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Justifiable Homicide	By : DarkLaraJade Category: +M through R > Mass Effect Views: 40965 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 1
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Excerpt: Shepard Questions
I thought I'd take some time out of the long intermission I have to do Chapter 7 and answer some questions I get through reviews and private messages about Shepard. Through the messages and whatnot, I have realized that there are readers split three ways: those that understand where I'm going with Shepard and want to see how her character progresses, those that are indifferent to Shepard and just like the story and those that can't get past her OOC. So I decided to take some time to answer the main questions that I get in hopes of clarifying things.

Q) I don't get Shepard's character. Why is she so OOC? What gives and did you mean to do that?
A) The short answer is absolutely. I started this fic as long story. I don't think it will be an epic, but this is still the beginning of the fic. I purposely portrayed Shepard as a different person or more specifically nothing like a tough Commander Shepard from ME. At the beginning of this fic, she is not supposed to be tough or commanding or anything of the sort. She is supposed to be an emotionally damaged character in the beginning.
I've been very careful to leave details regarding her change in character. The most important being her superiors calling her for a psych review and dampening her biotics. Shepard is a decorated and courageous soldier and in order for her superiors to question her mental state she must have shown some severe personality changes. The fact that they dampened her biotics clearly meant they didn't trust her condition for whatever reasons they may have. It's even so well known that the Asari councilor mentions it to Garrus. The story then leads into the depictions of Shepard crying, being uncertain, having difficulty in making hard decisions, and Shepard even states to Miranda she was no longer fit to serve anymore.
Futhermore, the characteristics Shepard is exhibiting is that of deep depression. Although I did state she experienced a lot of guilt, depression was a large part of what was plaguing her. Due to no fault of anyone else's, I kind of just assumed people would just catch onto her being depressed without me having to say it. Which is my fault as an author because I should have outright stated it and not left it up to chance.
Q) What would lead Shepard to act the way she does? She's Commander Shepard and she can handle pretty much anything.
A) I see things from the perspective that Shepard is a hero like everyone else. But I also see that despite the fact she came to accept her position as the leading force against the Reapers, she was first thrust into the role of saving the galaxy and taking on the Reapers because no one believed they existed. In this fic, she is forced to deal with a lot of personal issues that she did not encounter in ME. So from that perspective, it's difficult to say how she should react to what's happening to her in the fic.
This is not just about her experiencing guilt from lying to the Krogan and not telling Wrex about his children. Not only did she love Wrex, but she knew he would have a personal vendetta against her once they realized the Krogan realize the cure was fake. For example, I explain that Mordin goes into hiding and the Alliance was now protecting her.
Plus even if there was no biological weapon, she knows she doomed the Krogan henceforth why she is crying in the airlock and asking Wrex not to hate her. The Salarians would have no reason to create a real cure once the war was won, the Krogan having even less in population after the war didn't have the numbers to rebel and one female, Eve, is not capable of sustaining the entire Krogan population. They would die out inevitably by her hand.
Aside from the guilt from hiding their conception from Wrex, she never got over aborting her babies which put her in a deep depression. She also had a bad childhood which also plays into her issues which is something I'll address later on.
From my perspective, it doesn't make sense to me that someone has the weight of the galaxy on their shoulders, ruins thousands of lives, and forcibly aborts their children and would just be okay after that and ready to take on the next challenge.
Furthermore, Nova Shepard's mental condition was far worse before Wrex found her. She was actually recovering until Liara died and Wrex came to find her after, reminding her of the demons she was trying to escape.
I planned on briefly yet slowly revealing everything above throughout the fic through Nova's thoughts and conversations with Wrex. The reason for that being a simple one: I really didn't want to get bogged down with Nova's feelings anymore than I had to. This fic is and always will be about the Krogans rise to power and I really wanted to stay on course with that. Which is why this fic is told from multiple perspectives. Although Shepard plays a crucial part in that, Shepard's recovery is a brief part of this before the fighter in her comes out in her once again. It will play a part in the decision she makes to help Wrex or not. However in deliberately being vague so people would not get hung up on her previous mental state, it left more questions about Shepard that overshadowed a few things.
I'm going to discuss Nova's state briefly and get it out of way in the next chapter once and for all, leaving room for her character to progress in however long it takes throughout this fic. I did not intend for her OOC to read into the way it has with some readers only able to see her as Commander Shepard given what they know of her. I intended Shepard be taken for face value in this fic as a mortal person whose been through a lot therefore she needs to get back on track.
Q) Is Nova ever going to get tougher?
A) Of course. Nova is supposed to confront and come full circle with the events she has been running from for so long and indeed she will become the woman she once was in this fic. Will she be leading a team with a pulse rifle again, no. This isn't that kind of fic and I want to branch away from that one sided perspective of her and do something greater with her. To me Shepard can be and is more than that. The real questions are whether she will agree to help Wrex or not and how will her decisions affect the rise of the Krogan.
Q) I think Wrex forgave Shepard too easily and doesn't seem too likely. Why did it happen so fast?
A) I understand why people might feel that way. But essentially he needs Nova more than ever now. And as things stand right now, it does look odd that Wrex would just forgive someone he was searching for to kill. But realize when he finds Nova, Nova has punished herself a lot more than he can. Also he wasn't looking for her and Mordin for three years relentlessly. I was very careful to state a clear connection between Ganar Wrang who killed Liara and his son Ganar Torque who is leading Clan Ganar in Wrex's Tuchanka story. Wrex has had a direct link to Liara T'Soni for years and he chose to wait three years for a reason.
Q) Why are your fics so rapey?
A) I have deep fetish for Dom/Sub, humiliation and reluctance fics. Most of the time my characters are somewhat forced or helpless and reluctant to engage in sex but they will always enjoy it. I find it more interesting and arousing to me than regular consent fics. And this is going to be a regular tone in this fic. Furthermore, there really is no way to write this fic without reluctant sex. Hundreds of thousands of Krogan need to procreate and it's nearly impossible to find that many completely willing human females to carry Krogan children in a circumstance that actually makes sense. That being said, I love Krogan and reluctant sex so I combined the two.
Q) Where is this fic headed? If its not about Shepard and Wrex getting together then what is it since it seems like most of the conflict is gone?
A) I'm so happy when people say that. I've already planned this fic from beginning, middle and end before I started writing it, so I designed this fic to be completely unpredictable. Not that I haven't read great Mass Effect fics with a reasonably foreseeable outcome because I have. But I created this to be different and happy that I accomplished that. I'm very pleased with the progress of this fic and it is turning out as I planned minus the Shepard confusion. When I end one conflict, I always introduce another. I feel like building a fic on multiple conflicts is interesting and keeps your focus on more than one thing in general. In this story, my conflicts will always come together to meet into a bigger picture sometimes immediately and other times chapters later. But all details that I express and conflicts that arise in this fic have a reason and meaning.

In any case, I hope this has resolved the largest questions surrounding this fic. New chapter will be out soon.
On another note, I was watching Game of Thrones and wanted to read a adult fic on it. So I go to Game of Thrones on adult and find a fic titled Sensa and the Hound and I really like it. Thought I would spread the word a little. So if you like Game of Thrones and you're comfortable with Sensa and the Hound getting together. Totally read and rate. It's really great.
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