Aches of the heart | By : blackdiamondprincess Category: Kingdom Hearts > Slash/Yaoi - Male/Male Views: 3469 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0 |
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FOUR : Broken silence
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Sora descended the last wooden steps of the
stairs leading into the welcoming hall and turned to his left to enter the
dining room. From there he turned to his left again to walk over to the
kitchen, when he heard the keys of a piano playing nearby.
Following the sound to the door at the outmost
right of the room, he halted with his hand on the knob, wondering who it could
be playing such a beautiful tune.
He opened the door slowly and peeked inside.
Bathing in the light of the full moon shining
through the large windows sat a long white haired man behind a white piano that
Sora recognised immediately. His fingers flew across the keys virtuously, the
sound beautiful, yet melancholic at the same time.
Sora watched him for a while, the melody
striking him deeply for some reason, the evoked emotions threatening to bring
him to tears as the song reached its melodic peak.
Sephiroth sighed as he played the last note,
opening his eyes when he felt another presence in the room. He calmly turned
his head to look at the person standing by the door and couldn't help the small
smile that passed his features. "Good evening, Sora." He whispered,
recognising the small brunette, "It's been a while."
"That was beautiful…" Sora whispered
with a small smile.
Sephiroth smiled again and looked back at the
piano, "It has been a long time since I played though. Thank you."
The brunette smiled back, "Did you arrive
long ago?"
"An hour or so." Sephiroth said,
closing the key case. "Did I wake you?"
"Oh! No, I wasn't sleeping yet." Sora
whispered with a blush on his face, making the other man chuckle in
understanding. "I just came down for a drink."
Sephiroth nodded and stood, "Then I won't
keep Riku waiting for you."
Sora just watched him pass by and couldn't help
but feel sorry for Sephiroth for some reason. It didn't look like he had the
same harsh feelings for his brother like Riku had for him, making him wonder
what it actually was that had happened once again.
"It's good to see you, Sora. You look
good." The elder man said with a brotherly smile, ruffling Sora's hair
briefly. He then exited and left the youth in the dark, large room.
Sora exited too and watched with a slight frown
how Sephiroth walked up the stairs. Maybe he would tell him what it was that
bothered Riku so much… He shook the idea out of his head though; Riku told him
he'd tell him, so there was no need to go ask someone else.
Still, as Sora walked up the stairs with a
bottle of water 2 minutes later, he wondered whether Riku should be told of his
brother's presence in the house tonight. He decided that he preferred keeping
the peace between them and that if Riku wanted to get angry, he could do that
in the morning.
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"You've got to be kidding me!"
Sora shook his head as he laid the last touch
to the Christmas tree in the lounge. "I saw him last night. He's
here."
Kairi blinked a few times at him as she came to
him with two mugs of hot chocolate. "What did Riku say? Did they see each
other?"
Sora turned around and accepted the mug she
held out for him and shook his head, "Sephiroth had to work today and left
early. Riku wasn't up yet. Thankfully."
Kairi raised an eyebrow and took a sip from her
drink without saying anything.
"You know, I really don't think that
Sephiroth is that bad." Sora softly spoke, sitting himself on one of the
couches and looking at the decorated tree.
The redhead shook her head, lay her mug on the
glass low table and took place next to her friend to face him sternly;
"Na-uh, do you forget what he did to my brother? There's no way a guy like
that can be good."
Sora sighed and directed his eyes to the brown
surface of his warm drink, "But yesterday I felt these feelings of regret
coming from him, like he really wanted to try."
"Try what?"
"Try to make things work." Sora said,
looking at her, "I mean, he knows that he's not really wanted here, but
still he wants to try."
Kairi gave him a suspicious look, "Is
there something you're not telling me?"
Sora shrugged, "What?"
The redhead rolled her eyes, "You're
feeling sorry for him."
"Well, yeah…" Sora whispered, "A
little."
"Sora…" Kairi exasperatedly
whispered, "He's a heartbreaker, a total egoist. He always goes out for
what he's looking for. Who knows, maybe he tricked you!"
Sora gave her a doubtful stare, "Why would
he do that?"
"Maybe because he wants you to see Riku as
the bad guy and turn the tables in his favour."
"I would never chose sides against Riku,
you know that." Sora reassuringly said, shaking his head.
