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Aches of the heart	By : blackdiamondprincess Category: Kingdom Hearts > Slash/Yaoi - Male/Male Views: 10233 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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-Blackdiamond
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FIVE :
Retrospection
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The next day was cold, yet sunny, driving everyone outside to enjoy the
nice weather.
The youngest couples of the group left early for their horseback riding
session across town, leaving the three elder men the house for the morning.
Sitting himself on the wooden steps in front of the house with a warm
cup of coffee in his hands, Leon quietly looked
over the frozen scenery before him, enjoying the moment of calm and silence.
Cloud was still upstairs, taking his shower after their morning sex. Leon hadn't complained
about this sudden impulsive movement of his partner and smiled gently at the
memory.
He loved Cloud more than anything in this world; he was his light when
things became a little too hard for him to endure on his own. He was the only
one who knew how to appease his heart, the only one who knew how to keep its
broken pieces together.
Leon sighed and
looked up at the clear blue sky, thinking about how Cloud changed his life
completely ever since they met.
He was young when his life became one ordeal after another; his father
became an abusive bastard when he was thirteen and they were on the verge of
losing their house, his mother hung herself after his father had beaten the
crap out of her again, he dropped out of school and fled from home after his
mother died and landed on the streets, living from day to day resulting in him
becoming addicted to heroin and other narcotics to escape from the harsh
reality his life had become. When he was 17, he met Rinoa, a girl that also
lived on the streets, and they soon fell in love with each other. It was then that he realized for the first
time that he wanted to do more with his life, that he wished he could take
Rinoa to a better place, give her a better life.
For about three years they lived together in an abandoned apartment in
the slums of the city, getting through their lives by committing minor criminal
misschief.
When he was twenty, his first meeting with Cloud was actually a robbery
gone wrong. He was threatening a liquor store holder with a knife, urging him
to give him the content of his register while Cloud had been the sole costumer
of the store doing some last minute groceries. When Leon spotted the
unaware blonde in the back of the store, he had wanted to take the money the
old man had already collected in his bag when he suddenly heard the sirens of
the nearing police in the distance.
Cloud, wondering what the fuss was all about at the front of the store,
soon came to an abrupt halt when he saw the masked brunette threatening the
owner.
"What are you doing!" Cloud had asked him, making Leon wonder if the
other had been plain stupid or if he had wanted to play the hero.
"What does it look like I'm doing, bitch!"
"Listen, you don't want to do this." Cloud had approached him
with his hands held up defensively, "Just take my money, but leave this
poor man alone. It's not worth it."
Cloud had held out five 100 dollar bills and had laid them on the
counter. "Please, just go, leave him alone."
Something about this blonde's gesture had stirred something in him that
night as he left the store with the 500 dollars. There had been something about
him that had motivated him more to clean up his life.
They met again a couple of months later, but this time it was at the
Eastern Hill Mall of DC and he was there, searching for a job when he
recognised Cloud sitting behind his laptop in a coffee shop. He didn't know why
he entered the fancy shop, with his filthy, trashed jeans and old leather
jacket and shirt, but once he sat himself opposite from him, he couldn't help
but feel at ease.
At first he just wanted to thank him for having helped him so long ago
in the liquor store and that he was trying to find a job so he could pay him
back the $500. To his great surprise he found Cloud particularly pleased to
hear this and very supportive, yet refusing to accept the money, saying that he
needed it more. He wondered why it was that this young man even cared about
someone like him. When he got to hear that it was just how he was, he was even
more puzzled, but he guessed that not everyone had grown up in the streets and
led a hard life like he had.
By the end of their conversation they had exchanged quite a lot of facts
about each other and he had gotten an invitation to come to Cloud's apartment
in DC centre.
The next time he saw Cloud was a few days later in his apartment and he
had good news to tell him; he had landed himself a job as a model for one of
the most renowned houses of haute couture.
Once he started his work as a model, he moved with Rinoa to a more
residential area of DC and settled there, but as the months and the seasons
passed, he felt his attraction for her fade, her attitude and style of life not
adequate for the social status they had now. She accused him many times of
wanting them to be something they simply were not and on days like those, he
found his refuge with Cloud who always was willing to listen to him and give
him advice, even though he had just broken up with Sephiroth back then.
