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By : Amos
Category: +S through Z > Silent Hill
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Joshua and Alex ate dinner together. Adam still wasn’t home and it depressed Lillith into not eating yet, siting in her rocking chair near the window.
Joshua felt excited watching Alex eat because them man smiled at the first bite and couldn’t get over it.
“I hated this food as a kid because it was “Shepherd’s” Pie, but I can’t believe how much I’ve missed it. Lillith is the best cook,” Alex said while eating and Joshua couldn’t help but to agree as he watched him.
“It’s really good. What else did you used to eat?” The teen asked and Alex shook his head at the memories.
“God, we would have this, and lasagna, and potato soup. One time, a long time ago, she made Stuffed Cabbage and it was the most… homey thing ever.”
“...Why did you live with them?” Joshua asked as he took a bite, to try and casually bring it out, and it either worked or Alex was just too alive right now to tell him off.
“I honestly don’t know. My mother, she uh… must have done something bad, but Adam and Lillith took me in, kept me hidden since I was about a year old.”
“...So the town didn’t know about you?”
“No. I don’t know what my mother did, or why she did anything she did, but when I was growing up with Adam and Lillith, they told me that I was supposed to be a secret. So I was. Until you were born,” Alex said and took a small bite of his apple pie before putting his plate down. He was too weak to eat anything sweet yet.
Joshua furrowed his eyebrows. “Why until I was born?”
“Something would happen if I stayed; you could accidentally tell someone, or something of that nature. That’s what your parents thought at first, but then Margaret, being everything that she is… she somehow knew, and your parents sent me away. ...I really wanted to see a baby.” Alex was looking down at his hands in his lap, then his gaze traveled up his arm and he averted his gaze when he saw the bruise on his forearm.
Joshua put down his plate. “Why did you come back? If you were sent away to stay safe, why come back here where they made you leave?”
“...After everything I’ve been through… I really wanted… this is stupid. Do you have anything else you want to ask me, or not?” Alex looked at Joshua, who pressed his lips together, figuring out if he wanted to ask or not.
“…I… I saw you, Alex… and Mayor Bartlett. What’s going on with you?”
Alex’s gaze turned into a glare, and then he scowled. “You don’t want to know. Is that it? That’s all you have? Because if so, I’m going to rest.”
“How am I supposed to do all this stuff if you don’t want to help me? You have to either help me or guide me, because this is stupid. Why haven’t you left town yet? You know that no one here likes you.” Joshua leaned back against the secret door, huffing.
Alex eyed the teen for a moment before shaking his head. “I can’t. Not now that the town is on lock down.”
“Why didn’t you leave before?”
“Because, Joshua, I just didn’t. It’s not like I’m allowed to, anyway. Bartlett and Holloway are adamant on my staying here and everyone else in this shit hole is obsessed with obeying them.” Alex sighed and dragged a hand down his face, pinching the bridge of his nose.
Joshua looked down at his plate, not knowing what to do. Then he glanced up, giving a slight wave of his hand. “...So, um… how often do you go to the Bartlett house?”
Alex looked like he was going to punch him, so Joshua held up both hands.
“I’m asking because of the coin pillar! Jeez, dude. I’m gonna see if I can find the coins and then, I’m assuming Mayor Bartlett doesn’t let Joey stay home during that stuff, right?”
Alex dropped his head back against the wall and sighed before going quiet for a while. “The kid isn’t there when I go over, he was just there that night when you were. Bartlett usually locks the door when I go inside. You’re wanting to sneak in, am I right?” he looked at Joshua through his lidded eyes and the younger brunette nodded.
“You’d better not get caught Joshua,” Alex breathed deeply. “I’ll unlock the door for you after I’m inside and then I’ll… keep him distracted. But you’ve got to be quick, do you understand me?” The man lowered his voice and the teen nodded again, smiling just a slight at him in return.
Alex shook his head with a deep exhale and pushed forward off of the wall to lean his elbows on his knees. “...You’d better be really fucking quick.”
“I will, I promise.” Joshua reached out, sticking out his pinkie for Alex, who didn’t give sass or anything before reaching out and completing the swear. Then Joshua stood up after a moment, taking he and Alex’s plates before pushing open the bookcase door.
“I’ll be back in a bit, okay? I’m gonna look some more for the coins,” he said.
