Don't Think of Me

Riku groaned, slowly he blinked his eyes open before he immediately shut them. The sunlight seemed too bright and his mouth felt like it was full of sand. /What the fuck happened/ he frowned trying to remember what had happened but drew a blank. Without thinking Riku sat up quickly and instantly regretted it as his stomach did flip flops and bile rose in his throat. He clapped a hand over his mouth making to run like hell to the toilet but a hand on his shoulder and a trashcan shoved under his nose stopped him.

The singer puked into the plastic trashcan with great heaves, his eyes began to water and he looked up blearily seeing the slightly distorted image of someone standing in front of him. / You look just like him…/ For a split second Riku thought he was looking at Sora but before he could really think on it his stomach gave another lurch and more came up.

After a while Riku stopped gagging and lay back on his pillows pulling the blankets around him. Sora took soiled trash can to the bathroom and washed it out before going back over to Riku. He had heard Riku groaning and figured he was waking up; he had just barely made it to the trashcan before Riku started to blow chunks.

“So how are you feeling this morning?” Sora asked softly remembering to make his voice an octave higher.

“I don’t know… did you catch the licenses of the fucking trucks that ran me over?” Riku grumbled throwing an arm over his eyes.

Sora giggled softly before grabbing the bottle of Tylenol and glass of water. “Here take this , it should help your headache and the water will help your stomach out”

Riku reached out clumsily taking the offered items. He popped three pills into his mouth washing them down with the water. “Thanks” he grunted before rolling over and burying himself in the covers. He suddenly froze and bolted upright again almost making himself sick again. “Where’s Atem!”

As if on cue a soft crying came floating out of the guest room. Sora sighed and walked out of the room to go get the cute turquoise eyed baby. Moments later he came back in with a sniffling Atem in his arms.

“He slept in your room?” Riku asked as Sora handed him his son.

Sora cocked his head and gave the other a tiny smirk “You weren’t exactly in the best of conditions for him to be by you”

Riku flushed looking down at Atem who was having the time of his life attempting to bite the buttons off of the mittens that Sora had put on him. “Sorry about that…” He muttered softly. He peeked through his bangs at Sora “..um…exactly…how did I get home?”

Riku saw a flicker of what looked like a mix of sadness and fury pass threw Sora’s eyes before it was gone and replaced with amusement. “A couple of your girlfriends brought you over and tossed you in…literally”

“They aren’t my girlfriends….just some chicks I hang out with from time to time” Riku growled defensively.

Sora held up his hands giving Riku a smile “sorry I didn’t mean to assume…plus you didn’t have to explain…it’s really none of my business right? I’m just the baby sitter”

Riku gave Sora a look “Are you sure I’ve never met you before…I’m talking to you as if I’ve known you all my life”

The brunette blinked “I know what you mean…I’m sorry…I’ve been really stressed out before I came over here to work and all…I’ll watch my mouth” Sora said with a slight up turn of his lips. Looking around Sora began to clean up the mess and organize Riku’s room up.

Riku gave a curt nod watching the baby sitter clean. With calculating aqua eyes Riku did a once over of Cielo. / Something isn’t right …for a girl…she kinda looks…masculine. She doesn’t have a chest really…the sporty type maybe? Hmm…something is telling me that….maybe…Cielo…is…a guy/ Riku’s eye brows arched /no…can’t be…I would have noticed…still…she talks in a wispy voice, she doesn’t have a chest, she has a slightly masculine body , and her hair…it’s…short for a girl…reminds me of someone I know…well there is only one way to find out/ Riku looked down at Atem and gave him a small smile. “Atem you can try all you want to bite those buttons off but they aren’t going to come off…you need teeth to do that”

Atem looked up and gave Riku a heated glare before returning to his buttons “da…da…iku” he muttered around the fist of cotton he had stuffed in his mouth.

Sora looked up from his little cleaning spree and smiled “I don’t think he liked what you said…”

Riku chuckled “no I don’t think he did” with a slight groan Riku gathered Atem in his arms and threw the covers back and stood up. “I’ll go make breakfast , don’t worry about cleaning my room Cielo…you’re the babysitter remember?” With a smirk Riku handed Atem to Sora and walked in clad only in his boxers. /I wonder if I can get her to slip and speak in her real voice…hmm…but how/

Sora watched Riku go, his eyes automatically locked onto the boxer clad ass. Atem looked at his mother then back at his dad seemingly making mental notes, a little plan formulated in the baby’s head. Atem squirmed in Sora’s arms reaching out with pudgy hands “Da da Iku!” he squealed.

