Find Me Somebody To Love | By : trishd83 Category: Kingdom Hearts > Slash/Yaoi - Male/Male Views: 1693 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0 |
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The alarm blared through the silence of the morning Riku reached over and shut it off. He laid back down staring up at the ceiling planning out his day. Today was going to be another busy one. It seemed like they all were lately between school, work, homework, chores, and watching his brothers he didn't have much time for himself. He supposed that was a good thing at times though since when he did have down time no matter how much he tried to avoid it he always ended up thinking about how lonely he was. Sighing he got up went to the bathroom came back to his room, sat on the bed pulled out his laptop and powered it up. As he waited for it to boot up he went through his day in his mind. Okay let's see, class from 9:00 to 10:50 and 12:10 to 2:00. Then home to get the little brothers from school and work from 5:00 to 11:00. He smiled when he remembered that Roxas would be working tonight. Well that will be a highlight to my day. How sad is that Riku you loser you have a crush on a straight guy. Disgusted with his thought direction he turned his attention to his computer, checked his emails, nothing exciting there so moved on to his Facebook and checked his updates. "Hmm what should I put as my status?" he asked himself. "Can anybody find me somebody to love?" he hit submit. "I am so pathetic." Leaving Facebook he moved on to a website of writers called "Playing With Fiction" the authors write stories using characters from different games, movies, books and TV shows. It was one of his favorites he especially liked to read the yaoi stories and day dream about finding his true love. He searched for new stories by his favorite authors, found one of them updated their story and settled in to read. The title was "The Happy Cow" Riku needed to cheer up so he chose this one for its title hoping it was a happy story. He wasn't disappointed; Sammy-Dee had done it again. He looked at the clock, an hour and fifteen minutes until class. Plenty of time to get ready, he got off the bed grabbed his clothes and headed to the bathroom. Forty minutes later he was on his way to school with the memory of the story on his mind. It was a happy story and did make him smile but now he was getting depressed again thinking he will never find love like that with someone. There were so many strikes against the possibility of that ever happening. He counted them off in his head, one, he lived in a backwoods town of ignorant people that did not understand what being gay meant. Two, he had a family that did not understand what being gay meant. Hell his mother kept telling him he was just confused and his dad doesn't even talk to him really, not since his little brother got old enough to play sports anyway. Three, there were no, absolutely no decent gay guys to choose from within a 50 mile radius of where he lived. Four, he went to a Christian College not exactly gay friendly. "God damn it, I need to get the hell out of this town!" he said to know one or maybe to himself. Frustrated and near tears he pulled into the lot of his school and walked in to start his day, such as it was.
OOO Zexion buried his face in the pillow willing the alarm to shut off, it didn't work. Grudgingly he reached up to the cell phone he used as an alarm clock, hit the end button and fell right back to sleep. Five minutes later it went off again, groaning he grabbed it hit the end button, rolled to his back and stared at the ceiling, falling asleep again. Five minutes later the alarm blared again he hit the end button since the phone was now resting in his palm. This pattern repeated for twenty five minutes until the programming ended. Once the alarm game was over he began an internal discussion on the odds of talking his Mom into letting him stay home from school he decided that wasn't going to happen and picked up the remote to turn on the T.V. He found a Charmed re-run that he left on then picked up his phone to check the in box for one of his favorite sites. It had stories written by the fans of different games, shows, movies, mangas and such with alternate endings or their own story lines. He found a lot of good authors and great stories to read. He'd even written a few of his own; being inspired by some of the stories he had read. One of his favorite things to do when he found a story was to read the reviews from other people who read it too. That was one of the ways he found other stories that would interest him. But he also looked up the profiles of the people who'd reviewed and occasionally if they sounded interesting he would send them a private message. Sometimes they responded, sometimes they ignored him but he'd made a couple decent on line friends that way. Which is good since his over bearing bitch of a Mom kept such a tight leash on him, the only way he could socialize outside of school was through text and email. He sifted through his new personal messages, returned them and went to search stories. He liked the ones that contained yaoi but that wasn't a requirement for him to choose a story. If it had a good plot and was written well he would read it and review. Reviewing was important to Zexion because he knew how much it meant to the authors to get reviews; besides he put on his profile that his goal was to find good stories with only a few reviews and give them a review. He had to be true to his word didn't he? He settled in to a comfy position to read a story that looked interesting. It was a fluffy story that made him drift to daydreaming about finding someone of his own to love. He shook his head to clear the thought, "Who are you kidding? You are never going to find someone to love with the fucking life your stuck in. Remember baka, feeling nothing is better than being hurt and disappointed. You can't be disappointed if you don't expect anything to begin with." He tossed his phone down and got up to get ready for school. But as hard as he tried to not think about it his mind drifted back to the fantasy of having someone to call his own, and while water ran down his back tears ran down his face as his loneliness overtook him once again. Twenty minutes later he was back in his bedroom playing Dynasty Warriors to get his mind off the sad shit and prepared for his day and thirty minutes later he got "her" up to drive him to school. In the car she tried her usual chit-chat and when he didn't respond to her liking she started her usual bitching at him about his grades. When that didn't get a reaction she moved on to him always being in his room and needing to get along with her asshole boyfriend and on and on until it became a droning in