Adult-FanFiction.org : Games

Love Has Its Reasons	By : catriana Category: +S through Z > World of Warcraft Views: 17206 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
Disclaimer: I do not own World of Warcraft, nor any of the characters from it. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.

Chapter List
- 3
- 4
- 5
AN: This chapter is going to seem rushed. I apologize ahead of time.

Chapter Four

As much as Lorkan loved his home, he had to admit that the land of the Night Elves was indeed beautiful. Where his home was bereft of trees and shade, this beautiful land was lush with vegetation and trees. There had not been one time since he had entered this land that his feet did not touch grass that was so soft it could have been an exotic carpet. His home had once been this beautiful, now it was nothing but a wasteland for the folly of foolish ancestors. Foolish Night Elf ancestors. Sometimes he found Night Elves to be the biggest idiots in the entire world.

Except for Celysel right? An unbidden thought appeared. Yes, �er too. He answered smartly. He refused to let his brain turn against him; he had better control than that, damnit.

At the thought of her he felt his body clench in excitement and a small spring appeared in his step. Somehow she had found him and sent him a letter, asking him to meet her here in Ashenvale. Maybe she was having the same problems that he was having, and she wanted closure as well. That was good as for one, he didn�t have to go looking for her, two, he could get this done and over with as soon as possible and be on his merry little way. His desire to purge her from his mind was something he had been insistent on, and she obviously felt the same.

If dat be so, why you skippin?

Growling, he forced himself to walk normally, annoyed with himself for getting all giddy and happy about seeing a damned Elf. The entire time he had been on this journey he had been telling himself that she was just an Elf, that she wasn�t anything special, and he was getting rid of her. Now, today was the day, and he was going to be rid of her once and for all. He�d tell her to take a hike, get out of his head, and finally he�d go home and everything would be normal. Perfectly normal.

When he finally heard footsteps it had been about two hours since he had entered the forest. Jork he had left behind, simply because the animal didn�t like Celysel and he always had to feed him and pay him extra attention as Jork got edgy towards him when he became angry. He doubted that he�d lose any loyalties from Jork because of it, but he liked to keep his companions happy. As the footsteps became louder Lorkan reached and grabbed the strap of his rifle, swinging it over his shoulder and raised, ready to strike. While he was sure it was Celysel, he also wasn�t stupid. She may have planned an ambush, or it might be a dangerous animal. Either way, one could never be too careful. He aimed his barrel towards the darkness of the woods, his eyes narrowing, his finger on the trigger, ready to strike.

Silver hair was the first thing he saw as she emerged from the forest. Her eyes were as bright as ever, her skin had a healthy glow to it. She was wearing a dark green robe and her staff was strapped to her back, loose just in case she needed it immediately. Her hair was now down past her shoulder blades but she pulled it up into a ponytail. Her steps were quiet and graceful as she emerged from the darkness of the forest, obviously at home in her land of eternal night. She stopped a few feet ahead of him, a gentle smile on her face as she regarded him. Her face told no secrets, he could not tell whether she wanted to see him or not, or if she had missed him as much as he had her. His heart was pounding in his chest and for the longest time he could do nothing but stand there, his weapon held loosely at his side, his mouth slightly agape. She was beautiful, more beautiful than when he had last seen her.

�Lorkan�it is�� she looked away from him then, her _expression growing downcast. He felt a strong urge to walk over to her and pull her close. He wanted to comfort her, until he realized what he was doing. What power did this female hold over him?

�Good ta see ya?� he offered, knocking himself out of his slight stupor and grinning at her, shouldering his gun. When her gaze turned to him and she smiled, he felt a thousand pounds lighter. And he didn�t like it.

�Yes.� She said slowly, as if testing the thought out �It is good to see you.�

Now tell�er, tell�er that ya be wantin�er gone, that there�ll neva be anyting between ya, that ya despis�er and all that she�s been doin� ta ya fo dese four months. Tell�er how she�s made ya life miserable!

�I..!� she began again, cutting him off of his thoughts. Her hand was near her heart, clenched into a tight fist. Obviously she had really wanted to convey this message to him, so he stood, attentive. �I�� she began to move nervously, her eyes shifting to stare hard at the ground. �I�ve missed you.� She said it so softly that had he been anything less than a Troll he probably wouldn�t have heard it. He had a feeling that it was probably not what she had wanted to say, but it was the truth. He felt the same way, but he wasn�t about to voice it for then there would other things that he�d have to force himself to admit, and he wasn�t ready for that just yet. �Lorkan, I�ve had a lot of time to think about what happened between us four months ago,� she continued, �And I came here to tell you that I don�t regret any of it.�

He let that sink in for a second. What exactly did that mean �she didn�t regret any of it�? Well, he didn�t really regret any of it either, but her admitting the same wasn�t what he had expected. He looked at her posture; she was tense and nervous, not trying very hard not to show it. He didn�t really understand why she was so bent out of shape, if they were both here for the same thing, it shouldn�t even be a problem, and yet she was hesitating.