“Try looking in the attic, Adam stores a lot of stuff up there.” Alex sighed and started standing up. “I’ll have to help you. Let’s hurry before your dad gets back,” he said and Joshua blinked back his fluster when Alex took a step forward, making them even closer in the confined space. Nodding, Joshua quickly stepped out of the secret room so that he would be out of boner’s way, and he went to put the plates on his desk. Carefully glancing back, he looked at Alex, who had just emerged from the secret room and was stretching. Lifting his arms up over his head, his extended torso pulled his shirt up his naval and it was just enough for Joshua to see his V-line from his pants that were too big at the waist.
There was also what looked to be a bruise or something hiding underneath his shirt, the bottom of the wound barely visible from the height that the shirt was lifted to. And then there was a loud exhale and Alex dropped his arms back to his sides, his shirt pooling down his sides and covering the skin that had been briefly shown. Joshua quickly looked up to Alex’s face and motioned a hand.
“Ready?” he asked. It felt like a sin for how good he was getting at sneaking glances.
Alex nodded and turned to shut the bookcase. “Yeah.” He pointed off to the door. “You should go first, make sure it’s clear.”
“Oh, uh, yeah, I was going to do that.” Joshua walked off to the door so that he could peek out and he puffed when he heard an airy snicker from Alex. He was getting better at peeking, but he was still an airhead around that man.
Looking down the hall, it seemed clear enough. It was just a straight turn to the left from here and then they would be in the TV room. And after that? The attic staircase in what looked like a closet door.
“It’s clear,” Joshua looked back inside the room at Alex, who was heading over from the bookcase.
“Let’s go, then.”
Joshua stepped out into the hallway so that Alex could slip out and the man turned immediately to the TV room, like he knew the entire house. He did.
Joshua stood watch until Alex disappeared into the room, but then he quickly turned back to his room and went to his bed, where he slipped a hand underneath his pillow. The weird flashlight Alex had given him was still there, and he pulled it out of its hiding spot before heading back out of the room, sticking it in his pants waist band. Then the teen went in the TV room after Alex, going inside and shutting the door quietly just after.
“I have a question,” Joshua whispered to Alex after rushing to catch up to him, the man walking in front of him to the staircase door, leaving the younger brunette to talk to his back.
“What?” Alex sounded, not much of anything in his voice as he continued to the door. Once reaching it, he grabbed the doorknob to turn it but Joshua reached out and placed his hand over Alex’s forearm, slightly gripping it. Alex turned slightly to look at the teen.
“What?” He asked again, this time having some soul in his question. Joshua didn’t let go of Alex’s shoulder, but he lifted his gaze up to look into the man’s brown-grey eyes, which were lowered and looking into his brown.
“I want to do all of this so that you won’t be an outcast anymore… so that I can figure out why it is they’re treating you like that. But what are you going to do after all of this? Stay here? Leave? You haven’t told me everything Alex, and I want to know,” Joshua spoke, his voice quiet; louder than a whisper but quieter than a hush.
Alex looked down at Joshua’s hand, his skin fair and pale. He didn’t let him go; instead, Alex could feel the grip tighten just a slight.
“...I don’t know, Joshua. Just concentrate on your summer adventure,” the man mumbled, turning the doorknob and pushing the door open before stepping inside, slipping out of Josh’s grip as he did so.
Shutting yet another door behind them, Joshua followed Alex up the steps to the attic, where it was soaked in darkness. Joshua pulled the flashlight from his pants, switching on the light switch and holding it in his grip. Alex looked at him like he had forgotten that he had given it to the teen, or maybe as though he didn’t think he would actually use it.
Joshua glanced up at Alex and smiled meekly. “I figured it’d probably be dark. We never come up here so-”
“So there’s no need for a light,” Alex finished and Joshua blinked but nodded. It was something that Adam would say to Joshua when he was growing up. The man had done so much work to the house that by the time it actually came to the attic, he had worn himself down of it.
Carefully slipping his gaze from Alex, Joshua started slowly looking around with the flashlight, dust particles and heavy shadows taking up the empty floor’s space. It actually did frighten Joshua, seeing the shadows that warped with the movements of hid light. Swallowing, he took a breath. “Where do we look?” he asked quietly, his voice taken by the dust that swelled his throat. Alex watched the teenager, lips tight with concern at the look that he saw in his eyes.
“…Over there,” the man reached out, taking Joshua’s hand with the light and guiding it to a spot in the nighttime attic where there was a large, empty dresser against the far wall. Joshua nodded, a breathy word coming out of his mouth that Alex couldn’t decipher. The man let go of Joshua’s hand and instead, put his arm around the teen brunette’s shoulders.
“Don’t scare yourself,” he said quietly, but it pounded in Joshua’s ears. The teen nodded, swallowing again at the nerves that took him over when Alex’s body pressed beside his. It did make him feel safe, but having his arm outstretched to the darkness still gave him the fear that something foreign would grab him, like a ghost.