his head. When she pulled up to the school he practically jumped out of the car still moving. "I love you!" she yelled. "Yeah, you too," Zexy said over his shoulder as he walked away. Finally! He was away from his prison and the warden, for a few hours anyway. He spotted a group of friends and saw Larxene wave as she jumped up and down like a dork to get his attention. He couldn't help but smile and redirect his steps toward the small group, his loneliness forgotten for the moment. At lunch he always went to the library, today was no exception. He made a few changes on his PWF profile page then looked for a story to read. "This looks interesting. The title was Shattered and after he read the summary he decided to try it out. The story was great and as always he gave a review then once that was done he scanned the reviews. There was one that caught his eye, The SilverSadist, and as he scrolled through he discovered he liked what they said, a lot. Then he saw something that made him smile. The reviewer was a guy. He clicked on his profile read through it and decided to message him. This one he really hoped would write back. Zexy finished typing the message, read it a few times and hit send. All he could do now was wait and see if he would respond. OOO On break Riku found he had an email letting him know that Sammy-Dee had updated "Details" his absolute favorite story of hers. Well he loved and hated it because it is one of those stories that made you laugh and cry. He made a mental note to read it that night. There was no way he would risk reading it at school because you never knew what the next chapter would bring. For all he knew he would be sobbing by the end of this one and he did not want that happening in the school cafeteria. There was another notification from the site but it wasn't from anyone he knew or had reviewed anyway. "Hmm I wonder who this is." The message said it was from BluMisery. Riku clicked on the link to take him to his inbox and opened the message, it read: You are a male who... LIKES... yaoi? *faints* I sound like some weirdo... anyway, I would like to talk more, but if it's alright with you He chuckled, "Why the hell not, what could it hurt, hm, what should I respond?" He looked at his watch; there were only a few minutes before his next class. Damn I don't have enough time for a decent response. I'll answer later when I have more time. He closed the laptop, packed up and headed to his next class. There was a smile on his face for the first time in days, weeks, hell maybe even months with the way he'd been feeling. He couldn't wait to respond to BluMisery and see what he would have to say in return. The day just got way better. As Riku walked to his car his phone rang. He looked at the caller I.D. it was his Mom. He groaned because he knew this would be some kind of errand and he had to work at five which meant he probably won't have time to respond to BluMisery until after work. "Damn it!" He flipped open the phone. "Hello." "Hi, I need you to do me a favor." His Mom said. He loved how she would put it that way, as if he had a choice on saying yes or no. He shook his head. "Sure, what do you need me to do?" He was sure to not sound irritated or hesitant because that would just bring on a lecture and a yelling episode about how ungrateful and useless he was, he was so not in the mood for that today. "I need you …" as she rattled off the things she wanted him to do he calculated the time it would take to complete the tasks. By his calculations he would be 10 minutes late to work if he chose not to eat or go to the bathroom. Fuck my life! "Okay Mom I'll get it done." was all he said. "Thank you Riku." "No problem, bye." he waited for her to say bye then hung up. "Even if I did find a guy when the hell would I find time to spend with him?" he thought out loud. Lips pressed in a straight line from irritation, he through the car in drive, and went to do what his Mom asked of him. OOO Zexy checked his PWF account when he got home and there was still no response. Crap. I really wanted to hear from him, which is exactly why he hasn't responded; because it's something I want. You know better than to want something that will make you happy. He tossed his phone on the bed, grabbed the controller to his game and for the next few hours concentrated on nothing but killing his enemies. Yep nothing like violence to distract one from things better left buried. At a particularly challenging part his mother decided to barge in his room to "talk" just fucking great. He glared up at her, "What?" he looked back to his game. "Are we going to talk about what happened yesterday?" she asked. He answered without looking away from his game. "There's nothing to talk about. It's the same as always and will never change, he comes first." "Zexy you're not being fair. You don't understand how it is with me and Xaldin." "He's been living here for almost seven years. Exactly what is it you think I don't understand? You know what, just never mind, I really don't want to talk about this. It's over and done, just let it go, please?" "But I don't want you guys mad at each other. We all have to live here and it makes it uncomfortable when you two are at odds." "Well yeah we can't have you uncomfortable now can we." Zexy retorted. "Don't worry I won't get in his way. In fact I won't do anything to bother him since I won't be speaking to him if I don't have to." "Zexy! That's not a solution. I want you two to talk it out." "There is nothing to talk out. We are fine with it. You're the one making this an issue now can't you just drop it?" he asked exasperated. It was as if she liked to cause conflict between him and Xaldin. They were fine in their agreement of friendly dislike for each other. But his Mom always had to stir up problems. "Dinner is almost ready, you can talk to him then." "I'm not hungry." he said flatly. "Zexion, please?" "No." She threw her hands in the air, huffed and left slamming the door. Zexy threw his controller, said a string of colorful curses and descriptions of what his mother could do with various objects then checked his messages again. Still nothing, "Damn it. Well it is only 6:00." He passed the time away looking up more stories, reading and reviewing then played a few other games, watched T.V for a while and at 9:00 checked his messages again. "Holy shit, he responded!" Getting comfortable he sat back and opened the message. He didn't know why but he was nervous. How fucked up was that? He had no idea who this guy was and yet he was nervous about what he had to say in his response. "No time like the present." he muttered then opened the message and couldn't help but smile before reading even one word. The message was long really long. 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