Dr. Vexen doesn't want me alone with him. I think that would just make everything worse. All I can do is hope that Roxy can feel my distress through our bond and finds Riku. I know that it will send my boyfriend into an unmatched fury to find out this is happening. At least he would then come to my rescue. Hopefully it would be sooner than later though.
"Oh," I whisper, finding it difficult to raise my voice beyond that volume. "O-o-o-okay then." With no other options open for me, I wheel myself into the office, surprised that I don't see my normal walking bars set up. Crap. Is he expecting me to do something more because it's been so long since he's worked with me? Surely he's been in contact with the other doctors and therapists about how my recovery has been coming along while he's been gone. To my surprise, Sephiroth goes and sits behind his large desk, every paper on it in a very precise position. Unsure of where he wants me or what I am expected to do, I roll myself to sit in front of his desk so that we are facing one another, though I still am far too scared to actually look at him.
Picking up a file from its position on the desk, Sephiroth opens it, his emerald green eyes scanning over its contents before closing it, setting it back down in exactly the same place he picked it up from and staring at me with that laser like gaze. I am so close to shitting myself right now, it's not funny. I'm going to murder Xigbar for cancelling his session and leaving me to deal with this if I escape from this alive. And if I know Xigbar at all, his reason for cancelling probably had something to do with a little too much whiskey or rum, but probably it is more likely a lot too much of both. At least it is fuelling my desire for revenge on him. At least he is a convenient outlet for my anger.
"So, Dr. Vexen has told me that you and your brother have decided to recruit Kairi and Naminé to help you cope better with your gynophobia. How is that coming along?" he asks, his elbows resting on the desk as he rests his chin on his fisted hands.
I don't know what it is, but my first reaction is to scream that it is none of his business though I know that that's not exactly true. But there is just something about the tone of his voice that absolutely grates at my nerves and I have to wonder why he is acting like this. It's as if he is pretending that the past couple of months have never happened with him beating my boyfriend, his brother, or the fact that he's got a male lover despite acting so prejudice against Riku for dating me and so many other reasons. All of that, combined with his far too casual demeanour and condescending tone just pumps anger through my veins faster. Eventually, all of that anger reaches a heat that I can no longer contain.
"What the hell?" I exclaim, slamming my hands down onto the desk in front of me, effectively knocking down two stacks of perfectly positioned papers.
"I beg your pardon?" I can ever so slightly notice that his eyes have gone just the slightest amount wider.
I know that I should stop before I even start, but there is a fire inside me burning so hot that it cannot be held at bay. I asked you, what the hell? What are you trying to play at?" for the second time in my life, the first being the night of mine and Roxy's accident, I feel unrestrained hate flowing though my body. I don't wait for an answer before my emotions get the best of me and I can no longer contain my outburst. "What is your problem with me? Are you really that upset with the fact that I am in love with your brother?"
I get no verbal response from the stoic man seated across from me, and that just seems to piss me off even more. Now that I have started, I just can't seem to stop. It has all been building inside of me and I plan to let him know exactly what is on my mind.
"Do you know just how much you have hurt Riku? And I don't mean just physically. Do you really think that he hasn't figured out exactly what kind of relationship you have with Luxord? I don't know if you realize just how close you are to having your brother truly resent you. Everything that you do just seems to hurt him more and more!"
I pause in order to take in several deep breaths, giving him a chance to respond to my tirade, but when nothing comes from the silver haired man, I find myself continuing on. I have no idea whatsoever where these words and emotions are coming from or what sort of reaction Sephiroth is going to have. These are things that I assume no one has ever told him before because everyone is so scared of him. I know that I am, but my love for Riku is fuelling my brain, and I know he needs to hear these things.
"Do you even have an excuse as to why you beat the shit out of him that day? What about any of the other times before that? Brothers don't do that to each other! No matter what it is that's going on between them! And if it is because you found out that he and I are dating, what the hell! Obviously you have no issues dating another man yourself, so why is it such a big deal if your little brother is? I assure you, I'm not going to hurt him or break his heart. I could never do that. You don't even know your own brother anymore! He's not the little boy that you first were saddled with! He's grown up and has his own life now! And if you would take the chance to notice, he still loves you no matter what you do to push him away, but now you're in danger of losing him for good. So if you don't soon smarten up where Riku is concerned, you may as well start thinking of yourself as an only child because there will be absolutely nothing that you will be able to do to repair the damage you have caused to the relationship between the two of you!"