It didn't take him long to realize that the reason for his decreasing
attraction towards Rinoa was his growing longing for Cloud. His visits to the
blonde increased in number, so much that he barely used to spend 3 nights a
week in his own house.
He knew that Rinoa was also struggling with her detoxification process
and that she had accepted to go to a detox centre to help her off the drugs. He
had really believed that she would've got made it, but three weeks after her admission
to the centre, she slit her wrists with a plastic knife�
Up until today he still regretted the way he had handled the situation
that had led to her suicide, bringing back the death of his own mother who had
also taken her own life, making him feel guilty for not having helped both of
them enough.
Cloud was there for him in those dark days, trying to help as much as he
could, piercing through his stormy clouds with his comforting words and
gestures. When Cloud decided to move back to Destiny Island he joined him,
hoping to mend the pieces of his heart �torn apart by city life� that kept
coming loose.
He felt truly lucky to have found someone like him, he had a truly
loving partner and he wouldn't ever love and care for someone as much as he did
for his Cloud, yet he knew that the arrival of his ex had slipped doubts in his
mind.
It was useless to pretend that he didn't know about the feelings Cloud
still had for his ex, he knew those were normal. He himself still found himself
thinking about Rinoa at times. What he did not accept was to just sit around
and let things go their way. He would fight for Cloud if it came down to that.
Losing him was definitely not an option.
Not after everything they went through.
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"I saw Sephiroth just before we left, you know."

Sora saddled his horse as he heard Riku speak those words, "And?"
He airily asked, "Did you kill him?"
Riku chuckled humourlessly and held Sora by his hips so he could mount
his horse, "You knew he was already here, didn't you?"
The brunette sighed and turned his head to his boyfriend, "You were
going to find out one way or another anyway."
"How long has he been here?"
Sora bit his lower lip, scratching the back of his head, "Since
Friday night�?"
Riku snorted and scowled, "Friday night? You knew then and you
didn't tell me?"
"See?" Sora said exasperatedly, throwing his hands in the air,
"That's exactly what I didn't want to deal with!"
Riku shook his head sternly, "But you should've got told me,
Sora."
"So what, you could go and get mad at me some more?" Sora
replied, taking the leather reins in his hands and trotting out of the stable.
Riku grunted at Sora's touchiness and mounted his black horse and
quickly followed him outside. "Baby, I didn't mean it like that. I just
wished you had told me about it, that's all."
"You still would have gotten mad," Sora said over his
shoulder, taking a left turn in the direction of the outer fence of the ranch.
"Yes, but not at you." Riku replied, picking up speed so he
could catch up to Sora, "I wouldn't have gotten mad at you."
Sora just shook his head, "You still don't get it, do you?" He
rolled his eyes at him and went into a gallop.
Not having much of a choice, Riku followed him into the woods.
"Sora, hold on!"
Sora slowed down and finally came to a halt near a clearing in the
woods, dismounted his horse and led it to it by foot. He waited for Riku to
come and find him, tying the mammal to a nearby tree in the meantime.
"What was that all about?" Riku asked, getting off his horse
and walking towards him.
"You is what it was all about, you is what it's been all about ever
since we arrived here!" Sora said crossing his arms over his chest.
"What?" Riku said, still not comprehending why Sora was acting
like this all of a sudden.
"Before we came here, you made a promise to me; you wouldn't let
your brother ruin our vacation." The brunette softly spoke, "And yet
here we are, and I have to hide his presence from you so I can enjoy you not
being mad for once and cause the same stress we wanted to escape from in the
first place."
Riku sighed out softly and directed his eyes to besnowed ground. He had
totally forgotten about that.
"I don't need to know what happened between you two, but I've had
it with constantly having to walk on eggshells!" Sora could suddenly feel
tears stinging behind his eyelids and he knew he was starting to get all emotional
again. In truth, he was afraid of Riku's reaction to what he thought his
brother did with Cloud last night. He didn't want to have to deal with that, Riku
would get pissed and he hated it when Riku was angry; it got really hard to
reason with him. He wished he hadn't seen anything at all and that he didn't
feel the way he felt right now; desperate to have his old Riku back, not the
grumpy, humourless one.