Kairi shook her head in turn, "Just be
careful Sora, he's very manipulative, don't always believe everything he
says."
"Believe everything who says?"
Kairi and Sora turned their heads to the income
hall and heard the front door close as Wakka suddenly appeared followed by
Riku.
Kairi stood up and walked up to her boyfriend,
"Believe everything that you say; just admit it: you didn't get him that
Kamasutra kit for Christmas did you?"
"A Kamasutra kit?" Riku echoed,
walking passed them and sitting next to Sora to kiss him on his lips.
Sora chuckled and he and Kairi shared a knowing
gaze, Sora silently thanking her.
"Sora will just have to wait until next
week to find that out, now won't he?" Wakka responded with a sly smile to
his girlfriend, kissing her nose.
"So, got to see the horses?" Sora
asked Wakka.
"Yeah, though I don't think I'll be riding
one any time soon… One of them almost bit my hand off when I tried to feed it
with a carrot." He answered, moving himself to sit on the other couch with
his girlfriend on his lap.
Riku chuckled, "Bryn is a little temperamental,
but he'll grow to like you."
"What did the trainer say? Can we go horse
riding tomorrow?" Sora softly whispered to his boyfriend.
"Yeah, it should be no problem." Riku
whispered back with a loving smile.
"Okay, that's settled then," Kairi
spoke, "Sora and I decorated the house and we think we deserve a reward
for that."
"It really is beautifully decorated…"
Riku said as he looked around, "But you're not going to tell me that you
got to that chandelier all by yourself."
"Or got to the top of the windows to stick
those stars up there." Wakka added with a grin.
"Hey, we worked hard!" Sora
protested.
"Uh-huh, Leon or Cloud helped, didn't they?" Riku said with a
doubtful look as he kept admiring the nice decorative work.
"Just a little." Kairi said, holding
her right thumb and index slightly apart.
That made both Riku and Wakka chuckle.
"Don't we deserve some sort of
reward?" Sora whispered softly to Riku, putting up his best puppy eyes.
"Yeah…" Kairi whispered to her
boyfriend.
Riku turned his head to his friend, "Is
now the right time?"
"It's time, brotha." Wakka agreed.
"We passed by a club on our way
back…" Riku started.
"And we saw this poster of a big star
hanging out." Wakka continued.
Riku reached over to Sora's forehead and tucked
a strand of his hair behind an ear, "We wanted to surprise you guys with
maybe a nice night out…"
"Yet sadly, to our dismay, all tickets
were sold out…" the redhead said with a sad look on his face.
"Who was it?" Kairi asked softly, but
Wakka silenced her and continued. "So my bro and I got out of the car to
see if there wasn't any way possible to still get in."
"Cause you see," Riku took over,
"We both knew how much you two would like to see this person and because
we love you more than anything in this world…"
Sora was starting to get impatient, "Tell
us already!"
Wakka chuckled, "You tell them?"
Riku nodded, while turning his head back to
look at Sora, "And so, Wakka and I bought tickets in pre-sale before
coming to Crystle…"
Sora moved himself to sit with his knees on the
couch, "And…?" He urged, speaking through his teeth and taking Riku
by his collar, shaking him slightly.
"And… we got you guys back-stage passes to
see Utada tonight." Riku spoke with a small smirk on his face.
For a moment Sora just looked at him and then
he looked at Kairi who had the same disbelieving expression on her face. And
then…
"Are you frickin' kidding me?!!" Sora
yelled, before embracing his boyfriend, "That's unbelievable! Oh baby,
thankyouthankyouthankyou!!!"
"This doesn't count as a Christmas present
now does it?" Kairi suspiciously asked her boyfriend.
Wakka chuckled and nuzzled his nose against
hers lovingly, "Do I need a reason to give my baby a special night
out?"
Kairi giggled and thought about it for a moment
before shaking her head and jumping up with Sora to sing the first verse of
'Devil inside' and then screaming at the top of their lungs in total
excitement.
The other two just shared a chuckle before
covering their ears and silently leaving the lounge with pleased smiles on their
faces.
"We're good, ya?"
Riku chuckled and slapped his hand in Wakka's waiting one, "You bet
your ass we are bro."
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"Cloud Strife is here to see you,
sir."
Frowning slightly, Sephiroth pressed in the
button of the intercom, "Let him in, Lynn."