I finally feel as if I have said all that I needed to say and stop my rant. I panting so heavily that you would have thought that I just ran a marathon or something. My hands are holding onto the armrests of my chair for dear life, my knuckles turning a ghostly shade of white because of how hard I am gripping it. Tremors are racing through my veins and a sudden wave of nausea threatens to churn up my stomach. The only thing that is different between all of these reactions and those of my gynophobia induced panic attacks is that I am painfully aware of everything around me and no darkness seems to be swallowing my consciousness. That's the only indicator that all of this was real and I'm not just imagining things.
And that's the exact moment that the weight of everything I have just said and the reality of the situation comes crashing down on me like a ton of bricks. Especially because I am clearly able to see Sephiroth sitting there across the desk still looking relatively calm. However, I can also see that even though his face is set in a perfect mask of stoic and indifference, there is a fire burning in his jade green eyes that truly frightens me. Anger and hate alternate flashing in those deep orbs, and it sends chills down my spine. That sight is enough to set my heart pounding at a rapid pace in my chest and makes taking in oxygen a much more difficult and somewhat painful process then it had been only a few seconds ago.
Holy shit, what the hell did I just do?
Not wanting to be around him when Sephiroth finally absorbs exactly what I said and the fire in his eyes takes over, I turn around and with a surprising amount of speed and dexterity considering that the office wasn't exactly made for a wheelchair to do a complete 180 on a dime, I shoot off out the door like a bat out of hell.
As soon as I am out in the considerably cooler air of the hallway, I can think of nothing else but getting as far away as possible before Sephiroth breaks out of his trance and comes after me. I know he will. Sephiroth is not exactly the kind of man to listen to what I just said to him and take it lying down or one to let me get away with it. I am so frigging dead. I doubt anyone including Riku or Dr. Vexen will be able to protect me from whatever he is going to do in retaliation to me. How on earth did I allow myself to fly off the handle like that? With the slight burn of tears in my eyes, I roll down the hall as fast as possible; taking every turn and hallway I can in order to mask my trail as much as possible. I have no clear destination in mind; I just need to get as far away from Sephiroth as fast as possible.
The first place I want to go is the last place I can go to. I know the first place he'll look for me is with Riku, so as much as I want to return to the common room and to my boyfriend, I know that I can't. My twin is the next person who comes to mind to go running to, but I know that I would be interrupting something between him and Axel, and at the same time, where ever Roxy is will be high on the list of places Sephiroth is probably going search for me in. Taking in deep breaths, I know that I need to replenish the oxygen that I am rapidly losing through my panting, but I can't breathe in quite deep enough. I don't dare pause in my movements down the hall in order to catch my breaths in fear of being found. So despite the fuzziness that is forming around the edge of my vision from a combination of unshed tears and a lack of proper oxygen, I continue as fast as I can down the hall. I just wish I had some sort of idea of where to go to get away from him.
Not watching, or honestly not caring, where I am going, I round a corner, and suddenly I find myself crashing into an upright figure, a body crashing down on top of me as something prevents me from moving ahead. Instinctively, I reach out to grab whoever it is in order to prevent any further injury. My only goal is to get them back up and out of my way so that I am able to move on. Any second now I am expecting Sephiroth to show up right behind me and then it will all be over for me.
"Holy fucking shit! What the hell are you doing you fucking douche bag!" a familiar voice cries out from my lap and suddenly I am frozen solid, unable to move a muscle or say anything. Crap, not now! I feel the weight lift off of me as the person attempts to get up using a walker, and I am greeted by the sight of Kairi of all people. I wonder what she was doing down at this end of the clinic? Finally she looks down at me with a scowl, but as soon as she sees who it is that had crashed into her, her whole expression changes. "Oh god Sora, I'm so sorry! I didn't mean it!" She jumps away from me and I mentally remind myself that this is Kairi, she won't hurt me. She will only try and help me, and honestly, I have bigger problems to deal with.
"K-K-Kairi?" I whisper, praying that I don't go into a full blown panic attack. That is the last thing that I need right now. But at least of all the females that it could have been that I crashed into, it was Kairi.
"Yeah, it's just me, I'm not going to hurt you, Sora," she whispers, not making any move to try and touch me. My mind is slowly registering her nonthreatening presence, but I have no idea how I might react to physical contact right now. The fact that I am mentally able to tolerate her though is a good sign.
I don't know if it is the calming tone of her voice or what, but it is at that moment that I finally break down, tears escaping my eyes and trailing down my flushed cheeks. "Oh god Kai, what have I done?" I whisper, trying to wipe all the tears away with no success.
"What do you mean?" she asks, obviously confused as she adjusts her stance against her walker, which finally hits me.
"Wait, when did you start using a walker?" I can't help the surprised tone I have, but I make sure to keep my ears open for the sounds of Sephiroth coming down the hall after me.