The brunette looked at his tiny son and frowned “iku? Who’s that?” Sora paused and pondered it a bit before his eyes widened “Riku! Atem said your name!”

Atem giggled as his mother ran strait to his target, now all he had to do was make sure he hit the bulls’ eye.

Riku looked up from the eggs he was frying “What now?”

“He said your name…well close to it anyways” Sora said happily

“C’mon Atem…say my name…say Riku”

Atem looked at his father then back at his mother before giving a gummy smile “Iku….Iku da…ora…ora mommy…”

Riku smiled and leaned over kissing Atem’s cheek “That’s my boy…” Atem gave his dad a pleased look that suddenly turned evil. A chubby hand shot out grabbing onto the silver locks before his father pulled away.

“Shit!” Riku gasped as he was yanked back painfully, he lost his balance and crashed against Cielo who fell to the floor with him and taking a hysterically giggling Atem with them.

Riku was pressed against Cielo who was looking up at him with shocked sea blue eyes. The silver haired one pushed himself up and looked down. Atem was looking up at him and next to him Cielo was looking up as well. Something occurred to Riku that he hadn’t seen before, he could swear that Cielo and Atem were identical, their face shapes, eye color, and way they stared was a lot alike. Riku narrowed his eyes studying Cielo carefully , then suddenly something else hit him , his crotch was fully pressed up against Cielo and he didn’t feel what he normally would feel had be been pressed up against a women , he was sorely tempted to grind against the soft lump and see what happened.

Sora’s eyes widened when he realized where Riku was resting, he fidgeted before scrambling to get up. “Umm…I…I need to use the bathroom!” Sora squeaked he gathered Atem in his arms and got up and ran into the bathroom shutting the door with a click.

Riku sat on the floor staring at the shut door with a smug grin on his face “ So your not a girl….so why try and hide it?” with a sigh Riku got up straitening his boxers , as he turned to go back into the kitchen he saw something glinting on the floor. Quirking an eyebrow he bent down and picked it up, when he saw what it was his eyes widened. In his hand glittered a beautiful silver bracelet that he had given Sora when they had gone on their very first date, he could still remember it like it was yesterday…

FLASH BACK

Riku waited patiently for Sora to come out of his house so they could go on their little date. Last week Sora had admitted to loving him, Riku’s lips quirked up at the memory, the way that Sora’s face glowed bright red when he said “Riku…I…I love you”.

The door opened and Sora came running out pushing his mothers’ hands away as she tried to wrap him up in yet another scarf. “I’m fine mom, it’s not like there is a blizzard out here!” Sora shouted over his shoulder.

Riku’s breath hitched when the glowing eyes locked onto his and a warm smile spread across the others face. Sora’s mom watched the two before shaking her head and walking back in “Take care of him Riku, don’t let me little boy get hurt you hear me!” she yelled over her shoulder as she shut the door.

“Mom!” Sora wailed in embarrassment. Riku smiled and walked over to Sora wrapping him in a warm hug.

“You know, you look adorable when you’re embarrassed” Riku muttered into his ear. He held Sora close as they walked down the street heading for the town square.

“You could have helped Riku” Sora grumbled, he cocked his head to the side and leaned up giving Riku a sweet kiss. Riku pulled Sora to him until the smaller boy was pressed up against him and kissed him until they were both breathless.

After he pulled back Riku looked at Sora lovingly “I have something for you” he reached into his pocket and pulled out a beautiful silver bracelet that had the same charm as the crown necklace that Sora always wore. “This is something that I want you to wear as long as you love me , don’t ever take it off…it’s one of a kind…I had it specially made for you” He whispered as he put it on Sora.

“I guess that means I’ll never take it off…until the day I die” Sora whispered back he wrapped Riku in a tight hug “Thank you so much…I love you…forever…”

“Forever…I’ll love you forever Sora…until the day I die…”

END FLASHBACK

“Until the day I die…” Riku murmured “I guess we died Sora…” Riku closed his eyes before looking at the bracelet again. /How did she…he…whatever it is get a hold of this/ Riku felt a small stab of hurt at the thought that Sora had taken it off…but at the same time he reminded himself that he wasn’t with Sora anymore.