The door to his office suddenly flew open and a
very pissed off Cloud entered before closing the door again. "We need to
talk."
Sephiroth sat back with a questioning eyebrow,
letting go of the pen he had been holding and putting it in front of him on his
desk. "Hello to you too, Cloud." He said softly, "How may I help
you?"
"Quit the fucking attitude,
Sephiroth."
"What's wrong?" The elder man softly
asked with concern.
"Oh please, like you care!" Cloud
scoffed, "Like you fucking care!"
Sephiroth didn't reply but simply looked at him
with a non-understanding expression.
"I need you to stay away from me!"
Cloud said, irritated by the other's dumbfounded expression, "I need you
to stop ruining my life!"
This made the elder man stand up and keep his
eyes on the other man, who was returning the gaze defiantly. Sephiroth
approached him and stopped right in front of him. "Don't fight it, just
give into it."
Cloud shook his head as he took a step back,
"You're so self-conceited…" He wanted to walk away, but was held back.
"Am I?" Sephiroth whispered, "Am
I really, Cloud?"
I can't do this…Cloud thought to himself, trying desperately to free himself from
Sephiroth's grip on his left arm. "Let go of me!"
"Tell me the true reason for your coming
here, Cloud." Sephiroth whispered softly, feeling the blonde's resolve to
be angry slowly crumble.
"I hate you!" Cloud tearfully
whispered, his body refusing to struggle any longer against what was so
obvious, but his heart not willing to forget what pain he endured because of
the man. "I hate you so much for what you did to me…!"
"Cloud…" Compassionately whispered,
closing his eyes in remorse.
"I never told you… but I loved you,
Sephiroth." The blonde now whimpered, his eyes tightly closed, "I
loved you so much and you just ripped my heart out like it was nothing. How can
I forgive you? How do you expect me to act after 7 years?"
Sephiroth made the blonde turn around and
pulled him closer to him, "I've never stopped thinking about you. I've
never stopped regretting either…"
Cloud didn't look at him, stubbornly refusing
to. "It's too late."
"Is it?" Sephiroth whispered, making
Cloud look up at him finally.
"You ruined it for us and I'm in love with
another man now." Cloud turned his head to the side and closed his eyes,
"We can't go back to what we were."
"Then at least give me this…"
Sephiroth whispered as he lowered his lips on Cloud's, taking advantage of the
blonde's weak moment.
Despite himself, Cloud found himself kissing
him back fiercely, pouring in all the hate, all the pain and love he had been
holding back for seven long years. His body seemed to have a will of its own;
his heart feeling like it was on the verge of breaking, yet endlessly happy at
the same time. He took his face in his hands and deepened the kiss, not wanting
it to end, not wanting to return to reality… A reality where he couldn't and
shouldn't be kissing Sephiroth like this, where he already had a loving and
caring partner in his life and where his desires for his ex shouldn't be
re-surfacing like they did now.
Sephiroth broke the kiss, looking into the
other man's eyes intently, "We can have it all, Cloud. All I'm asking for
is you."
Cloud closed his eyes at this and caressed his
right cheek against Sephiroth's hand holding his face, a silent tear rolling
out of his right eye. "You don't know what you're asking of me…"
Sephiroth gave him an indulgent look,
"I'll be satisfied with what you can give, Cloud…"
The blonde sniffled and took a step back from
him, disengaging their embrace. He needed some time to think it all through; he
didn't know what he would do, where things stood between him and Leon and where
what he just did would lead him to. He was old enough to know that he couldn't
love two persons at the same time without tearing himself emotionally apart… and,
inevitably, hurting someone along the way…
He turned around and exited Sephiroth's office, leaving a part of his
heart behind with the one he once used to call his own.
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The clock on the wall in front of him indicated
1.40 am as he looked up from his sitting position at the end
of the bed he shared with Leon. He could hear the soft whispers of Sora and Riku who
just returned from their night out with Kairi and Wakka. He waited patiently in
the darkness of his room for the silence to return in the house after he had
heard all bedroom doors close themselves. He then slowly stood up, leaving Leon asleep in their bed and made his way to the door
where he exited on the tip of his toes.
Once in the corridor of the second floor, he
then took the stairs right in front of their door leading to the third level of
the house and to the attic room.
Not wasting any time with hesitating any
longer, Cloud opened the sole door at the top of the stairs as soundlessly as
he could, peeking inside the large, dark room.