She only blushes a little. "I've been using it a little bit each day for about a week. Today I'm just walking slowly around the clinic to see how used to it I am. But that's not important right now. What happened?"
I offer her a shake smile that disappears almost instantly as my situation comes crashing back down around me. "I kind of, well, told Sephiroth, you know…off."
Her blue eyes shoot open in disbelief. "You did what?"
"I was supposed to have a session with Xigbar, but as I was going down the hall, Sephiroth appeared and told me that Xigbar had to cancel and that he was taking over my session. I know that both Riku and Dr. Vexen have told me to avoid him, but how could I say no with him right there?" I pause to wipe more tears away, taking the tissue that the redhead has produced from who knows where.
"And you told him off for that?"
I shake my head, "No, not for that. I told him off because he was acting as if everything that happened between him and Riku hadn't! Almost like the last couple of months hadn't existed and he acted as if he didn't know that Riku and I are together!" I exclaim, feeling my breath hastening again, realizing just how long I have been idle here and that Sephiroth is bound to be coming around that corner to kill me at any moment now.
I watch as Kairi's jaw drops in disbelief and she just stares at me before a small smile breaks onto her features, throwing me for a loop. "Well congratulations, Sora. Looks like you have finally grown a backbone."
"Kairi!" I exclaim with exasperation in my words. "Are you going to help me hide from him or not?" For once, it seems as if she is starting to understand the severity of the situation, but it could be because of the fear that I know she must hear in my words.
"I can't believe that you did that," she whispers, shaking her head before moving her walker behind my chair. "Do you think I should take you to Riku? He can probably best help you."
Instantly, I shake my head, "No, I can't risk him getting hurt again because of me. Where should I go?" I know that there is an obvious shake to my voice, but only a part of it is because of the thought of Sephiroth coming after me. I can still feel my body wanting to shut down to the proximity of the redhead girl to me. I am holding it off with sheer will power, but for some reason, it doesn't seem to be as hard as it has been in the past. I'm actually really glad that of all the people I could have run into, it was her.
"I think that your first step should be to find Roxas. Then the two of you should go right to Dr. Vexen. Sephiroth will not try and do anything around Dr. V. He's still on thin ice with him right now. I also think you need to go to Roxas because I don't know how much longer you will hold out without another guy present," She tells me, risking placing a single hand on my shoulder for comfort. I feel another wave of tremors, along with a slight nausea at the touch, but nothing more than that surprisingly. Though I know my palms are clammy, I reach up and place a hand on top of hers and squeeze gently. The action catches her slightly off guard, but instead of doing anything, she just offers me a gentle smile. "Don't worry, Sor. You are going to be okay. Sephiroth won't be able to do anything to you."
Giving her my own shaky smile, I squeeze her hand once more. "Thank you, Kai," I whisper, barely audible. It's at that moment that I realize why I didn't have a strong reaction to Kairi's presence. It's something that has only happened once before in my life, about a year after Cloud and Tifa got together. I trust Kairi. I trust her more than any other girl in my life other than my mom, Aerith and Tifa. What surprises me though is just how quickly this has happened. I mean, I've only known Kairi for a couple of months. There is just something different about her. It takes me a moment to realize exactly what it is, but when I do, it catches me completely off guard. She's my best friend. I've never been this close to anyone, other than Roxas and Riku, in my life.
"Come on. Let's get you to Roxas. If we're lucky, he and Axel are still making out," she smiles with a playfulness that I know is just for my benefit to help calm me.
"I think I'd rather let Sephiroth have me than walk in on them yet again," I say with my own shaky laugh as we begin down the hallway towards the private rooms. I think I like having her as a best friend.

Chapter 30…wow, is it really here already? Just wow. Still kinda surprised this story has last this long to tell you the truth, lol. I still remember thinking when I started it that it was going to only be 10-15 chapters. Now it's double that! I can't thank you all for all the support that you've been giving me over the three and a half years that I have been working on this beast. It's sad to know that I am on the home stretch with this story, but all good things must come to an end. I don't want it to, but I don't want it to be one of those stories that go on for decades with no point to the chapters. A couple of important things have happened in this chapter, some obvious, some not so obvious, but they are there ;)
To Pahoyhoy, this chapter wouldn't exist without you lovey. You're the one who helped me decide everything and talk this chapter out before pen even touched paper. I can't believe that you're so close. I still remember the day that you told me, lol. I love you!
Next chapter. I am going to try and have at least one, if not another two chapters out in the next month and a half, but I'm not going to promise anything, cause we all know how well my promises with those last, lol. I'm going to try my darnedest though. I think before I can get too many more chapters out, I need to sit down and map out what needs to happen. Thanks again for everyones constant support and reviews are always appreciated! Until next time!
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