"Sora please� no�" Riku softly whispered, seeing the
threatening tears in his lover's eyes. He hated it when Sora got sad and
especially now; these were supposed to be happy times� It was almost Christmas,
he shouldn't be crying at all. "I'm sorry, I know I promised�"
Sora threw himself in his arms and held him tightly, "Baby I love
you so much, too much! But I can't stand it when you're angry and I can't help�
I can't stand it because it pushes me away from you and I don't want
that!"
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry�" Riku repeatedly whispered, stroking
Sora's hair again and again, "Please don't cry?"
Sora sniffled and looked up at him, "Don't push me away,
Riku�" One tear escaped from his right eye and rolled down his cheek,
"No matter what, please."
Riku wiped away the tear and held him close again, sensing that
something else was bothering Sora. "I promise, Sora." he said,
hearing his own voice break.
Sora was looking up at the sky, his unspoken fear that had risen up last
night still shaking his heart, "Don't promise me, Riku, just don't do it."
Riku fell silent at that and simply nodded, knowing that he had failed
Sora one time too many...
They mounted their horses again after that, riding back towards the
ranch to pick up Kairi and Wakka so they could go back home for lunch.
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"Yup, he fell off the horse."

Riku snickered, serving Kairi some more soup in her bowl. Leon, Cloud, Kairi
and Sora laughed except for Wakka, who was the object of laughter.
"Ha ha� yeah, you try and climb on that damn animal when it doesn't
stand still," He sulked crossing his arms over his chest.
"But you have to admit that it was kind of funny," Kairi
giggled taking her bowl of hot soup out of Riku's hands.
"Even the horse seemed to be laughing when it trotted away from
you," Sora added, barely able to maintain his chuckle while everyone burst
out in laughter again.
"Just go ahead, ya? Laugh your heart out, I'm never mounting a
horse again." The redhead murmured, sulking even more.
"You just had a temperamental horse, that's all," Riku
soothingly said, "Next time it'll be better you'll see. We're going again
next week."
"Na-uh! Na-uh! You ain't going to be seeing me on another damned
four legged, hay eating animal again."
"Why? You tried mounting a sheep too?" Sora chuckled.
Kairi and Riku kept themselves from laughing this time, although with
great difficulty and Riku giving his boyfriend a gentle warning to stop teasing
his friend.
Wakka didn't say anything and resumed his sulking, not giving the others
a gaze.
"Ok, sorry for that one," Sora apologised taking his bowl of
soup out of Riku's hands. "Hey, maybe we can go swimming or
something?"
"That's a great idea," Kairi said, turning to look at her
still brooding boyfriend, "Then I can show you my new two piece."
"The tong one?" Wakka's head suddenly jumped up.
"Don't even think about it," Cloud simply said, serving
himself some soup. Kairi was about to reply to him but he cut her short,
"And don't even think about it either. I'm not going to have my sister
swinging her naked butt cheeks at some pool where every sex deprived freak can
come and drool all over her."
"I don't even have a tong swimsuit," Kairi retorted to her
brother before slapping Wakka's arm, "You perv."
Sora giggled as he watched the interaction between the two siblings,
wishing that a certain platinum haired cutie would do the same with his.
"What are you thinking about?" Riku pressed a kiss on Sora's
hair.
Sora softly smiled at him, "Nothing," he whispered,
"Don't worry about it."
Riku watched him for a moment as he ate his soup and then leant in to
him to whisper in his ear again, "I'll tell you everything after
lunch."
Blue eyes widened in surprise, "You don't have to, if you don't
feel ready�"
"I wouldn't be saying this if I wasn't, babe."
"Oh�" Sora smiled softly, "Okay then."
"Alright," Riku contently said, sipping from his soup.

Sora watched him too for a
moment before continuing his meal. Maybe Sephiroth and Riku would make up so
that Sephiroth didn't have to feel forced into eating up in his room on his own
and so Sora wouldn't have to feel so immensely sorry for him anymore.