�It wouldn�t work.� she said softly, interrupting him from his thoughts �But you already know that.� she took a deep breath, and he steeled himself for what he knew was going to be a long speech �These past few months I have been unable to stop thinking about you and what happened that night. A part of me wants to wish that it had not happened, but it did, and I have no regrets about it. I am not sure why you came here to meet me, since I was probably just another casual bed partner for you, but I cannot say that it was the same for me. I feel an attachment towards you, but I know that it will never be. I came here today because...� she paused, as if trying to think of her words carefully �I came here today because I felt as if I needed some closure, so that I may perhaps move on. I am assuming you are here for the same thing?�

He was, but it wasn�t what she was thinking. Casual bed partner? When he thought about it, it didn�t sound right to him. He had a few choice adjectives that he could use to describe how he felt about her, but �casual bed partner� was not one of them. He felt himself growing a bit defensive of her opinion of him. �Ey, na...� Lorkan began �Ya tryin� ta say I jus� go round sleepin� wit whate�va got legs mon? Gimme some credit, I gots good taste.� he looked her up and down, grinning to himself �Wouldn�t ya agree?�

Her eyes widened and he watched with barely contained humor as she want from surprised to fuming, her face turning a lovely shade of red. It was just so easy to get her riled up, and she really did look beautiful when angry. He resisted the strong urge to walk over and kiss that sexy expression off of her face. As soon as he thought about that, many more unbidden thoughts began to emerge in his mind, thoughts of...

None of dat. He scolded himself You didn� come for dat mon. Calm yaself down.

Raising a dainty finger, Celysel pointed at him, obviously showing that she was quite upset �And that is another thing, you and your...� she began to splutter, at a loss for words as she was so angry. He really didn�t get why she got so mad about the fact that he found her to be sexy. Wouldn�t a female normally be happy that a guy was appreciative of their body? He didn�t get her sometimes.

�Flirtin�?� he offered, still smiling �Leetle un, ya should take it as a compliment.� he began to walk over towards her, leaning forward so that his face was inches from hers. He noticed the way her breath caught in her throat, how she always seemed to smell like fresh rain and flowers. �Ya be beautiful Celysel, and I like ta admire beautiful tings.� his voice was a low rumble as he turned his head to the side, moving to take in her scent. Her scent was so intoxicating; he could just nuzzle her neck all day and never get tired. This was wrong, and he knew it, and he knew where it could lead, but the logical part of his brain was so boring sometimes, so Lorkan let it take a vacation, just for now.

Keep it up, ya gonna be regrettin� dis.

He moved his body closer to hers as she backed away, eventually backing up against a tree. Now his lips were lightly brushing against her neck, his arms were blocking any attempt for a hasty retreat. His desire for her had flared up since she had first emerged from the woods, but he had been denying it. Hell, his desire for her had been flared up for the past four months, this was no different from any other day besides the fact that now she was standing in front of him, her breathing shallow, exposing her neck for his mouth to explore, and just looking downright sexy. The logical part of his brain was refusing to take its vacation, instead beating at him, demanding him to take a step back and look at what he was doing. A part of him wanted to listen to good ol� logic for it usually served him well. Since majority ruled, however, logic was given a freshly polished boot to the ass, leaving Lorkan to work purely on instinct and desire, which was not always a good combination.

Apparently, Celysel was better at listening to logic than he was, for she suddenly was pushing him away, trying to force some distance between them. Although he was stronger than her and really didn�t have to move despite her protesting, he did allow her some distance, albeit a very small amount. He still had her trapped, but he wasn�t all over her anymore. The more primal, dominant part of him groaned inwardly at the distance that she had insisted on, the logical part, which now only had a tiny voice, said that this was for the best. They both knew, however, that this was only a temporary setback on his part.