Joshua didn’t believe in ghosts, but he did believe in the fear that the darkness gave him.
Alex walked Joshua to the dresser with him, but then he paused half way and looked at Joshua’s face, dark in the attic’s assault. It wasn’t usually this dark, but it was night now, and it swallowed any light that could be shining in through the little windows. “Can I have the light real fast? I’ll give it back,” he said and Joshua immediately tried finding the man’s face with his wide eyes.
“What?”
“Just let me see it really fast,” Alex chuckled, watching Joshua’s white eyes. The teen didn’t do anything, so after a brief moment, Alex reached out and took the flashlight with his free hand. Then he turned it, shining the light at Joshua’s chest, and the teen shut his mouth tight, unsure of what was going on. There was another little moment of silence, and then Alex looked at Joshua’s face again, that he could now see.
“...Your shirt doesn’t have any pockets, do you care about it that much?” Alex asked. Joshua furrowed his eyebrows, looking down at the light that shone on his dark t shirt.
“...No?”
And then Alex reached out to Joshua’s chest, where he gripped some of the cloth over the teen’s heart. He leaned in close and Joshua got light headed, but then he heard a tear and it made him even more unaware.
Alex let the cloth go from between his teeth, where he had torn a small hole, and then he tore it just a bit wider with his fingers before stuffing the flashlight inside, the cool plastic chilling Joshua’s hot chest and giving him goosebumps.
Alex slipped away from Joshua, stepping away so that he was in the bent flashlight’s view. “Is that better? You don’t have to hold it, just wear a shirt or coat with a chest pocket,” the man spoke and Joshua looked him over. He looked so human, so so human.
“...It’s better,” Joshua spoke before smiling, dropping his hands to his sides. Alex nodded, giving the teen a smile of his own, before turning to the empty shelf that stood just before them.
“Okay… I’m gonna push this out of the way.” Alex walked to a side of the shelf, where he braced himself against it. Joshua watched as he slowly pushed it to the side, using four strong shoves. And there was a door, hidden behind the shelf.
“What’s this room?” Joshua asked, looking at Alex. The man gave a light shake of his head, walking to the door and turning the doorknob before pushing the wooden door open.
“Adam brought me here once, when I was a kid. From what he told me, it’s important to the family. I… think he didn’t know he was going to have his own child back then. Anyway, if he hid the coins with whatever significance they have, they’re probably in here.” Alex stepped into the room and Joshua followed quickly after, his light guiding Alex inside.
The room was small, with a desk. On the wall to the right, there was a hanging paper that read of Adam’s retirement from the military, with some great words and whatnot. Overall, the room was full of successes, and there wasn’t anything the interested Joshua. His uninterest actually made him forget that he was on a mission, until Alex said something from just a bit away.
“Josh, I need some light.”
Joshua glanced over and he could see Alex kneeling beside the desk, where there were some boxes shoved underneath. Joshua stepped over and knelt, too, so that he could look while lending light. Alex grabbed a smaller box and pulled it off of the others to himself, before glancing at Joshua.
“What do you think’s in it?” he asked, to which Joshua honestly shrugged. Alex looked back to the box, pulling the crossed flaps open so that he could peer inside. Joshua also looked.
It was full of packing peanuts, nothing more. Alex put it down and moved on to the next, to which Joshua helped him rush open.
It was the same.
But, then Joshua grabbed one and gave it a light shake, to which it made metal noise. “I think this is it,” he said, putting it on the floor in front of him so that he could open the flaps. Alex looked over so that he could see what Joshua pulled out. Looking inside, it did seem to be the box. There were coins, random junk, crumpled pieces of paper- then something grabbed Joshua’s rummaging fingers and he threw the box down with a loud, startled yell.
“What? What?” Alex reached out to grab Joshua’s hand that he held, but the teen didn’t let him, his eyes full of panic and his mind terrorized. “What was it?” Alex asked, looking at the fallen box, its contents spilled.
“S-something grabbed me,” Joshua spoke quickly, getting up just as fast as he spoke.
“What? It was probably just a bug-”
“I fucking love bugs, that was not a bug,” Joshua breathed heavily, still gripping his hand. Alex watched him in pure confusion before slowly getting up with him.
“Okay, okay, let’s get out of here and do this later,” he said, Joshua already nodding quickly in agreeance. Alex let Joshua lead the way, the teen rushing too much for the man to stop and put the shelf back in front of the door.