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Sora sat himself cross-legged at the end of their bed with a pillow in
his lap, watching how Riku took one of the chairs standing next to the window
and put it in front of Sora with its backing directed to him.
He waited patiently for his boyfriend to gather his thoughts and get
ready. He wouldn't deny that he was extremely curious now, but because this was
a very sensitive issue for Riku, he couldn't push him into doing anything too
fast.
Riku gave him a hesitant smile when he looked up at him and Sora
returned it with an encouraging one so he could begin.
"Remember when we first met?" He spoke softly with a smile,
directing his eyes to the floor in reminiscence, "I think you were five or
something then, right?"
Sora nodded, "Yeah, you just moved a couple of houses down the
street from us with your mother and brother. We immediately became
friends."
"You were my only friend then; I didn't like the other kids like I
liked you." Riku softly spoke with a smile, still not looking at him.
"You were always there for me when I got into trouble�" Sora
scratched the back of his head sheepishly.
"You were a magnet for trouble then�" Riku chuckled, "You
still are by the way."
"Oh!" Sora gasped, offended, "I was not! And besides, you
must like trouble if you fell in love with me!" He giggled.
Riku snickered softly, looking at the floor again, "Maybe I do� but
the facts still are that a day wasn't a day if I didn't help you out of trouble
at least twice."
"It's not like I did it on purpose�" The brunette whispered
with a grin.
The elder grinned back tenderly, "But that's how I got so
protective of you. I couldn't stand to see you hurt."
Sora smiled again and Riku looked up, sharing a gaze of tender
affection.
"As long as you were happy, I could be too," He then said,
"I envied you so much at times, you know?" He whispered, his eyes
trailing away from Sora again to rest on the scenery outside their window.
"Your life seemed so perfect."
Sora frowned and cocked his head to the side, "That's odd; I always
thought that of you."
Riku scoffed and shook his head, "You had both your parents and
they loved you so much� deep down, that's what I always longed for too�"
"But," Sora was a little confused now, "you had your
mother who loved you very much too, didn't she?"
"She was the best, but after a while it wasn't enough
anymore�" Riku whispered, closing his eyes now. "I once had what you
have, but I was simply too young to remember how it feels like."
"Your parent's divorce?"
"Not only that�" Riku said, looking out the window again,
"Also because my real father died just before we moved to Destiny Island."
Sora was utterly confounded now, "What do you mean, your real
father died before you moved to DI? I thought your parents got divorced when
you were two�?"
"My real dad died in a car accident when I was 6, in the same year
I met you." Riku whispered, "My mother indeed got divorced, but the
man she once married wasn't my father, he was only Seph's."
Then it suddenly dawned upon him and Sora brought a hand to his mouth in
astonishment. "You're an�?"
"Illegitimate child, yes�" Riku's voice was barely audible as
he spoke those words, their conversation now taking on a sad tone. "Seph's
my half brother, we share the same mother."
"I� I never knew�" Sora whispered, not knowing what else to
say for the moment.
"Only the family knew�" Riku replied, "My step dad was
very shaken by my mother's betrayal and couldn't stand the sight of me so he
divorced my mother two years after I was born.
Mum received shared custody over Seph after the divorce, but Seph only
visited his father in the weekends and during the holidays and stayed with mum
and me during the schooldays. Because of our resemblance everyone just thought
that we were real brothers. My mother never treated us otherwise and Seph and
me didn't either. He was really my big brother to me."
"Did you often see your step dad?" Sora softly asked.
"He had his business in DC and sent my mother and brother letters
and money, but never cared about me. I didn't really care about him either, but
I wasn't blind to the pain it caused to my mother. He used to send her money
every month and she would put a part of it in my bank account, always saying
that my step dad had given me some, but I knew better. He hates my guts; every
Christmas we spent here with the rest of the family he never failed to show his
ice cold affection towards me. But I never cared, as long as he didn't insult
my mum, it was fine and I'd take it."
"He insulted her?" Sora incredulously asked.
"Well, it was more like disdainful behaviour at times�" Riku
said, then falling silent before continuing. "And yet she always strived
for him to accept me. She would do anything�"
Sora heard the held back tears in his voice now and stood up to comfort
him. "Riku�"
"Even after she died, you know?" Riku sniffled and accepted
Sora's arms embracing him as he sat himself behind him and rested his forehead
against his back. "It was all she asked for him to do."