�We shouldn�t be doing this.� she said as if she had rehearsed it over and over in her mind. She paused and looked away, as if she were trying to think of a way to word her next sentence. Lorkan, knowing when trouble was rising, leaned back a bit, looking at her curiously. Silver strands were beginning to fall to the side of her face, and combined with her natural glow, she looked even more beautiful and he couldn�t help but brush his fingers against her cheek, pushing aside strands of her hair. He briefly wondered what she would think if she knew what he was thinking right at this moment. �I�ve been thinking about this a lot.� She continued, successfully breaking him out of his train of thought, �And I feel that all this is, is a very strong physical attraction.� When he didn�t agree with the fact that she was very good at pointing out the obvious she decided to go on ��And I don�t want that.�

But he did, and he wasn�t going to deny that much anymore. His feelings weren�t purely physical, he did feel something for her, although it wasn�t that strong and it was definitely indefinable. He figured that if he let it, it probably could grow into something more than that, but he didn�t know her all that well, and he had never really been given the chance. Since she was a woman, and women tended to think more with their emotions than their, well, other parts, he figured that like most women, if they were to have anything at all, it would have to be more than just on a sexual basis. About an hour ago, he probably would have told her to take a hike, �dumped her� in a sense, and went home. Now, he thought about maybe granting her request, not only because he�d probably receive some physical gratification from it, but because he really did find her to be interesting, and maybe getting to know her wasn�t so bad after all.

The logical part of his brain was absolutely appalled by its own behavior and tried to get him to think. How exactly would they get to know each other? They were different playing fields, brought together only by chance. The warnings his brother had given him were not to be taken lightly, if he tried to be with this woman, heartache would follow. Lorkan had prided himself on living a troubled-free life. With Celysel, he was bound to have more than enough trouble to make his hair go completely grey.

Jus� do watcha said ya was gonna do and git rid of�er.

But that seemed wrong. He didn�t want to just get rid of her, despite the fact that it was the best way. He knew that if he just left it like that he�d be plagued by his actions, which would have made this entire trip be in vain. He had wanted her out of his mind, and while he still somewhat did, he didn�t want it to be on bad terms. Afterall, she hadn�t really done anything to him that would warrant him to be cruel to her.

�I understand.� Lorkan said, nodding. No, no female that actually wanted a relationship would want just sex. She�d want a companion, someone that she could connect with. Sex, while good, was not enough. He could respect that but he wasn�t sure he could give her what she wanted. Even if something were to happen between them, their relationship would be seriously limited by distance, and they wouldn�t even be able to write each other, because messengers did not cross territories. Unless they decided to live together, which was out of the question, their relationship would indeed be one of hardship and trust. He liked her just fine, and while he didn�t distrust her, he trusted her not to set him up. She didn�t trust him, however, although he had never given her a reason to feel otherwise. Maybe it was that whole complex female thing.

She seemed surprised by his reaction, for she looked up at him, her look one of surprise �You do?� she asked. Obviously, she had not thought that he would care for her desires to have something meaningful in a relationship. �I�m sorry I just�� she looked away from him again, looking ashamed of whatever thoughts had been going on in her pretty little head. The urge to wrap his arms around her and comfort her, to let her know that everything was fine was strong. He hadn�t been offended by her remark, but he guessed that maybe she felt he should have been. He had thought her earlier comment about his sleeping habits were a bit out of line, but he wasn�t the type to stay angry about something so simple.

�No offense taken.� He said, saying the words only to make her feel better. It did work, she visibly relaxed so he decided to continue, �Look, Celysel, I�d be a fo� to say I didn�t find ya attractive. Anyone who disagrees be a blind fo�. I ain�t gonna say I didn�t like wat happen� four months ago, coz I did. Like ta have mo� of da same if possible�� he gave her a toothy grin when her face turned scarlet. He was secretly glad that she didn�t scowl at him this time, meaning she had probably been telling the truth when she said she hadn�t regretted that night. �But ya say ya be wantin� someting mo� tangible right?� when she nodded, he sighed. �I dunno if I can do dat, since distance be a main factor in dis.�

Her gaze turned curious as she regarded him silently. She opened her mouth as if to ask a question, but the closed it shut. She did this a few more times, reminding Lorkan of a fish out of water. He knew what she was probably thinking. His words insinuated that he would possibly want something with her, a relationship that had more than just physical involvement. He wasn�t sure what he thought about his statement either, since that was the exact opposite of what he was here for and it was something that just didn�t make sense. Why was he even bothering?