Inside the bathroom Sora leaned against the wall panting “God that was close…he was pressing up right there!” the brunette whispered harshly.

Atem giggled “Ora mommy dada Iku…”

Sora glanced at Atem with narrowed eyes “if I didn’t know any better Atem I would say you planed that” he grumbled , but he knew , a little baby couldn’t do something like that…not purposely that is.

“Ora mommy!” Atem chirped brightly before bursting into a fit of giggles.

“Ora….why do you call me ora?” Sora asked looking at the giggling baby. “Ora….Sora…Oh crap!”

Atem stopped laughing and looked at Sora wondering if he did something wrong “Ora mommy?”

“You’re saying my name…oh no...Atem…don’t’ say my name anymore ok? It’s just plain mommy…but don’t call me Sora” the brunette whispered holding the pudgy hands in his own.

The turquoise eyed baby titled his head “Ora?”

Sora shook his head “No…just Mommy…ok”

“Ora mommy?”

“No…just mommy” Sora whispered again, Atem gave Sora a look before he quieted. “Ok then…we should get back out there before your daddy starts worrying about you”

Sora opened the door and walked back into the kitchen , Riku looked over his shoulder as he finished serving the food and placed it on the counter “ you ok there?” he asked casually.

“Ya…just…I felt a bit dizzy nothing big” Sora answered promptly. Atem poked at his plate keeping silent looking a bit put out.

Riku eyed Sora carefully before he pulled the bracelet out and slid it over to the other “This came off and I found it on the floor” Sora gave a good impression of a fish as he gaped at the piece of jewelry. Riku watched his reaction before he cleared his throat and leaned in making Sora keep eye contact with him.

“I know you’re not a girl…”

It felt as if his heart had stopped and a bucket of ice spilled in his stomach. Sora gulped nervously “how…how’d you come to that?”

The singer gave a dry laugh “I didn’t know that girls now a days had penises.” He said bluntly.

Sora blushed brightly before looking back at the bracelet “Listen Riku I can explain..” he began speaking in his normal voice but Riku cut in.

“The only thing I want you to tell me is how did you came to get this….I know you know Sora…he’s the only one that could have possibly given this to you…it’s…”

“One of a kind and was made just for him…something he wouldn’t take off until he stopped loving you…forever…until the day he died” Sora finished

Riku raised an eyebrow “he told you all that?”

Sora frowned, did Riku not realize he was talking to him…unless…no…Riku couldn’t possibly still believe that he wasn’t Sora.

The fair skinned singer blushed and shifted uncomfortably “So…are you…where you two in a relationship?”

“no…I was more like the one who was there to pick him up and help him put his heart back together” Sora answered bitterly.

Riku was silent chewing on that bit of information before he spoke again “ was he really all that bad after we broke up? I mean…did he talk about me or anything?”

Sora let out a long sigh “It seemed as if his world had crashed , he had nothing…only a broken heart and tears of blood. All he wanted to do was curl up and die , the one person who he ever trusted and loved more then his own life had rejected him. Its like he was standing in the rain and his life was falling apart around him. He kept thinking the whole thing was a nightmare and he would wake back in your arms, he prayed so hard that you had never cheated him…that he was still worth something in your heart and not just a cheap fuck.”

Riku felt an over whelming wave of guilt wash over him. He wanted to say something in his defense but nothing came.

“Though he never said he hated you, no he still loved you even after what you did to him. Right now though he doesn’t love you not like he did, he used to stare at the phone wishing you would call him and tell him that you wanted to talk and work it out or something. He kept this hope that you would want him back again and that would both forget about it and go on with your lives. Eventually he got tired of hoping and wishing so he gave up. I’m sure he would still like to be friends with you if you asked…he misses you” Sora finished with a small smile.

Riku sat back in a chair with a blank look on his face. Sora watched him with sad eyes wondering if he had said too much but at the same time he had this grim satisfaction at the incredibly guilty look on Riku’s face, the pained look in his eyes.

Suddenly a piercing cry caused both of them to turn.

“Atem!”