Sora sighed in sympathy and tightened his hold on him.
"But you know what the worst part in all of this was?" Riku
then said and Sora could hear the held back anger in his voice. "When I
was old enough to understand all that was going on, I soon realised that my big
brother never stuck one finger out to help mum when the arguments between her
and her ex started to increase because of me. I felt like he had betrayed both
mum and me, I understood that it was his dad, but why choose sides against his
mother? I know I'm not his real brother, but we got along just fine during the
14 years I felt like I had a brother� I grew to hate him just because he
abandoned mum and me, just like his dad did."
Sora gulped silently as he listened, this ran a lot deeper than he
originally thought� He knew what was coming next now that he felt Riku sob. He
had already heard it from Cloud.
"And when she died and I felt like I needed him the most�"
Riku whimpered, closing his eyes and letting twin tears rolling down his
cheeks, "He didn't even care to show up at her funeral!"
"Oh baby," Sora whispered compassionately, close to tears
himself now and standing back up. Riku stood in turn and threw himself in his
arms, crying uncontrollably, shedding the tears he had held back at the funeral
and those he hadn't showed in the past years.
Sora held him close, caressing his hair comfortingly, fighting back his
own tears while looking at the ceiling, wondering what he could say next to
soothe Riku's state of mind.
"Why did you carry around such a heavy burden on your own for so
long, baby?" He whispered softly, Riku's tears still flowing. "I'm
here for you now, use me when you have problems. I told you so before, baby;
please entrust me your pain, and share it with me. I want to be your pillar of
strength."
"You really are an angel, Sora�" Riku whimpered, tightening
his grip on him.
Sora smiled softly and kissed him on his left cheek, "Not yet, I'm
still working to get my wings."
This made Riku laugh heartedly and he disengaged their embrace so he
could look at him, "You're so wonderful, Sora� I feel blessed with you
here with me."
A blush covered the younger one's cheeks at this and he shyly averted
his eyes, "You are the one who brings it up in me� I'm not doing this on
my own."
Riku made him look at him with a finger underneath his chin, "That
still means that those wonderful abilities already are inside of you and that
you indeed are a wonderful person."
Sora smiled, blushing some more, "I try my best."
"I love you, Sora. With my entire heart." Riku slowly lowered
his face on Sora, "So much."
Sora let those smooth lips press against his before parting his lips and
deepening the kiss briefly. Riku then moved in to embrace him again.
"I know my stupid behaviour ruined the mood for our vacation, and
I'm willing to do whatever it takes to make you feel more at ease now." He
whispered.
Sora smiled, "If it'll make you feel better; I know from good
source that Sephiroth wants to make up with you."
"Really?"
"Uh-huh�" Sora nodded, "And I know you're dying to do so
too, and not just for me."
Riku grinned down at him before sweeping him off his feet and laying him
on the bed, "You know what I'm dying to do right now?" He whispered
in a low sexy tone, nuzzling the brunette's throat.
"Wait," Sora held him at a safe distance now, "Does this
have anything to do with what I feel poking against my thigh right now?"
Riku snickered, "In part, yeah."
Sora giggled, "You know that this is not a good time, right?
Riku chuckled back, "You're joking, right?"
The brunette gave him an apologising smile, "I wouldn't want
someone coming in and disturbing us�"
"Then we'll lock the door," Riku shrugged and lowered his lips
in Sora's throat.
Sora moaned loudly, knowing that Riku was trying to weaken his resolve,
"Ahh� I don't� t-think�"
"Yes. Don't think." Riku now nibbled on his left earlobe.
"Just stop thinking at all."
Sora gasped, "Riku please stop, not now�" His hands were
pushing against his chest, trying to push him off of him.