�Are you saying you want a relationship with me?� she asked, her eyes widening in disbelief. He could tell that his response was the last thing she had expected to hear, and quite truthfully, he felt the same way. He wasn�t really sure why he was saying these words, why he even wanted to bother. All common sense pointed to the more reasonable answer of leaving her, but deep down, he knew it wouldn�t be all that simple. It was that reason, he now realized, that he had wanted her to stay and talk the morning after when he didn�t understand why he had wanted her to stay. She was interesting, and beautiful. She was also kind and intelligent, and for a Night Elf being the age he assumed she was, he thought that was rather impressive. As a Druid she seemed to be the capable fighter, she was definitely no weakling, and he had always preferred strong women over anything else. She was well rounded, and if she had been a Troll, she would have been more than a suitable mate for him. But that was the kicker; she wasn�t a Troll, and that was the only flaw in her and he couldn�t really fault her for being born a Night Elf.

Now terribly confused, Lorkan completely moved away from her, scratching his head as he usually did when he was confused about something. He was torn between going with common sense and going with a small but growing feeling. And besides that, what if she rejected him if he did decide he wanted to be with her?

Den dat makes ya life a bit easier dun it mon?

It actually would. If she rejected him, he could probably go home and feel better about the entire situation. He could move on and not worry about �what ifs� or other persistent thoughts that wouldn�t simply go away. He could just go back home and resume life as normal, and the chances of meeting her again would be slim to none.

Jus� like it was last time?

He decided not to repeat his previous thought about not seeing her ever again. If things went bad, he really didn�t want to see her again, and he didn�t want to jinx himself like he had last time. Finally, he decided to speak, �I dunno mon.� he said honestly, turning to face her again. �I mean, ya be interstin� and funny��

�You mean you like to laugh at me.� She said rather bitterly, glowering at him. He flashed her another toothy grin.

�Nah, ya prob�ly git upset but ya be sexy when ya get all mad. Dat be why I like ta tease ya. Dun mean no harm.� Instead of getting mad, however, she gave him a very shy smile and looked down at her feet. He closed the distance between them again, lifting her chin up with his finger. He looked down at her, at her red stained cheeks and full lips and felt himself grinning broadly. �Wouldn�t mind gettin� ta know ya better.� He finished, looking at her to gauge her reaction.

They stood there for a long moment, simply staring into each others eyes. He wondered why he had ever thought that he had seen more beautiful women than Celysel, for in this atmosphere and the way she was looking at him, she looked nothing short of a Goddess, and his stomach was doing funny things as he gazed upon her, waiting for her to speak. When she did speak, it was soft and for a second he thought that she had mouthed the words to him.

�It will be difficult.� She said, never breaking eye contact with him, wanting, no needing to see his reaction. She was searching for something from him and he wasn�t entirely sure of what it was. Surely she wasn�t expecting declarations of love or something, he barely knew her. Slowly, he began to feel as if he had walked into some sort of emotional trap. Her response signaled that she was also beginning to give into the possibility of them having a relationship, and he ignored his slight increase in heartbeat rhythm. What would he do if she said yes? He really hadn�t thought that far. They had both arrived here with the intention of not getting together, but going their separate ways for good. Somehow, both of them seemed sidetracked on this and neither one of them knew how to get back on track; or if they even wanted to. It was as if someone was pulling their strings, making them go a certain way whether they liked it or not.