He found himself in Sephiroth's home office
now, and there was a door at the opposite site of the space. He crossed the
room quickly, still on the tip of his bare toes until he reached the next door
and laid a hand on the doorknob. The door opened without a noise, granting him
access to a moonlit bedroom.
On his right he found a king-size bed and in
it, the sleeping form of Sephiroth, sleeping on his back. Cloud approached the
bed and laid himself on it with stealth before creeping underneath the covers
and up the man's body until he practically straddled him.
Sephiroth only grunted silently in his sleep.
He studied this handsome man's features
leisurely; tracing with a finger over his lips lovingly and watching how they
slightly parted as in invitation.
Closing his eyes, he then lowered his lips into
his neck, gently pressing a soft kiss on the smooth skin there, his hands
roaming over Sephiroth's broad chest with delicate fingers.
As he laid there with his eyes closed and nose
buried in Sephiroth's silver mane, he felt a pair of hands sliding their way up
his back and embracing him tenderly. Cloud slightly moved his head and azure
met with jade, their faces inches apart.
Cloud then sat up, making sure that their eyes
were still locked and loosened the knot that held his night robe together,
letting the opened parts slide down his now bare skin.
Sephiroth reached out to him and caressed his
right cheek, pulling him down on him, accepting the offer the other had made.
Their kiss was passionate and sweet this time,
setting the tone for their joining.
Knowing that there wasn't much time for
extended foreplay, Sephiroth slowly sat up as he felt Cloud wiggle his hips,
silently asking for him to take him. He took hold of the smaller male's hips
and positioned him on top of him, looking him in the eyes.
Cloud softly smiled down at him before closing
his eyes as his tip passed his tight ring of muscles. He hadn't forgotten about
how painfully large Sephiroth used to be and hoped that he could relax enough
to fit him all inside without lubrication.
Sephiroth watched him close his eyes as the
first sting of pain shot through him and wiped away his first tear with his
right thumb, whispering soft encouragements while his tight heat enveloped him
completely.
Cloud arched his neck at this feeling that he
hadn't felt in so long, softly murmuring Sephiroth's name in the transparent
dark.
Sephiroth let his lips run over the soft skin
of Cloud's right shoulder, lovingly nipping and leaving soft kisses while he
coaxed his hips to move against his. He wouldn't deny that he was entranced by
what Cloud was offering him right now. He just wished that he wouldn't have to
let it go again.
A loud gasp filled the room and a soft moan
soon followed as positions were being changed, Cloud finding himself on the
covers, his legs wrapping around Sephiroth's waist, his hands running through
his long mane, pulling the light mass to one side so it didn't interfere. They
softly smiled at each other, Cloud's gesture a reminder of long past times.
"I still don't understand why you don't
tie it up…" Cloud whispered softly.
Sephiroth watched him for a moment, silently
admiring him as he laid there underneath him. He knew of course that what they
were doing right now wouldn't have an effect on their current situation, though
there was no need to deny that the attraction between them rose every time they
were near each other. This was a natural result of the cramped up desire and
denied feelings… He wouldn't ask Cloud for more than he could give, but he knew
that what he felt for him was mutual, although impossible to act out upon in
public.
Sephiroth did not disclaim his fault as to what
happened between them, he also knew that it wouldn't help Cloud to thrust him
like he once did. Yet he was ready to accept whatever he was willing to give
him. Even if it was only physical. "You've always been a part of me,
Cloud…"
Cloud felt tears sting behind his eyes at that
and arched as Sephiroth started to move gently, softly whispering his name
again before pulling him down on him for a slow, tongue-tangling kiss.
When he and Leon had gone to bed earlier, he
hadn't been able to find sleep, his thoughts still dwelling on his conversation
with Sephiroth from earlier that day. It had cost him a lot of courage to get
out of the bed and come up here, but his heart had longed so badly to be near
him again… He couldn't help the way he felt for him, the attraction never
seemed to cease between them. He had told himself that this could be a one time
thing only and that in that way he prevented future 'accidents' by releasing
the tension between them now.
"Seph…" Cloud managed, closing his
eyes once more and pulling him closer against him, wanting to feel him deep
within as he felt the pleasure grow. Of course Sephiroth told him that he
regretted what happened between them and that he wanted to try again, but no
matter how much Cloud found himself reminiscing about those times, he always
regretted that Sephiroth had gone and done what he did. He couldn't give him
his heart anymore; it was too late for that.