“Joshua, wait!” Alex whispered sharply after Joshua, who was leaving him in the attic in his hurry. But then the teen stopped just before the attic stairs and Alex had to stop quick so that he wouldn’t run into him.
“Joshua!” They could hear Adam calling for Joshua. It didn’t sound angry or worried; it was probably just to see if he was asleep, but once he found that Joshua wasn’t in bed, he’d probably start actively searching for him. If he wasn’t already.
They waited for a long moment, testing the ground to see if they could make it or not, but then they could hear Adam’s booted footsteps in the TV room. Alex grabbed Joshua, turning him around quickly before shoving him toward the secret room.
“Go and get your ass in there, hurry up!” he whispered sharply to the teen, who obeyed by rushing back to the room. He left the door open, watching Alex with his light as the man stayed behind.
If Adam came up into the attic, he’d notice the shelf being moved. Joshua saw something pass in Alex’s eyes, but he couldn’t tell what it was. Not until Alex started hurrying over. Grabbing the door, Alex looked into Joshua’s eyes.
“Be quiet and wait,” he whispered before shutting the door in Joshua’s face. Then Joshua could hear the shelf along the floor, scraping just outside of the secret room that he had been stuffed in.
“Alex! Alex, you can’t leave me in here! Don’t leave me!” Joshua pat the door quick, the sound of the shelf scraping the floor carving his ears.
“Alex!”
Silence. It was silent, then. It was just silent. After a moment, Joshua’s frantic heart picked up pace until he himself could hear it, and then after just a second, he could hear everything in the room. He could hear the falling dust, something tiny inside of the wall, the high pitched frequency of pure loneliness that struck him in the ears.
“Alex.” He had meant for it to be a whisper, so that he could test if Alex was there or not, but his voice had deceived him regardless and it had come out as a whimper.
His gut was filling with painful nausea, so he turned and slid down the door to sit on the floor against it, pulling his knees up to his chest and hugging them. He still had the flashlight, but he didn’t know where to shine it. He dropped his head down, putting his face in his knees and shutting his eyes.
One, two, three, four
There was the feeling of something hovering over him, like it was slowly making its way to touch him.
Five, six, seven, eight
Then there were boot footsteps in the attic. Wandering, stepping around; searching.
Nine, ten, eleven, twelve
The frequency in his ears got higher, and the feeling of that invisible force reaching for him got slowly closer, making the hairs on his neck stand up. And even after that, the footsteps seemed to stop; for just a moment before picking back up in a steady path. Right to the secret room.
Thirteen, fourteen, fifteen, sixteen, seventeen, eighteen, nineteen
The frequency picked up even more, and the hairs on his neck turned into buckling on his spine, like he were a cat near water. The footsteps got closer.
Twenty, twenty one, twenty two
And closer.
Twenty three, twenty four, twenty five
And even closer.
Twenty seven twentyeighttwentyninethirtythirtyonethirtytwothirtythree
Then the footsteps stopped. And then, after a moment, they started going back where they came from.
Joshua brought his arms up over his head to hide himself from the ghost, shaking his head with an airy sob.
Thirty four, thirty five, thirty six, thirty seven
“She’s not here,” a voice said and Joshua looked up.
It was some sort of shadowy man, watching Joshua with his beady red eyes that seemed endless, like they were something else. He was something else. He wasn’t human.
“She’s not here,” he said again and then there was a shadowy hand that raised up just in front of Joshua’s face, and he screamed when it jerked for him.
“Joshua, sh… sh…” It was Alex’s voice and Joshua opened his eyes, his body sweaty and his heart racing. He could feel Alex holding him from behind, an arm around his torso and a hand over his mouth. They seemed to be on the floor, with Joshua sitting slouched against Alex’s torso, the man holding him and willing him to be quiet.
They stayed like that for a moment, enough for Joshua’s heart to gradually calm down, and then Alex slowly moved his hand from the teen’s mouth.
“...Are you okay?” He asked, looking at Joshua’s clammy face, pale as though he were sick.
Joshua didn’t do or say anything, his open eyes on the desk in front of him, his light shining against the spilled coins on the floor.
Alex put a hand on Joshua’s head, pulling him close so that he could try and calm him down more. “I’m sorry,” he said. Then Joshua managed to utter a whispered “Where were you”, that sounded just as sick as he looked.
“Adam came up so I hid behind some mannequins in a corner. I’m sorry you got so scared, I didn’t think it was that long of a time… What was that, a panic attack?”
Joshua placed his arms over Alex’s that was around his torso, holding him while he stared at the glittering coins.
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Shame	By : Amos Category: +S through Z > Silent Hill Views: 1056 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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