�Yeah.� Was the only response that he was able to spring forth from the haze of his thoughts, still trying to focus clearly. �We could make it work.� Was that him speaking? Surely that was not him, saying that they could make a futile relationship work. But then again, perhaps he did want a relationship with her, he wasn�t sure. Confusion was causing him to say and do things without thinking them through, and his expression was well noticed by Celysel, who looked as equally confused as he. When he looked at her again, she was looking at him as if she were searching for something, and his confusion deepened. What exactly did she want from him? When he felt her fingers touch his face lightly his eyes shot to her, widening a bit in surprise. Her touch was cool and felt nice against his normally warm skin. Her fingers traced his jaw line and traced his tusk, moving back to his cheek again. Her eyes, bright pools of silver light, were gazing at him with a warm expression. He could drown himself in those beautiful eyes of hers.
�Celysel�� he began, his hand moving to capture hers gently. He was quickly losing his train of thought. She seemed to be very good at it somehow.
�Kiss me.� She said softly, even going so far as to begin to stand on her tip toes �I need to know something. Please.�
Slightly dazed and trying to collect thoughts she had brought him out of, he leaned forward, closing his eyes as her lips lightly brushed against his. It was a gentle kiss, not as demanding as the one he had first given her but definitely just as potent. Slowly, he felt his arms move around her lithe body, pulling her closer to him. She was soft and warm and she tasted like a rather enjoyable fruit he had had as a child. He felt his desire for her increase ten fold, even if it was just to hold her and kiss her like this, it would be fine. He didn�t understand how such a simple kiss could do so much damage to the psyche, but then again, his psyche had already been damaged about an hour ago. He moved his hands up and down her back in a soothing gesture, pressing his lips a little firmer on hers. She complied, her arms coming around his neck. They pulled each other together in a tight embrace but did not deepen their kiss, for they both knew what would happen if they went too far.
They soon parted, both needing precious air. Somehow, Lorkan had managed to muse up her hair a bit, when he hadn�t even remembered moving his hand through the silky tresses, although it was highly possible. She looked up at him with a pleasantly dazed expression, her full lips turned into a small smile, her eyelids were half closed. If Lorkan hadn�t known any better, he would have said she was looking at him lovingly.
�Did dat answer ya question?� he asked, feeling a bit satisfied with himself. He was glad that he hadn�t gone so far over the edge that he couldn�t even kiss a woman properly. He had prided himself on being a rather excellent lover, so he was grateful that his reputation still held its ground firmly.
Instead of answering him, she grabbed the back of his head and before he knew it, she had pressed his lips to hers in a rather passionate and powerful kiss. Groaning softly at the contact he returned her kiss with equal fervor, a bit lightheaded with giddiness. Despite the fact that she didn�t want a purely physical relationship, it was obvious that she desired him with the same intensity that he desired her. While he slowly coming to terms that he didn�t mind being in a real relationship with Celysel, he would have been extremely disappointed and hard pressed to keep his hands off of her if she had desired distance between them. He was glad that she didn�t mind wanting to keep the physical aspect of what had originally drawn them together to begin with. Gaining confidence in his conclusion he parted her lips carefully, delving his tongue into the sweetness of her mouth, enjoying the full taste of her. She responded with a soft moan and mimicked his movements, even going so far as to nibble on his lips when they would part for a moment. He broke the kiss eventually, simply because he had to before something happened. They still had things to discuss, and he wanted to discuss them before they went any further. Slowly, he detangled her arms from around his neck and took a few steps back, giving them some distance. She didn�t seem too happy about that to his surprise, but he shook it off and suppressed a grin. If she wanted him, she�d get that and more, later. Later meaning a few minutes if she kept up with those kisses.
�So, wut be da plan mon?� he asked her, a little more confident about the answer. She wasn�t a Troll, and she probably wouldn�t be nothing but trouble. Their relationship would be largely based on trust due to the simple fact that they were on different sides of the same coin. Besides people who already knew, no one else could be told, due to the severity of their punishments should they be caught. Communication would be limited, they�d probably only see each other for maybe a few months at a time. If it lasted that long. All of those were things they had both considered and yet their attraction to each other never waned. Lorkan could take a hint, even if common sense should have been the majority rule. Trying to deny this relationship would have caused them nothing but misery, not closure. At least this way, they could grow out of each other naturally, instead of trying to fight instincts and feelings that refused to be ignored.
�The plan is�� she began, looking up at him �That this needs to be mutual. Our feelings need to be mutual if this is to work.� She took a deep breath, closing her eyes before letting it out in a huff �I like you Lorkan. You�re funny and smart, and there�s just something about you that attracts me to you. I don�t regret the time I�ve spent with you, so I guess that should have been indication enough. I also desire you. My thoughts have been plagued of you and I...� she trailed off as her face began to turn lovely shades of red. She had a rather nasty habit of blushing, but it was cute, so he couldn�t complain. �Doing�things.� She decided to leave it at that, ignoring his huge grin at her bashful confession �So I won�t lie, I do desire you, but I�ve never been in a relationship before. I know enough that I want you to like me as well, and that I don�t want to just be a sex partner for you. I�d feel like a cheap whore if it was like that.�
The concept of her being a cheap whore appalled him. He shook his head �Naw mon, it ain�t like dat.� He said and meant it. �If I had wanted jus� sex, I could go anywhere fo� dat. I wouldn�t be riskin� my neck ta be witcha if I jus� wanted sex.�
She knew he had a point and she smiled a little sheepishly, almost as if she were ashamed for her assumptions as to why he had wanted to be with her. His answer also seemed to quell any doubts that she had about it and she closed the gap between them, her arms moving around his waist as she hugged him. He felt his arms close around her small shoulders and surprisingly, it felt as if a huge weight had just been lifted from his shoulders, instead of the other way around. She didn�t have to say anything more, he already knew what the outcome of the question that was hovering in the air was.
She was his. And for some odd reason, he no longer found that thought as unappealing as when he had arrived.
- 3
- 4
- 5
You need to be logged in to leave a review for this story.You need to be logged in to leave a review for this story.
Report Story

Love Has Its Reasons