"Harder…" He sobbed over his
shoulder, rocking against him, fighting back the now threatening tears.
Sephiroth removed himself from him at that,
turning the blonde over on his stomach before pulling him by his hips into a
hand and knees position, claiming the tight heat of his lover once more.
Cloud bit his lower lip so not to cry out, his
hands fisting in the covers as he arched his back at the dull, throbbing pain
in his lower back now and the pleasure that was starting to build itself into
an almost unbearable boiling sensation.
Smooth, loving lips caressed his spine, sending
more pleasurable tingles coursing through his body, making him throw his head
back and gasp.
Sephiroth threw his own head back at the small
sounds Cloud made, the soft cries and moans sounding like music to his ears. It
all felt so unbelievable to him and he didn't want to let it go.
"Seph… please…" Cloud moaned, feeling
his peak nearing with each thrust inside. "I'm so close…"
Three thrusts was all it took for Sephiroth to
feel Cloud shudder under him and muffle his scream as he came and took him with
him as his channel tensed around his manhood.
They collapsed on the bed, Sephiroth listening
to Cloud's ragged breathing with an endeared smile. For a few moments they
didn't move from their position, Sephiroth caressing circles on Cloud's left
shoulder with his thumb, occasionally pressing soft kisses in the other's neck.
This felt so right, it seemed so good… Cloud
had a smile on his face as he closed his eyes at the tender ministrations. Yet
he knew that he couldn't stay any longer, no matter how good it felt. He first
turned his head to look at Sephiroth from the corner of his left eye before
completely shifting his body so he was on his back.
A soft kiss was shared between them, both
dreading the time for separation that was drawing nearer. With a lingering nip
on Cloud's lower lip Sephiroth let go, moving himself away so Cloud could
stand.
Tying a knot on his dressing robe now, Cloud
watched how Sephiroth approached him and stopped right in front of him,
caressing a few of his locks behind his right ear.
"Thank you," The tall white haired
one whispered with a soft smile.
Cloud closed his eyes and pressed a kiss in the
palm of Sephiroth's hand stroking his right cheek. "It's alright…" He
opened his eyes and removed the hand caressing his face gently,
"Goodnight, Seph."
Sephiroth watched him make his way to the door and leave through it; his
heart feeling empty once more as he found himself alone is his large room,
bathing in the pale moonlight.
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Sora walked up the last step of the stairs
towards the second floor, holding a bottle of water he had just gotten himself
from the kitchen, when he heard someone descending the set of stairs coming
from the top floor. He waited patiently, wanting to greet Sephiroth as he came
down the stairs, since he hadn't seen him all day and not wanting to give him
the impression that he had wanted to hide from him by entering his room
rapidly.
To his great surprise though, he saw Cloud
descending the stairs in his dressing robe that he held closely to his body.
Sora quickly took a few steps back down the stairs, making it look like he was
just coming from downstairs, reaching the top of the stairs again just in time
as Cloud prepared to descend them.
"Sora." He looked and sounded a
little surprised as he saw the little brunette, "I thought you were
already asleep, how was the concert?"
"It was great!" Sora whispered back,
silently noticing that Cloud was holding his dressing robe a little closer to
him, and constantly tucking his hair back behind his right ear. "I just
went down to get something to drink. Well, goodnight then."
"Goodnight," Cloud nodded and
continued his way down as Sora walked passed him by.
Sora entered his room and closed the door. Riku
was already asleep in their bed. He entered the covers and placed the bottle of
water next to him on his night table. He felt Riku's right arm pull him down
beside him and he quickly turned off his light before nestling himself in his partner's
arms for the night.
As he watched Riku's face in the little silver
light that entered their room, he wondered what he would've got done if it had
been Riku descending those stairs, smelling like the sex he had had with
someone else than him.
He wondered if Cloud had known how much he
would hurt Leon with what he just did and if he even regretted it all…
"I love you, Riku," Sora whispered,
suddenly feeling the urge to tell him that.
"I love you too, ange," Was Riku's
murmured response before falling asleep again.
With a worried heart Sora snuggled closer to him and closed his eyes,
desperate to find the depths of a worriless sleep.
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To be continued…
-BDP-
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