"Hmm�" Riku muttured in his throat, not budging an inch,
"Come on, babe�"
Sora moaned throatily at the hand that took hold of his still dormant
shaft, "No�" he protested, yet it was but a weak murmur now,
"R-Riku�"
The older youth pressed a kiss on his left shoulder and stroked Sora's
groin again, feeling a slight twitch underneath his fingers, "You're the
most beautiful creature to me on this planet� There isn't a day that passes by
without me thinking of you. I always want to be with you, whether you're near
me or far from me, you fill my head�"
The brunette moaned and arched, Riku's exploring hand now unbuttoning his
jeans.
"You fill my heart," Riku huskily whispered against Sora left
ear, now feeling the younger one shiver beneath him.
Sora opened his sapphire blue orbs and turned his head to him, pulling
his face down on his, slightly rolling his hips against his partner's touch
lower on his body.
Riku kissed him softly, taking his erection out now and stroking him
with his hand, muffling the brunette's erotic responses. "And you fill my
soul� You complete me in so many ways, Sora... I need you."
Sora whimpered and bit his lip as he knew that Riku had gotten him this
far once again, "Riku, you jerk�"
The silver haired one only smirked, unbuttoning and unzipping his pants
before pulling them down enough so he could press his aroused flesh against his
lover's. They caught each other's lips in another kiss, grinding their bodies
sensually against each other, their breathy gasps and moans only interrupted by
the sounds of discarded clothing hitting the carpeted floor.
Riku was now spreading the pink coloured lube over his erected shaft as
he watched the finger Sora had inserted in himself slide back out and up the
path in between his fleshy butt cheeks.
"You're going to need more than one finger to widen your little
pucker enough for me to get in�"
Sora giggled, "So conceited� you're just making me hornier standing
there stroking that thing." He wiggled his hips, "You know I can take
it, so put it in me�"
Riku smirked again and only slid his tip inside before bending over
Sora's body, "Don't blame me for the noise you'll make."
Sora gasped with a smile and looked over his right shoulder, "Maybe
I'll fake, what you think of that?"
"That's not likely to happen," Riku whispered back, pressing a
soft kiss on his right shoulder, still smirking.
"You're such a jerk �Ah!" Sora moaned as Riku seated himself
inside with one hard thrust, "Gods�" He then whimpered, the pleasure
coursing through him making him shiver all over.
Riku pulled back until the very tip and then pushed back in all the way
to the hilt, hitting that spot inside that made his little lover quiver and cry
out his pleasure so ardently.
Sora seriously thought that he was seeing stars, "A-ah! Yes!"
He almost screamed, pushing back now that Riku was pulling back out, "Oh
baby� baby put it back in�!" He lustfully moaned, resting with his
forehead on his forearms now, looking at the action in between his legs.
Riku hissed his name, loving how Sora could act like a little nympho at
times when they had sex, arousing him even more.
"Oh fuck, yea� Oh�" Sora whimpered now, moving his hips back
and forth onto Riku's throbbing member, leaving his lover to watch his erection
slip in and out of his parted butt cheeks as in a daze.
"Sora�" Riku threw his head back, taking back commands now
that his orgasm was near and that Sora was whimpering non-stop, driving him mad
with lust.
"Yea� that's it baby� oohh ooh-oh� don't stop�" The smaller
one's head was lying on the covers, a smile of pure bliss on his face as Riku
pounded himself into him, gripping his buttocks firmly and keeping his lobes
apart. His right hand was pleasuring himself and he moaned in surprise when
Riku pulled his hips to him with a forceful thrust, hitting his prostate again.
"Hngh! B-baby!
Sweat was running down in transparent pearls from Riku's chest and
abdomen, his half long strands of silver damp and sticking to his throat in the
most beguiling of ways. "I love you, Sora."
"I love you too�" Sora managed to whimper out, feeling his
body tense up, his orgasm coming down on him in great waves.
"Fuck!" Riku breathed out, Sora tensing muscles gripping him
like vice, "Ah, Sora!"
They cried out together, sharing their orgasms and riding them out fully
before sinking down on the bed in one boneless heap.
They suddenly heard the door slightly creak as the sound of descending
footsteps was heard in the corridor.
"Riku."
"Hn?"
"Why is the door open?"
"Oh shit�"
Sora grabbed a pillow from the bed and whacked Riku over the head with
it forcefully, sending him on the floor next to the bed with a loud 'thump'.

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To be continued...
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